Like the last thread, I will have difficulties on making this thread.

I had talked with Singelli on a PM telling her that I were having problems, and she told me to create a thread, this is what I had in mind to make.
Life is being tough with me, I want to study a lot to get into the school after High School, but for some reason I can't study, probably again by laziness... this laziness is killing me.
I've grown up a certain HATE for my geography teacher, she gives me the feeling she wants to command everything, when I only approach her she "closes her face" to me, and respond to what I ask her in the coldest tone, my hate is so much that if I ever saw her dead in front of me I wouldn't feel not even a little bit for her, and normally I am a very emotive guy, I would be capable of giving a hug to someone I never seen before in my life, but to her if I saw her dead I would feel content.
Nothing is progressing in my life, we are living in a bad situation, lack of money to do stuff, things stopping to work, things we use in our daily life, and the situation only keeps getting worse and worse.
And now, to f*** everything, my mother had left home with a folder which contained ALL her documents, and she lost it or someone stole it, my mother went to where it happened to give me the address of the happening.

I want to stay strong... but life is being too tough on me... I once again thought about suicide... and this makes me think why I am happier when I am sleeping, when I am dreaming or "being in another world", than being in my home with my family...

Summoning everybody who helped me greatly last time...

Singelli :
legacyme3 :
Jordanv78 :
mrfe :
Surgiac :
play4fun :
MegaRevolution1 : (Heh, this time I got your username correctly...)
geeogree :
danielbelitch :
JigSaw :
Light Knight :
bombchu link :
Surgiac :

Sorry to hear you're still in an unhappy place.

Laziness is definitely a problem for many people, and I wish there was a simple sure to get motivated and do stuff you wish you could.

Remember, life is what you make of it, so poor or not, weather your mom lost important documents or not, YOU have the choice to make your life a happy one. The trick is to actually do so. Try gradually change your habits to productive ones. This week, starting today, do something you should do daily, but have been putting off. Do it daily until it's habit, then add something, and something else. Eventually you will be a little more busy doing things that give your life direction.

Also remember, attitude means a lot. And I understand there is no switch to flick to change your attitude, but you can try to think positively, look at the challenges you face with determination, not fear.

I know you KNOW all of this, but I'm not very good at being supportive, and end up just trying to give advice; so I will end with this. You are not alone, many people (Ahem-my PM) have faced similar situations, and many of them have come out of the rut, and made a change in their life. We are all here for you, and trust me, we all feel for you. You actually matter to us, and I (we) really wish I could somehow help you more. It may be helpful to find some other IRL friends to hang out with: being busy socially really helps put your life in perspective and think about other people more than yourself.

One day at a time, be strong, determined, and remember you have a whole family here who, at least in some ways, understand what you are going through.

Let me start off by saying that suicide is never the answer. I'm sure you realize that, just wanted to say it though. I'm sorry you're going through this situation, but just hang tight. Ultimately, this teacher isn't going to stop you from achieving your goal. Unless she's gonna lie about your grade, working hard will give you the grade you need. If she lies, let someone know. They can take care of the problem. All in all, you just need to buckle down and get to work. Even if it's only for like 20 mins at a time, doing that often will add up. Trust me, it pays off. You've got people who want to talk to you, be friends with you, help you through your tough times, and pray for you. Know that, and keep on trucking.

I don't know about your situation, but I will say that being someone who has a lot of darker days and hard times, things do get better. Life doesn't just suck forever, it really doesn't. Sometimes you have a rough year, maybe even a rough couple of years. But your'e young. Your teacher isn't going to be in your life forever. If she's as terrible as you think she is, you can always talk to your principle about it. Don't get all defensive and angry, just calmly tell him that you think that for some reason you aren't able to click with her and think that she may be biased towards you based on her opinion on you, and you'd appreciate if they (your principle) would maybe sit and have a talk with you and her together to see if you can hammer things out. There's never anything wrong with communicating when you have a problem. As long as you're not being insulting or outrageous about what you're saying, people will usually take you seriously and try to work with you if it's within their power.

Also keep in mind that in a few years, that teacher isn't even going to phase you. Things seem so big and intimidating in the moment but when you get my age, things change, your outlook changes, and all these issues that seemed so life-changing at the time will actually turn out to just be "one of those things" that sucked terribly but gets better as you go. This is but one rung in a very long ladder. Just be patient and keep trying your best.

As for studying, studying is a big issue because it's very easy to get overwhelmed. If you have a lot to do or to study for, just try to pace yourself. Say you've got 4 subjects to study for. Lay your books aside for your three other subjects and try to put them out of your mind. Tuck them under your desk or something if you have to. Then, just try to be effective without exhausting yourself. Try reading and taking notes on 2 chapters; do a thorough job, but don't rush and don't stress. I've found that classical music or video game music (with no lyrics usually works best) on a low volume often help to break up the monotony, just make sure it's not distracting!! Then, once you've outlined your chapters or whatever you need to do to study, walk out of your room, watch some TV or get some fresh air, have a snack, or whatever you need to do to reset for about 20 minutes, then go sit down and do it again. If it's hard for you to study because you'd rather be doing other things, then I think it's important to reward yourself. Studying, like most things, is always easier if there's a light at the end of the tunnel. So when you finish your portion, take a small, pre-determined amount of time to check Vizzed and hang out, then get back to it. Repeat as many times as necessary. If you get half down, reward yourself with a slightly longer break.

Everything will work out. Just keep trying your best, and things will get better.

Singelli :
legacyme3 :
Jordanv78 :
mrfe :
Surgiac :
play4fun :
MegaRevolution1 :
geeogree :
danielbelitch :
JigSaw :
Light Knight :
bombchu link :
Surgiac :

Great news! A man in a car appeared on my house this night, my father wrote the info about the guy on the wall, that guy had the folder with all the documents my mother had and gave it to my father.

oh, what wonderful news!  I'm so happy you got your stuff back!  By the way, sorry for not responding earlier.  I'm a little busy tonight to type anything substantial.  Please don't think I was disregarding the importance of your feelings and thoughts.

great man. That is great news. I hope life gets better for you and trust me life gets hard and you just have to push on. 

Singelli : Aw thanks Singelli ^o^
It's okay, I understand you were at work when I posted this.

^o^

Good news!

It seems like events very easily put you up, or bring you down. Am I right?

Light Knight : Yes my noble Knight, yes, certain events can put me up or bring me down very easily.

Seishiro Leonhart : that's great news man. God IS on your side through it all!  
 
(sorry for not responding earlier)

That's great that you got your stuff back! We'll be praying for you so both you & the things around you get better.

Well, since I am not great with people, and I am not sure what you want., I will give you some different kinds of talk.

Empathy- Not sure if you want empathy. But here goes, I had a teacher like yours.  She hated me with every fragment of her being and I couldn't report her because she never outright admitted to not liking me, but all of the signs were there. She never listened to what I said, when she did she replied like I was a five year old saying he was a wizard, and she was just all around mean to me. But, I moved on, I graduated and left her in the dust.

Reality check- Your teacher will not be in your life forever. I am not sure how old you are, but in about 4 years, you will never see her again. 

Sympathy- Yeah, your situation really sucks. But, time passes and soon enough you will be able to escape the grasp of your teachers and your parents and see what life really is. And you will then see how beautiful life is.


Second of all, don't you dare do anything that could kill you. I dealt with depression my entire life and I couldn't be happier with the fact that I never did anything. Take some anti-depressants, hug a rabbit, but seriously, stay put.

Put things in perspective. Like others mentioned on this post you cannot let something like this control your thinking especially to the point of contemplating suicide. In a few years this teacher will be completely out of your life. Assuming that you are of school age,  you have many years and many more significant milestones left in your journey. View this a cracked brick in the road.

In the words of the great Joe Dirt

Life's a garden. Dig it! Keep on keepin on

I used to be suicidal and been in mental hospital  but I realized by myself  life isn't so hard it can be worse like being in poverty like you see those people in those African commercials,a mental/clinical illness, and I still have family and friends and I cant do that to them

mister sandman : That's kind of what I meant by putting it in perspective. There are so many people out there that have it soooooo much worse than anybody could even imagine on this site. It is very important to appreciate the little things in life. Such as the Internet and the Vizzed board. You could always be a homeless with little kids. I couldn't imagine being in a situation where I am fighting to feed and protect my family.

Local Mods : Please close this thread and possibly dump it on the Trash can, life can be tough, but only one bullet won't take me down!