So.. Yeah... Hello again, ladies and gentlemen of the Vizzed community. It has once again been too long since I posted on this site last. I have been busy with college among other things. For those of you who do not know me, my name is Luke; I am an avid video gamer, mostly a fan of the classics, especially of certain genres like RPG's, Platformers, Beat em' Ups, and First Person Shooters. For those of you who already know who I am from when I joined in 2009... Welcome back. x3 Well, I've got some things to lift off of my chest, so here we go. I'm not going to go into details as to why I have took a long hiatus from Vizzed initially, but I will say that ever since a certain day, I have been haunted by the ghosts of my past. I was not... exactly very wise when I joined; I was naive with childlike wonder about this place. Eventually, as the years went on, I had gotten a lot more stressed about life in general, like how I don't have a girlfriend or someone to love yet, I've nearly lost sight of the passion I had for writing raps and posting them on here for some of you to read, stress of college, among other things. The biggest stress was knowing that there was a lot that I have not achieved or outright failed to do in middle school and high school. For one, I thought I could make a difference by writing poetry and rhymes and sharing them with others... only to find out how much some were making fun of me and 2 years later, I was cast aside by a new freshman rapper that went by the name of 'Super Saiyan Jonas'. I know it was petty jealousy, but it just got to me, you know? That was a part of one big amalgamation of a night terror I was living in. By the time I got into college, I was depressed; all joy I had in doing things like writing and playing video games were almost gone. And I will admit, there were some points that I wanted to kill myself so I would not have to live with the many, MANY mistakes I made when I was younger, and so nobody else I knew would have to put up with my depressing stupidity. I came close, too... But then I realized how many people would miss me, despite all the mistakes I made over the years, dropped everything I had in my hand (which was a knife, or in some instances, looking at my grandfather's gun when I was at his house) and cried over the fact that I had become what I had despised... An incredibly bitter individual.

   But ever since that day, I made a vow to myself that I would not obsess over my failures and instead keep pushing forward towards the future that I want to shape it to be. And maybe... rejoining with this site, or posting these threads every week or so might help me further towards a brighter future. I made astounding progress towards happiness on my own, but maybe some people here can help me out, who knows? But anyway, sorry about the long rant, but I just wanted to get that weight off of my back (which is the next step forward for me), or get that off of my chest. I think I've said enough for now, so I might call it a night soon-ish (for this site anyway). With all that said, My name is Lucas, or Luke; thank you to whoever is reading, have a fantastic morning, evening, or night... And take care until next time.

Reddragonluke : Welcome back, it is good that you want to move forward rather than focus on the past. Trust me when I say it will make your life a lot easier. Also keep writing, get better and better and eventually you could surpass and eventually shatter the talent of whoever this rapper named after a DBZ transformation is. Just keep believing and practicing and pour your heart onto the paper or Microsoft Word Document (whichever you prefer) and you will get better.

Again welcome back, and I hope you stay for awhile.

Welcome back to the fray. We're glad to have you.

And good for you recognizing that living in the past and worrying about all that doesn't matter. It's important to reflect and understand what went wrong with things but Life is like a bicycle. You have to keep moving forward, finding your balance, to get anywhere. I think you'll do well to realize that and keep going.

You control your fate, you make your decisions, and you're able to change things for the better.

Get after it.

And if those of us who participate in the boards and forums can be a part of that journey, cool. I'm along for the ride and I'll be a soundboard for you if you like.

Good luck, man. We're glad to have you.

Its not easy pushing from something that held us back. And that one thing is failure its always best to push on, and look towards the future. Yes the past will always be there, but in some scale to help you in a way. We strive to do better for the future, make better decisions, and do better things for ourselves too. People understand here what you mean, and that is the most important thing. Welcome back to vizzed I hope you can stay active as long as you can. Its always nice to see old members returning to the site.