I lied.

There, I said it.

I haven't been on here since the Ice age, since I was too ashamed to speak out because of my made up lies. If you know me/check back my posts from the past, you would know what i'm trying to say.

I was a liar. a douche. a person who always whore'd for trust points and was hungry for attention. I went out there, annoying everyone, saying that pokemon was satanic. I slowly started becoming hated and have my trust points lowered. I was crapped on by nearly everyone in the chat. So in exchange I started to despise everyone. I made topics talking about how I got my trust points lowered and how I was gonna quit and all that crap. Hell, before I went really inactive, I made an incredibly attention-seeking topic, talking about how a knife went through my leg and how I had to goto the hospital and all that crap (https://www.vizzed.com/boards/thread.php?id=27811 that was a lie. I simply wanted attention. The way how people were like "I hope you aren't lieing" and all of that stuff. I just sat down and thought about it..thinking..how big of an idiot I am. I also thought..what's the purpose...what am I trying to achieve...what am i getting out of this? I'm simply making myself look like a HUGE idiot! a HUGE idiot who's being hated by every single member on this site. some people come onto me and are like "So hey cop, what about that injury?" and quietly, I simply ignore them and leave out the chat because Im embarrassed of my own stupidity. I even got permanently banned, but managed to be slick and have my way out of that. I lied just to get unbanned and cause more ruckus.

I'm sorry. for being such a lieing, hungry attention whore. I have such a low-self esteem. Im sorry for seeking attention, im sorry for lieing, im sorry for being such an idiot and a douche. Pokemon is not even satanic..! I simply said that because...Im simply an idiot. Im truly sorry. I just want to fix my ways, reconcile myself with everyone, and make tons of friends.

Well as long as you're being sincere this time... there's great news.

People are dumb and make huge mistakes. Sometimes really, REALLY big ones.  The fact that you're stepping up and being honest shows that you realize you've been one of those people. It means there is hope for change. It means you can work to improve yourself.  It means you can redeem SOME of your friendships.

It won't be perfect though, and it won't be easy.  You have to let go of the people who won't believe you or forgive you, and you have to be grateful for the ones who will.  You have to recognize that the people with hard hearts probably have every right to be that way, and that it's your fault.

Consequences can be tough.

That being said... being an 'attention seeking whore' is often a plea for help and the result of a desire to feel welcomed.

Welcome back.

While it's true that some may be angry with you, you should be proud of your courage to go ahead and confess like that. What's been done has been done and can not be changed. If you want to be accepted back in the community, you'll have to stand up to your errors and learn from them. Never avoid them. 

And to be honest, you were like around 12-13 when that happened. That's around the age where puberty strikes. I'm sure everyone of us went through those phases where you get mad about every little thing and want all the attention you need. While you can't fully blame that, it's part of what made you decide the things you did.

In other words, look back at what you did wrong, understand what you did wrong, learn from what you did wrong and move on. 

Welcome back to vizzed.

I don't remember you or anything like that so you're a clean slate as far as I'm concerned.

If you think you're the only person lying or making things up to impress other random, anonymous people on this website, you're wrong.  A massive percentage of the folks who participate lie, make things up, exaggerate, or otherwise inflate themselves because they care about what others think and they want the attention.  Most people do it.

If your life is uninteresting, instead of lying about, make a change.  Volunteer to help others, go pet dogs at a dog shelter for a while, do something with your life so you get some fun stories and have some cool experiences.  School, home, and pokemon gets unexciting after a while and pretty boring for the rest of us to read about so go out there and have some adventure.  

Find somewhere to volunteer and I promise things will get interesting really quickly, especially if you pick a hospital.  You'll have stories galore.

thank you all for your support...God bless..

You've already redeemed yourself by confessing what you did. I have no idea how much bravery it normally takes for someone to do it. I've had to do it before, so I can guarantee that it shouldn't be easy. Good luck making your new self known on Vizzed.

I'm sure many people will forgive you.

Well, I haven't met or seen you before, but it does seem like you've made some immature mistakes in the past :T. It makes me happy to see that you are apologizing and trying to make up for it. If you're looking for new friends, you can count me as one of your first

Hi pacman and popeye and thank you, I will add you both

Wow bro this is some really deep stuff. But the people here are good gamer folks and I think people can forgive and forget.  If you like a game or you don't just be honest and everything will work out.  So besides this post I never seen your other posts. So as far as I am concerned welcome back. But I don't speak for the people you might have pissed off.

Like a couple of other people already said, you're new to me. You're new to a lot of people on here. They won't have heard anything you've done and if they ask you about your past on here, you can tell them and they won't care because they know what you're like now. By the way, happy you decided to confess it and say you're sorry about all you've done instead of taking the easy way and making a new account. Doing what you did took courage and bravery and as long as you stand by it, you're good. I don't see you as a bad person just because of what you did in the past. I look at what you've done now. I do have to say, lying about being stabbed in the leg is really low, that isn't the kind of thing you should do for attention, but you know better now. That had to have been one of the hardest things for you to write in this post, considering how much you could have been judged by the new people like me. Anyway, You'll be treated better on here now that you've admitted all this and I hope the best for you. Peace.

SMBLOZ123 : I dont know. I think, I am a little unstable, emotionally..

cop7000 :

It seems like everyone was pretty forgiving.

I'm going to go ahead and close this now. For other troubles, you can make a thread in Cafe Corner.