Alright, I'm done hiding it, let's get it all out.

This story started around a year and half ago. I was feeling sick, so me and my mother went to a doctor for medication and etc. Once we were there, my mother started to feel bad. The doctor said we could always visit the hospital, as she had been feeling bad a lot around that time. So we did. And that's where all the bull**** started. 

At first, they couldn't identify the problem. So we planned out some meetings to find out the cause. It was during the 3rd meeting we got lab results. And they weren't good. She had been infected with a virus that slowly 'weakened' her muscle and immunity system. If you top that with her already unstable medical condition, then that could be a serious problem. That was hard.

So months went by with a lot of hospitals, doctors, medication, and stress with it. Until this Monday... 

She passed away.

For those few that might be interested as to where I was these past 3-4 days, I was just legit feeling down. My family I know is already so small. I don't want to lose anyone.
I'm not going to rant about what I experienced these last months, I just felt like giving those few an explanation. Here you go.

TornadoMudkip :  
Eniitan :  

Wow, dude. Wow. That sucks. I've never really had a close, close love one die before.
My thoughts go out to you and your deceased mother. I'm so sorry for your loss.

FunnyFurret : No way... I'm so sorry for your loss. I just don't know what to say. Seeing and reading your Thread makes me sad too. I can understand that you're down. But don't give in to the sadness! I think your mother wants that you continue on your path! It always helps to write down your feelings like you did here. The most times, you'll feel better. Thinking positive will help out too.

Maybe this was the best for your mother. She always will watch you in the heavens. Oh yeah, I'm always there for you, don't forget that!

Omg.....no, no no!!!!!!!
furry.....I am so, so so! Sorry for the loss of your mother....for it is hard for you to bear right now....I can see you have lost your smile....Your mother, I am sure she would want you to be happy no matter what. She would want you to have a bright future for yourself...there are times that you have to morn so morn when you need to. But, I promise things will get better for you. I'll be praying for you and for your family as well. This news is just too shocking to handle....

I don't think we've ever talked that much but I was moved to tell you that I'm so sorry about your mother. She isn't suffering anymore...

oh Furret! I'm so sorry for your loss! I know there's not enough any of us can say to help you get through this time, but at least, as brain said.... she isn't suffering.  I can't imagine the pain you and your family must be going through. I will be praying for all of you, and I hope that with time, you can find some peace.  If you ever need to talk... I'm here.  Please don't forget that...

Dang. Even though we don't really talk very often, I have to say that I'm very sorry for your loss. Everytime I hear others going through that kind of loss, it makes me almost cry, I even do cry sometimes. 

But remember to stay strong man. Everyone on vizzed is here for you. 

(also, I'm gonna like your post since I have no idea why someone would have such a nerve to dislike it...)

Heavy. So heavy.

My grandma died back when I was in high school and that was intensely heavy and I was genuinely crushed.

I couldnt imagine my own mother having the same fate.

I have a few questions/ comments in order to help me help you.

1. How old are you?

2. Does music help you feel better sometimes?

3. If yes to number 2, what musicians/bands do you like to listen to?

4. Do you have any brothers and sisters? If yes, then be sure to morn with them, as family support is crucial at a time like this.

5. Not a question, but advice. Have yourself a full blown cant control yourself cry. You have a lot of feelings and emotions built up inside that need to be let out.

6. Find someone with a genuinely good heart and who is a great listener and vent away. This will benefit you greatly. If you dont know who a good person to vent to is, Im absolutely willing to hear you out, as Im the guy people vent their problems to.

7. Find a way to occupy your mind for the next little while. You will need to allow some time to pass before you can begin to return to your old self before all of this began.

8. Be sure not to lash out and hurt anyone close to you during this period of time, as your mind and emotions are intensely fragile right now, and will be for several months at least.

9. Dont try to play it off like nothing is wrong, but also dont use this event in your life as a crutch either; find a balanced in-between.

10. This one will take a while to understand and grasp, but use this event in your life as a lesson and as fuel to allow you to succeed. Know that life is unpredictable and very fragile, so live your life to the fullest every day. Go chase your dreams, chase happiness, chase freedom; an event like this occurring in someones life can cause them to have a new outlook on life and can cause them to challenge the world. Life is too short to dwell, so go take on the world and win.



Dont have a grudge against the world because everyone in the world has to experience tragedy in their lives. Know you are not alone in how you are feeling. Celebrate your mothers life every day with achievements of your own. Know that your mother wants you to be the best version of yourself, so go out there and live. Live like tomorrow is uncertain. Live like it is going to be the best day of your life every time you wake up. Never forget to smile either, not right now because you have every right to be sad and mournful, but when you start to be your old self again; however long it takes you to snap out of this natural funk, remember to smile. For you. For happiness. For success. For a bright future. Smile for her.


All the best in this difficult time, and if you need someone to talk to, or just to listen to you and/or help you out, Im all ears.

FunnyFurret : Ian, I am so sorry to hear about your mother. I hope that you may be able to (not move on in a sense because that's hard) but still be motivated for life. I know it's hard because you lost your mother but it wouldn't be fair to her either if she was suffering in her present state. I found a quote I thought might make you feel better. "If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again." May God light your path, Ian and always remember the memories made with her and always know that she will be watching over you as grow up and experience the world around you.

This must be very hard for you to take.....there is nothing I can say to console you...but you have my utmost and deepest condolences...I am very sorry for your loss, and I can only imagine what life must be like for you...Just remember one thing...we are always here for you man, we are like a 2nd family for you, and let the burdens and the sadness be shared with us....be strong man, you will get through it....recently my english teacher lost his mother over christmas break and he didn't show up to school for a week or 2 because it was just to much for him to take all at once, and the last thing he wanted was to break down in front of his class...he has pulled through it though...even though he isn't entirely over it, he has gotten better about it...what I am trying to get at it that you shouldn't lose hope...keep pushing through it and you will find the light at the end of the dark tunnel...be strong, and remember that we are here for you man....always...even though life may turn its back on you and all seems lost, we will always be here...remember that.... 

I know I've only talk to you a few times in chat, but I've been in your shoes.

Four years ago my mother passed away with no notice.  Now at the time I was on a rocky relationship with her but I always made sure she knew I loved her.  Even though she was addicted to drugs most of my life I knew she was a good woman.  When she passed I made sure that she had the best wake I could afford.  The wake was held in our church where the minister who was a very talented singer did songs in her honor.  I had all of her family brought here even from malaysia to pay their last respect.  Then I topped it off with a huge dinner and a cake made by the best baker around.

That is what you should do.  Use all your strength to make the best farewell tribute.  I know it helped me get over the loss.  I am not saying you will no longer feel the pain because I know I still feel it.  I do know something she no longer has the pain she had here in the flesh she now is no longer bound to those drugs, no longer feeling the pain in her back and legs she is free now.  I also know I can talk to her now any time I need her.  I hope you will come to understand this too and good luck with the road to healing!

Man..... our thoughts will be with you. Remember we will be here always. I never had something like that. Yeah with my grandpa but that is not the same. Sure my parents had to sleep once in  the hospital but still. Keep strong. Really do what LCRain told you to. You can do it! 

Wow... that's really sad. I know a friend of mine who lost his father, I even saw him alive before he died so that feels very weird just knowing he won't be there anymore. I am so sorry for you, it is one of the most unfair things in live to lose your mother or father when you're not an adult yet. But that's how life is for some reason. Some people get all the good stuff, and others get lots of challenges in their life. Just know that everybody on vizzed can help you with it if you want, and that many here have experienced a lot of stuff too. And I think your mother will be watching over you, so she's not completely gone

I'm so sorry for your loss but remember things wil get better I promise and If you need anyone to talk to just ask a friend, even though I think I have me only met you once I still want you to know you can come to me if you need 2.