This is something that's been on my mind ever since it happened. I haven't been able to sleep well, and I've never told anyone. The only reason I'm telling you all, is because I don't know you guys. It's easier to tell people who have no idea who you are since they couldn't necessarily tell other people I don't want to know. I just really need to get it off my chest.

About eleven or twelve years ago, when I was seven or six, I had a pretty good child hood.. for the most part. I had anything a little girl could want. Barbies, Doll houses, little dresses... Anything I asked my dad for, he'd get it for me. I'm sure that was to keep me quiet. I was sexually abused as a child. It went on for months before my parents got a divorce. (Not related to what happened to me.) He would tell me as long as I didn't tell anyone 'Daddy's Little Secret', I would get what I want.. when I want.. and he wouldn't hurt me. Although Daddy's Little Secret actually.. did hurt me. A lot. And I'm forever scarred by it. I haven't talked to my father since the divorce which has been a really long time. I'm not ready or willing to forgive what he did.

I really just needed to get this off my chest since it has been bothering me a lot lately. It's kind of ruined my life for the most part and I just need some way to cope with it.

Wow. That's terrible. When did your dad stop with this? I don't know if this is smart to tell on the internet but at least we are here for you. It's horrible that you were abused just for toys and clothes, that's terrible to do as a dad.

Cat, that's horrible. I'm sorry that happened to you. I'm really bad with anything sentimental, but I am here if you need me. 

What the heck?
That sounds absolutely awful.
I'm pretty much ready to puke.

Wow, that is literally the worst thing any father could do to their children. It's just... wrong in every sense of the word. Have you told anyone else besides this? Your mom (If you are still with her), a friend, anyone? You might consider going to a psychiatrist, this isn't something like "whatever" you might need some real help...

Are you coping fine? Just remember, everyone here is willing to listen and will try to help you, if that means anything to you.

I've read a lot of sob stories on here and a lot are just way too over dramatic. But if what you're telling us is the truth I am very sincerely sorry. This is one of the worst things any parent could ever do to their child no less. It makes me sick just thinking about it. To cope with such a thing makes you one of the strongest people I've met. I've never known anyone who has gone through anything close to what you're going through so I can't even begin to understand how you feel.

I can't really tell you how you could cope with it at all. You aren't obligated to tell anyone but if you are don't make it a psychiatrist or any doctor. Make it someone who is very close to you and who you truly trust. And you don't have to forgive him at all. If he did this to you then he doesn't deserve it at all.

Do what you feel is best to move on. You can't erase what happened but all you can do is move forward. Stay strong. I truly wish I could be of more help to you.

I really appreciate everything you guys have said. It means a lot to have people who appear to care for me. This is my first attempt at coping. It just makes me feel better to have told someone. I don't want to tell anyone around me since it would be very embarrassing to tell people that know me personally. I'll eventually work up to it, but for now.. I just wanted to get it off my chest for the first step.

Wow that is horribly depressing and disgusting, sorry you had to go through that. I do reccommend you get see a shrink to help exercise your demons and to cope with it and eventually put them in the rear view mirror.

That's some rough stuff you've been through and I'm sorry to hear it happened.  It's terrible when someone who has so much trust and dependency takes advantage of the situation.  I'm a father of a four month old girl and I cannot even imagine doing something like that.  From conversations I had with others who've been through what you went through, it's not your fault.

It's not your fault.  Whatever happened happened because your dad either made terrible decisions or he had other issues beyond his control to act.  It doesn't make you a bad person, it doesn't mean you're terrible or not loved or not worth the time and attention of other people.  You seem like you have a fairly decent grasp on what's going on and I can't imagine what your reality looks like.

If you need to talk it out, there are a good group of people to talk to on here.  I'm always happy to read what you have to say and understand what you're going through.  Let me know if you want to discuss anything outside the threads and boards.

Yikes. Not what I was expecting when I read the title. I was expecting like a short story or something. A fiction story.

Anyway, yeah. Ouch. That sounds.. really bad. You should really see an official on this one.
People on this site will also help you cope if you cant get a proffesional right now. They're a lot of nice people.

Just try to get through it. The first steps are always the hardest. Remember that.