I'm always alone. Never to experience what it's like to show love and to receive it back. I'm always judge by my appearances and laughed at my life because I don't stack up to the hard working good looking men. Walk a mile in my shoes and you'll know what it's like to be me.

Where I live. Girls and women are always judgmental about me. One look at me and they turn their backs on me or back stab me to get to my friends. Use me. They don't give me a chance to show the expression I can give. That love I can show. All they care about is a in shaped good looking man with a big package. They want lust more than love. They want a guy who can please their needs instead of a man (like me) that can show them a good time, show them love and compassion they need. A man that will listen to their worries and comfort them and care about them. I'm not the richest man out there. I don't even have a cent in my name, but I shower them with love instead of gifts. There is no girl here in Louisiana that is kind and doesn't judge like that. I'm always alone. Always judged.

But I find it funny. All the women online I talked to are kind and sweet. I became to know them well to the point I trust them showing a picture of me and they don't judge me or even lie, but it's strange how I don't trust a lot of people online because I don't know their true nature behind the monitor of a computer... I've only came across a few women who were true about themselves and came to like one another, but it's sad that we can never physically touch. They are either taken or in a different state and I slowly walk away disappointed that all the good girls are so far away because we'll never meet. I don't like long distance relationship nor online dating and I'm doomed to be judge back at home.

So, I put on a smile even if it's fake and go on with my life of a single man to continue on what I always do and that's still be kind to everyone and help them with their problems giving them a shoulder to cry on about their love life while I hide my own. That is the story of my love life.

(Yeah. I was in the mood to write so I figured I write a little something about me.  )

Natas : That... was beautiful. Literally made me feel like letting my tears swell up. Heart-moving. If this was something of the nature like an assignment or a book, I'd rate it 10/10. 
The same thing goes with me, but only in a female's point of view. I guess, this could be the curse of the online gamers. 
Personally, I'd choose love anytime over lust. I care for personality, not looks. There's some guys who are actually nice in my region, but they're either already taken, or is just interested in being friends for now. 
Yeah, the thing is to think positively. Just smile, and actually think how you'd have a better future unlike the others, where they could be doomed to have bad relationships. 

This is really good! I even took the liberty of reading it again.

Wow...women are jerks to you...what could possibly be wrong with you?

That was a little unexpected and... poetic you could say. It sounds to me that you haven't found the right one yet I guess. D'you have any crushes on anyone in particular?

Wow..I' a little speechless. But I can say that I know exactly how you feel, and I feel like the judgmental people are much more...judgmental in California than Louisiana, but I could be wrong.

I really do think there are too many emotions to list all at once to make sense from reading all of that.  It is true there are things out there make girls swing their mood easy, and some that won't.  I wish I could say something like: That must be so awful, but I can't because I know the feeling too.  To meet others online, who mask their ways or appearance in some aspect or another.  Personally I don't care what reasons someone has to hide details or 'beat around the bush' as it was sometimes called.  If someone isn't ready to go into something in that manner, then they shouldn't be acting like that at all.  I feel for you, and seriously here, it is not often for anyone male or female to openly say the things you just did.  So be proud of what you did, because I know I am, and I'm sure I say that in words for several others responding to this.

That...was...just wow, I can't believe what I just read, I feel sorry for ya. I feel your emotions, and it is pretty aweful for your life.

catfight09 : I can't necessarily say I have a crush on anyone. I've never crushed due to the fact of what I said in this thread. I never given the chance to show any compassionate emotions toward anyone, but that is just how my life is. I still continue on, on the path of loneliness. However, I never show my true feelings yet I don't bottle them up either. As I always say. S*** happens and I always get the blunt of the worse.

Thanks guys for reading my story. All that I said was spoken from the heart and how I feel about my love life. I wasn't expecting it to be poetic.

legacyme3 : You hear that? I can be poetic too. and I didn't know it.

Natas :

lol awesome...

It's easy to be poetic, if you always speak from your heart. Remember that.

It can be hard at times, but if you say what you mean, then people will feel you.

I also have a little bit of understanding of what you mean by others being judgemental.

i know what you mean especially latley, it didnt used to be like this but ive been single for quite a while now. Ill leave you with this real person though. Theres a guy in our school who hasnt got acne but massive massive boils all over his face and it looks horrible you can barley see his skin below these angry boils, BUT he's ridiculously confident for what he looks like and he's alot more confident then alot of people I know it may be fake confidence btu the other day he was with this quite good looking girl. Theres also another boy in my class whos very freckily and has a few spots but because he's confident he pulled one of the ifttest girls in our class. I think if you depress yourself with the judgementalism thats everywhere these days you wont get far but if you roll with the punches and act confident and not just nice maybe girls will start seeing you more in a boyfriend light then a friend light, you might already be doign this in which case sorry to go over what you already know, but good luck on your situation i hope it goes well