I just wanted to know if I could make a new account and just terminate this one if I had permission for a staff, admin, etc. Everything has just been going really downhill for me ever since what happened during that one TdV.

And please don't post anything like "You should already know this by now" or any of the sort. 'cause if I really did know, I wouldn't be making this thread in the first place.

I'm not sure what happened since I wasn't here, but I have the suspicion that you're thinking it's a bigger deal than it really is.  

My advice:  Don't be so hard on yourself.  There are plenty of people that made bad decisions, then came around and became absolutely awesome users.  Don't undersell your ability to become a well-liked member of this forum.

It's not allowed, unless there are extreme circumstances that would call for a second account (and they have to be REALLY extreme!).  Whatever negative feelings you are experiencing, shake them off, lift your head, and prove to people that you are worth getting to know.

If there are certain people bringing you down, don't pay them any mind.... make NEW friends, and establish NEW relationships with people that won't begrudge whatever happened. Once you find the -right- clique for you, I'm sure you will have a much better time here.  

If you need someone to vent to, send me a pm. I don't bite.  

I agree with the post above. From what I've heard it's against the rules, and I'm also wondering the same thing - did anyone give you reason to want to make a new account?

I've gone through a similar situation... not here, but IRL where I made a huge mistake and I had to earn trust back. It took time - mostly just me "doing the right thing", and them seeing that I had changed. Once they begin to see the change in you, I"m sure they'll come around. If they don't, chalk it up as their loss.

I honestly don't think it's as bad as you make it seem. Sure you made a mistake, but people have gotten past worst. All you need is to give it time. It didn't happen all that long ago. Just keep plugging away as a good member and people will forget soon enough.

If you are having issues with certain users harassing you or something, let us know and we can look further into the situation.

Jordanv78 : It's not just for what happened during TdV. There are other reasons, but I don't see any point in trying to explain. With all due respect, I don't think you guys really would care, to be honest. I'd rather not be a nuisance bugging you with my problems, so I'll keep them to myself. I appreciate the advice everyone gave, though. You can close this thread now if you'd like.

Final Weapon : I understand, just wanted to offer my help since it seems that every other day you are making leaving threads or making it seem that you aren't that happy. I'm just trying to remedy the situation as best I can.

If there's anything I can do to help, feel free to PM me directly and I will do what I can to help you out.