hello everybody !

im here with a question, which better way i must do, to solve my oscilating level of consciouness ?

this oscilates almost every time, my fixed standard in neutrality, and my mind, for itself, oscilates emotionless, between shame and iluminattion levels ( min to max ).

the level of my hearth and my soul both are light, iluminattion.

i deal with this just forgetting everything that my mind thinks, and selecting and considerating true only that i desire.

it is not so easy at all, cause, i came from a negative thinking family, that only matters the pratical and the effort.

i always have been optimistic, even on dificulties, with my prayers, and some effort, cause i dont desire to be sad.

im spend all my smartness, for a supreme purpose, that is showing the truth, about, so many people failed, about achieving prosperity,

through the divine.

i told everything and i showed my secret, that i created after so much experience, in 6 years, of prayers.

and it WORKS PERFECTLY !!!!!

anybody of my family, gives me help to share my secret...

i already take remedies to depression and esquisofreny ( if it really is... ).

im taking consulpts with my psiquiatric, and she is only that truly undestands me, not only my friends, that are my true family.

is not easy to deal with all of that, including everything that i desire to do ( that surelly i will do ), for bringing the earth to a more evolved era, that everybody, does through magical powers.

it is all...

any answer is welcome !

I'm very glad you are coping with your negative background well! I'm not sure exactly what your questions is. You ask to solve your oscilating level of consciousness, but then it seems like you found your answer when you say "it woks perfectly". What is it you are actually wondering about?

it is just a question of level of consciouness bipolarity

actualy sometimes, they oscilate to a misery for a total happyness state for example..

my brain and my hearth are neutral themselves, it is just irritating.

but, my prayers are working over time..

I'm sorry for all your going through but it's great to have prayers and I will keep you in my prayers as well. I am like Light Knight except I still don't understand  your question even after he asked and you answered. Is there any other way you can try to explain what your question is?I understand that you are having a rough time I just wish there was something I could do to help

Light Knight : I just thought I would summon you so you could read his response and see if you can come up with an answer. 

dont worry cause now, this is past..

nowadays im much better..

i was just suffering bipolarity..

of emotions..

i was purelly depressed, by the life i had, by everything i had,

but now, im healed !

X)

there is no longer to worry about..

i said that cause i was passing a very hard emotional stage..

im glad that you care about that about me..

thanks very much ! =D