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I'm freakin TERRIFIED of the slenderman. Any fears that you have?
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Ever since I played slender, I have not been able to sleep without my lights on and I start to see things outside. I am only scared of the slenderman, and that's it. Oh, and Octopi. Some say Octopuses. What are your fears?






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Ever since I played slender, I have not been able to sleep without my lights on and I start to see things outside. I am only scared of the slenderman, and that's it. Oh, and Octopi. Some say Octopuses. What are your fears?






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I'm afraid of the dark and spiders..and heights and a lot of things really. probably to many, I'm a paranoid person.
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I'll never say. I don't need my fear to be used against me.
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My biggest fears?

Probably being alone. I don't know. I hate not existing to someone.

Whatever.
My biggest fears?

Probably being alone. I don't know. I hate not existing to someone.

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In a car going over water or a bridge and I'm on the side over looking it but I'm not afraid  of heights just the car and me going over
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3 things: God, heights, and killers
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Honestly, the only things I can truly think of being actual fears for me are losing an arm/both arms or a leg/both legs, Nya~.

However, my biggest fear is becoming either Blind or Deaf. I love music, I listen to music all the time, so that'd definitely be a major loss in my life. If I went blind, I'd honestly want nothing more than to die. I wouldn't survive a single day knowing that I've gone blind, for more than obvious reasons, Nya~...
Honestly, the only things I can truly think of being actual fears for me are losing an arm/both arms or a leg/both legs, Nya~.

However, my biggest fear is becoming either Blind or Deaf. I love music, I listen to music all the time, so that'd definitely be a major loss in my life. If I went blind, I'd honestly want nothing more than to die. I wouldn't survive a single day knowing that I've gone blind, for more than obvious reasons, Nya~...
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I am scared of spiders and dogs
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Well umm... My deepest fear has to probably be either heights or Cockroaches. I don't know which one of them scares me the most because they are both terrifying. roaches have them ugly antennas and heights are to scary to even think about.
Well umm... My deepest fear has to probably be either heights or Cockroaches. I don't know which one of them scares me the most because they are both terrifying. roaches have them ugly antennas and heights are to scary to even think about.
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I admit: If I saw Slenderman I would probably be bowing to him and most likely would give him a $20 bill. I love Slenderman! I must admit though the presentation of Slendy as a whole is pretty freaky.


My biggest fears though are insects and worms though. You lock me in a room with a worm; one single worm, and I will be freaking out hysterically. I guess that's what phobias do to you. But me in a room with a large insect and I will be freaking out even worse.


I'm also extremely afraid of suffocation. I always sleep facing upwards towards the ceiling usually. Not that I think I will accidentally smother myself in the pillow as I sleep because I am pretty sure I would wake up if that was happening, but it puts an ease on my mind anyways.
I admit: If I saw Slenderman I would probably be bowing to him and most likely would give him a $20 bill. I love Slenderman! I must admit though the presentation of Slendy as a whole is pretty freaky.


My biggest fears though are insects and worms though. You lock me in a room with a worm; one single worm, and I will be freaking out hysterically. I guess that's what phobias do to you. But me in a room with a large insect and I will be freaking out even worse.


I'm also extremely afraid of suffocation. I always sleep facing upwards towards the ceiling usually. Not that I think I will accidentally smother myself in the pillow as I sleep because I am pretty sure I would wake up if that was happening, but it puts an ease on my mind anyways.
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My deepest fears.... well I really need to sit here and think about that for a moment. I know losing a very close friends or family member is definitely my most deepest fear. Even losing one of my pets. I consider them to be my children, since I can't bare children.

A few of my small fears would have to be snake, rats and spiders. They just give me the total creeps. I think it's because they are either slithery or crawly. Just, ewww. Haha. I think that is a typical girly fear.
My deepest fears.... well I really need to sit here and think about that for a moment. I know losing a very close friends or family member is definitely my most deepest fear. Even losing one of my pets. I consider them to be my children, since I can't bare children.

A few of my small fears would have to be snake, rats and spiders. They just give me the total creeps. I think it's because they are either slithery or crawly. Just, ewww. Haha. I think that is a typical girly fear.
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I think my deepest fear of all times is making wrong decisions in my life and not being able to succeed . But i am really trying hard to make good decisions , and not only good but the best decisions that i can make in my life . And i hope these fears of mine wouldn't be a big obstacle for me to achieve my dreams .
How about you , whats your deepest fears ?
I think my deepest fear of all times is making wrong decisions in my life and not being able to succeed . But i am really trying hard to make good decisions , and not only good but the best decisions that i can make in my life . And i hope these fears of mine wouldn't be a big obstacle for me to achieve my dreams .
How about you , whats your deepest fears ?
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What in the world is a slender man?!?!  

Anyways, I think my greatest fear is in lying to myself.  Most of the time I know who I am and where I stand, but I tend to doubt myself a lot and cut myself down.  There are many times when I have to ask myself "Do you feel so strongly about that, that you are willing to do more?  Because it doesn't seem like it."

And then I'll start berating myself for not doing more...
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What in the world is a slender man?!?!  

Anyways, I think my greatest fear is in lying to myself.  Most of the time I know who I am and where I stand, but I tend to doubt myself a lot and cut myself down.  There are many times when I have to ask myself "Do you feel so strongly about that, that you are willing to do more?  Because it doesn't seem like it."

And then I'll start berating myself for not doing more...
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honneydewp243 : This is a tough one for me because there is a lot of things that I worry about on a daily basis. I have made mistakes in the past and I’ve become a person who really feels bad about certain stages of my life and has tried my best to move on and mature from my mistakes.

One thing I fear is that because I wasn’t really the best person in my teen years that someone who may have issues with me will come out of the wood worth all these years later to try and make things difficult for me in some way. It’s paranoia but it is something that I do worry about. I have tried as best as I can to straighten up and although I don’t consider myself to be a deeply religious person as I do not go to church, I do pray daily. I have a lot of regrets about my teen years so prayer helps me. One thing I really want to do is to be able to feel that I have redeemed myself in my own eyes. It’s not necessarily a feeling that I have right now but I do want it eventually. It is one reason why I am trying to go back to school again and to try as hard as I can to get it over with. Although I have straightened my life out that is one thing that I need in order to feel like I’ve done good.

Another thing that I do worry about much like a lot of people is worrying about being able to survive in these troubling times. Things have definitely not been easy over the last couple of years and it has caused a lot of stress. I don’t really sleep well in part because I keep odd hours but the stress of all the above definitely doesn’t help because I am always thinking about something. Whether it be my regrets, worries or, worrying about a stressful situation that I might be dealing with. The self-doubt of wondering if I’m in over my head in regard to trying school again and doubting whether or not I can finish picking myself up so to speak also contributes to that.

One of my problems that has been a problem for years is that even though I freely admit I was a screw up in my teen years, wasn’t the best person and made many mistakes, there were also people that told me I wouldn’t amount to anything and or, told me I was a bad person. When you get told you’re a bad person and won’t amount to anything enough, you end up starting to believe it, this is where the self-doubt comes in.

One thing that I swore to myself and to God when I realized the errors of my ways was that if I did manage to pick myself up and correct the mistakes that I can correct and, be able to be financially secure one day that I would give back in some way. Whether it be by offering advice as I like to do on Vizzed or by getting involved in some way with charities so I can help others. I hope that I will be able to do that and hope that any advice I have given to those who ask for it has helped them in some way.

I also have a fear of doctors. I do anything and everything I possibly can to avoid doctors even if it’s for a regular check up. My way of thinking and again this is paranoia and a boarder line conspiracy theory is it’s all about money with doctors and no matter what they always seem to find something. So obviously I have a fear when it comes to doctors.



honneydewp243 : This is a tough one for me because there is a lot of things that I worry about on a daily basis. I have made mistakes in the past and I’ve become a person who really feels bad about certain stages of my life and has tried my best to move on and mature from my mistakes.

One thing I fear is that because I wasn’t really the best person in my teen years that someone who may have issues with me will come out of the wood worth all these years later to try and make things difficult for me in some way. It’s paranoia but it is something that I do worry about. I have tried as best as I can to straighten up and although I don’t consider myself to be a deeply religious person as I do not go to church, I do pray daily. I have a lot of regrets about my teen years so prayer helps me. One thing I really want to do is to be able to feel that I have redeemed myself in my own eyes. It’s not necessarily a feeling that I have right now but I do want it eventually. It is one reason why I am trying to go back to school again and to try as hard as I can to get it over with. Although I have straightened my life out that is one thing that I need in order to feel like I’ve done good.

Another thing that I do worry about much like a lot of people is worrying about being able to survive in these troubling times. Things have definitely not been easy over the last couple of years and it has caused a lot of stress. I don’t really sleep well in part because I keep odd hours but the stress of all the above definitely doesn’t help because I am always thinking about something. Whether it be my regrets, worries or, worrying about a stressful situation that I might be dealing with. The self-doubt of wondering if I’m in over my head in regard to trying school again and doubting whether or not I can finish picking myself up so to speak also contributes to that.

One of my problems that has been a problem for years is that even though I freely admit I was a screw up in my teen years, wasn’t the best person and made many mistakes, there were also people that told me I wouldn’t amount to anything and or, told me I was a bad person. When you get told you’re a bad person and won’t amount to anything enough, you end up starting to believe it, this is where the self-doubt comes in.

One thing that I swore to myself and to God when I realized the errors of my ways was that if I did manage to pick myself up and correct the mistakes that I can correct and, be able to be financially secure one day that I would give back in some way. Whether it be by offering advice as I like to do on Vizzed or by getting involved in some way with charities so I can help others. I hope that I will be able to do that and hope that any advice I have given to those who ask for it has helped them in some way.

I also have a fear of doctors. I do anything and everything I possibly can to avoid doctors even if it’s for a regular check up. My way of thinking and again this is paranoia and a boarder line conspiracy theory is it’s all about money with doctors and no matter what they always seem to find something. So obviously I have a fear when it comes to doctors.



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The things that I am very very very very scared of is Ganon from the Zelda II game over screen. Just one look, and I get a near-heart attack. Seriously, my heart pressure increases highly with just a single look at him. Even worse is the red background, the silhouette, and his eyes.

Another one of my fears is being really scared of every insect, fly, and bug imaginable. Any bugs that are near me or I see them, I flip out and run to my house. This happened a few times in my 8th grade year, and trust me, I flip out even more in class since I am sitting at a desk. When there's one especially in my Art or Science class, I run. In Art, I run and lock myelf outside the room until the teacher or someone else kills the bug. Seriously, my life is like PARANOID with Ganon and insects.
The things that I am very very very very scared of is Ganon from the Zelda II game over screen. Just one look, and I get a near-heart attack. Seriously, my heart pressure increases highly with just a single look at him. Even worse is the red background, the silhouette, and his eyes.

Another one of my fears is being really scared of every insect, fly, and bug imaginable. Any bugs that are near me or I see them, I flip out and run to my house. This happened a few times in my 8th grade year, and trust me, I flip out even more in class since I am sitting at a desk. When there's one especially in my Art or Science class, I run. In Art, I run and lock myelf outside the room until the teacher or someone else kills the bug. Seriously, my life is like PARANOID with Ganon and insects.
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i am scared of death, ghost (from pokemon), bugs, insects, the dark and being alone.
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Insects, also a irrational fear of Aliens.
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Slenderman is lame >.> he's just jack skeleton except not as cool
Anyway I'm scared of someone breaking in to my house at night
Slenderman is lame >.> he's just jack skeleton except not as cool
Anyway I'm scared of someone breaking in to my house at night
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honneydewp243 : Thank you… As far as grammar I am a writer so I should have at least decent grammar. I hope that at minimum I can help someone who may have gone through or is going through similar things that I have been through, if I can help people especially those who are younger then I will feel good about that.

I will admit since I have learned to become an honest person and have matured that I do have self-confidence issues and do have trouble feeling good about things most notably myself. As I said before this is where self-doubt comes into the equation. I will also admit that because of what I have been through both in terms of what I went through family wise (My parents were separated for most of my teen years) and how I hurt myself in the choices I made that I also don’t really feel too good about that even many years later. I admit I was a hurt, lost and confused kid back then. Frankly when my parents separated my world was flipped upside down. This led to me becoming a BS’er to a degree. I can’t really say why but I think it might have been an attempt to escape what I was dealing with. It certainly doesn’t make it right but I think that had a lot to do with it. Simply put I was a screwed up kid.

Although my parents eventually got back together it took me a long time to fully mature and get the wake-up call I needed. As far as school I have tried several times to get it done including trying to get a GED but I haven’t made it yet. The important thing is I do not blame my parents or anyone else for my problems. It falls on me. I will also admit that I didn’t really get the wake-up call I needed until I had a health scare seven years ago. So in the overall picture it was a slide downward that started as a teen but didn’t really end till my early twenties. I wish that I had heeded the wake-up call much earlier as it would have saved me so much regret and I probably would have been able to turn things around sooner. I am however grateful that I did get the wake-up call while I was still relatively young and not in my fifties or sixties.

Although I have straightened up there is much more I need to do and I’m not finished yet. For me this is about redemption both on a personal level and even on a spiritual level to a degree. I hope I can do it and it is my hope that no one may have hard feelings toward me or will be looking to make things difficult for me. It is also my hope that I will not be defined by that rough period of my life but rather that, that period of my life will be merely a chapter of what ends up a good story so to speak. Either way I do intend on keeping my word to myself and God that if I do finish what I need to finish and feel like I’ve done good that I will look to give back in some way. It’s something that is very important to me.





honneydewp243 : Thank you… As far as grammar I am a writer so I should have at least decent grammar. I hope that at minimum I can help someone who may have gone through or is going through similar things that I have been through, if I can help people especially those who are younger then I will feel good about that.

I will admit since I have learned to become an honest person and have matured that I do have self-confidence issues and do have trouble feeling good about things most notably myself. As I said before this is where self-doubt comes into the equation. I will also admit that because of what I have been through both in terms of what I went through family wise (My parents were separated for most of my teen years) and how I hurt myself in the choices I made that I also don’t really feel too good about that even many years later. I admit I was a hurt, lost and confused kid back then. Frankly when my parents separated my world was flipped upside down. This led to me becoming a BS’er to a degree. I can’t really say why but I think it might have been an attempt to escape what I was dealing with. It certainly doesn’t make it right but I think that had a lot to do with it. Simply put I was a screwed up kid.

Although my parents eventually got back together it took me a long time to fully mature and get the wake-up call I needed. As far as school I have tried several times to get it done including trying to get a GED but I haven’t made it yet. The important thing is I do not blame my parents or anyone else for my problems. It falls on me. I will also admit that I didn’t really get the wake-up call I needed until I had a health scare seven years ago. So in the overall picture it was a slide downward that started as a teen but didn’t really end till my early twenties. I wish that I had heeded the wake-up call much earlier as it would have saved me so much regret and I probably would have been able to turn things around sooner. I am however grateful that I did get the wake-up call while I was still relatively young and not in my fifties or sixties.

Although I have straightened up there is much more I need to do and I’m not finished yet. For me this is about redemption both on a personal level and even on a spiritual level to a degree. I hope I can do it and it is my hope that no one may have hard feelings toward me or will be looking to make things difficult for me. It is also my hope that I will not be defined by that rough period of my life but rather that, that period of my life will be merely a chapter of what ends up a good story so to speak. Either way I do intend on keeping my word to myself and God that if I do finish what I need to finish and feel like I’ve done good that I will look to give back in some way. It’s something that is very important to me.





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