Well... Because life has been constantly giving me a beatdown, I've lacked on everything. First my flunked college grades except one course of the 3, then a massive series of depressive attacks following, some of them involving my friends threatening to commit suicide, and one that succeeded, and losing online friends too for reasons I'm completely lost on. Even before my grades came in, I was busy trying to get my emotions back in check cause of even more attacks previously. I'm only back to let you all know of this and I may or may not be coming back here consistently.

I had a job as site staff here for a bit, but because of my depressive set-in a little later, I was unable to come back here consistent enough to maintain it, hence me back on Elite. I'm sorry for being a disgrace to the position(s) I was given.

All in all, other than my birthday, from last I signed in here til now has been utter disappointment/chaos. I don't know who wants me unhappy at all, but they're working hard at it making my life hell. As I'm typing this I'm still getting over what's been thrown at me. Don't put any more pressure than what already is on me if you're thinking it once I post this, cause I've come close to snapping. MANY times. And twice, I felt like I did.

So yeah, not the happiest "welcome back, how've you been, what happened to you" thread, but give me a break, I'm just putting it all out there. But I'm back anyway, partially at least. Give me a bit to recover, and I hope to be back in my happy, friendly mood. Please don't push me about even after you've read all of this, or there's no guarantee you won't get chewed out...

Well hello and welcome back. I'm really sorry to hear about what's happened to you. I can't imagine how you must be feeling. I don't want to make you feel bad or anything so I'll just leave it at that. I never actually knew you but I just got a new account and came back from a leave myself. Also trust me you couldn't have been a worse staff than me ha ha. I'm sure you'll be able to get in touch with some of your friends on here and maybe even make some new ones. I can also relate to your class problems I failed one of my courses as well. I hope you recover soon and I look forward to getting to know you and seeing you around .

Sorry to hear what your going through lately. Hope its all better soon. Anyway welcome back to vizzed. You might remember me...as i been trying to say hi to you and never getting a response back..Dont worry im not mad. Have a nice day.

Wow...I'm sorry all that's been happening to you. We haven't met really, so, hello! And welcome back to Vizzed! Well, sort of anyway. I get the depression bit. Don't beat yourself up over it, it happens to all of us at one point. I hope you recover soon. And also I hope to see you around the site sometime.

Thanks everyone, really... I think I'm ok now, but I'm not going back to college again any time soon, because there's still gonna be stuff that won't let me focus.

And people say there's no such things as online friends, thanks for proving them wrong.