I don't know if this is really accurate for me, since people sometimes picture themselves much lower or much higher than what they actually are, and I'm kinda still getting to know me. 

I'll start with the positives. I'm a pretty nice person in general and I'm very polite and courteous and stuff. I think I'm a considerate person as well, as I taken into account people's feelings before doing something. Similar to the thing I just said, I'm a very diplomatic person. I honestly don't know if this should be considered good or bad, but I think a lot about literally every possible scenario when it comes to a decision that involves someone else. I don't want to hurt them or anything, and I also think a lot before I say something as well. The reason why I said this may be good or bad, depending on how you look at it, is because I spend way too much time thinking about things in order to prevent myself from potentially offending someone. I'd say I'm a pretty hardworking person, as I always give everything my 100% effort, no matter what it is. I'm a pretty good listener. I can listen to rants and people vent and just be there for them. I can sympathize pretty good with people, so I can understand what they're feeling and comfort them. Finally, I like my sense of humor. I know not everyone likes it, and my humor is kinda up and down, since I have to make whatever joke I wanted to say at the perfect time in order to get laughs. 

On to the negatives, to start off with, I procrastinate a lot. If it's something I don't like or don't want to do, there's a good chance I'm going to put it off till the last minute and do other things. I can also be pretty negative with myself at times. I can get too down, and that's not something that is good for me. Another thing that's not really good for me, is my anger. It's pretty rare that I truly get angry, but when I do, it's pretty bad. I can apologize a lot, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but I feel that I do it way too often. I'm an insecure person. Confidence in myself is kind of like a roller coaster for me, and I feel like I care too much about what other people think or what they're gonna say about doing or saying something. I'm not the most social person in the world, either. I wouldn't consider myself "anti-social", since I have decent social skills (in my opinion), I just prefer not to talk in real life. I don't mind being alone, but I also don't mind being with others. I could definitely be more social or talkative in real life though. 

To answer your last question, the trait I would most like to have is patience. I'm patient to a certain extent, but depending on the cirumstances, and the person I have to be patient with, I can crack. I would like it if I could be more patient and stay strong. 

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Started from the bottom, and I'm still here.

I've struggled with a lot of self-esteem issues in the past but I think I'm finally starting to turn around on them.

I've been in (different) relationships for the past four years. Barely any time single. Barely any time to myself. No time to learn about who I am, no time to learn about what makes ME happy. All I was able to focus on was making my partner happy because, to me, if they aren't happy then I'm not happy.

I've realized how faulty this mindset is. Yeah, it's good to make your significant other happy, but you shouldn't DEPEND on their happiness in order to achieve your own. When I couldnt't make them happy, I thought I was probably one of the worst people on the planet.

Now that I'm finally choosing to spend some time alone, I think I'm making myself happy for once. I'm starting to think, hey, maybe I'm not such a terrible person after all. It's not that I don't think I can handle a relationship, I think I've just spent too much time focusing on others and not myself. I think that's how I really damaged my self-esteem.

Overall? I used to think I was a terrible person, but now I'm realizing I'm pretty alright. I'm fairly attractive, I love making people laugh (and I'm pretty good at it, I think), and I'm relatively smart. A trait I'd like to have is to not be so nervous all the time, haha. I do still struggle with anxiety issues.

Would I want to be a different person? No.

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