Hello, Vizzed. I never really talk about myself much here, so I'm changing that. In many of my numerous threads, I mention how depressed i've become. This is partly why. Not too long ago, in June of 2016, I was incredibly agitated, due to not being able to find jobs. My self-hatred issues and seemingly reclusive demeanor probably plays a part. However, my mom actually found me a job. It was a dreadful factory gig. I had to stop fasting and prepare to work at 7:00 exactly. I was obviously tired and irritated. Me and my brother met our new employer after several painful minutes of driving. His name was Sokeil. He immediately got us ready to work professionally, but he strangely chopped my neck. I ignored it and moved on. We dropped our bags, then he started criticising my posture. He said I was sick or very strange. I was strongly offended. He couldn't stand me and said, "Tell him in your language: If he chooses to act that way, he will go home". I complained constantly soon after. I paced back and forth, with a growl. He forced me out. My older brother picked me up, I actually started crying, My mom said it was my fault and got rid of me almost immediately; I became super depressed. She also said none like me at all, and I belong in an asylum. Taking that into account, i cried. Bottom line, this experience was horrible. I got criticised endlessly and made a fool, just giving me more reason to hate myself. I don't know how to recover. I seriously need some help.
Note: After pondering this heavily, I must ask everyone: How do I improve? What should I do? Who is to blame? Can anyone be blamed? The point of this thread is to help my opinion of myself. I hope explaining my repeated sorrows would help.
Hello, Vizzed. I never really talk about myself much here, so I'm changing that. In many of my numerous threads, I mention how depressed i've become. This is partly why. Not too long ago, in June of 2016, I was incredibly agitated, due to not being able to find jobs. My self-hatred issues and seemingly reclusive demeanor probably plays a part. However, my mom actually found me a job. It was a dreadful factory gig. I had to stop fasting and prepare to work at 7:00 exactly. I was obviously tired and irritated. Me and my brother met our new employer after several painful minutes of driving. His name was Sokeil. He immediately got us ready to work professionally, but he strangely chopped my neck. I ignored it and moved on. We dropped our bags, then he started criticising my posture. He said I was sick or very strange. I was strongly offended. He couldn't stand me and said, "Tell him in your language: If he chooses to act that way, he will go home". I complained constantly soon after. I paced back and forth, with a growl. He forced me out. My older brother picked me up, I actually started crying, My mom said it was my fault and got rid of me almost immediately; I became super depressed. She also said none like me at all, and I belong in an asylum. Taking that into account, i cried. Bottom line, this experience was horrible. I got criticised endlessly and made a fool, just giving me more reason to hate myself. I don't know how to recover. I seriously need some help.
Note: After pondering this heavily, I must ask everyone: How do I improve? What should I do? Who is to blame? Can anyone be blamed? The point of this thread is to help my opinion of myself. I hope explaining my repeated sorrows would help.