Hello!

Truth be told i don't really interact with anyone from here much anymore and this is essentially me opening the door if anyone wants to actually talk on or off vizzed.

But i thought i'd just update people (or the void i guess if no one replies to this) about life and such.

Now some people who have known me over the years will know that for the first couple of years i was active i was basically a goofy idiot that just had fun and wasn't nearly as provocative or polarizing as i am today. This was about 8 years ago.

Since then to put simply my medical and mental well being has deteriorated quite significantly. During my time here i've gone from an outgoing athletic dodgeball player who reached the UK grand finals. To a 28 year old who can barely walk. who has liver disease.

To put simply vizzed has been one of a small beacons of joy/hate in this decade of ongoing misery that i truly appreciate. and a few people will probably have witnessed my change in personality first hand.

To keep this brief i apologize to those that saw me become more and more of a shell of my former self.

Take care.

sonicmcmuffin : Hello! I actually do want to mention that I do remember you from back in the day. We used to talk quite a bit and I"m pretty sure you might not remember me though it may be due to me using a different account so I apologize. I figured I'd give some of my words at least to this because I feel like it's important for you to know.

I'm always pretty open to talking. I have a discord open and if you ever want I'll send you it. It's a bit weird knowing how long it actually has been since we did interact cause there's still quite a few people that to this day I don't know what happened to them since they basically left the face of the earth, but to see a familiar face on this platform does really make me happy.

I know you might not be too active on this site anymore which is understandable due to your condition. I feel terrible knowing that and I wish sometimes I could exchange my life with people who have a lot more s*** going on, even if that isn't saying much. I hope for the best in your future and again I'm usually online if you need to talk to somebody. I'm sorry if you don't really know me from my past username or anything I just figured I'd start fresh since it's been so long.

~~In best regards

I remember you, not sure if you remember me, unless it was when I was extremely active? Which would have had to be about 2014 or so? Either way good to hear from you.

Hey, good to hear from you again. A lot of us might not know the extent of the problems you have, but we do understand you have them, so I don't think anyone can very fairly hold any change against you. Before, after, and throughout that change, you've always brought something unique to the site and we were better for having it.

I'm sorry to hear your health is so poor. I can't help but feel like this update had a bit of a "goodbye" vibe. I won't pry, but I hope you'll be able to stop back in once in a while. I wish you well.

Hey muff...long time no see huh? I should had at least messaged you through pm to see how you were doing and again I forgot. I am really sorry to hear about your health prblems and what it has limit you to what you can do nowdays. I hope in a way that there can be something done to help heal the problem if possible. no matter what you will still be a close friend yo me muff.

Well, we registered around the same time, so I'm certain I knew the goofy you, that's probably where my generally positive opinion of you comes from. But of course, I haven't been around much, so I'm not sure how things have been with your interactions and all that. But you're always welcome here, as is everyone who has or will see this place as the home it should be.

I apologize for all the hardships you've gone through, I struggle quite a bit more with my health as well, than I did eight years ago, though you've definitely got me beat there. I hope you get some sort of uptick eventually, nobody that young should have to deal with so much.

I'm on Discord if you ever want to talk, or not. But I hope I'll see you around regardless.

Heyo

I know I only ever interacted with you back at the start of last year and I know you at least heard of some of the drama that was happening with me around that time so I'm sorry for that. I don't know if you mentioned it or if I forgot but I had no idea that you were in bad condition health wise so that sucks to hear. I know the whole time I did talk to you I thought you were a pretty cool guy so I hope you can start doing better.

I still love you, and I hope that you come back again to read all these replies. The site isn't as silly as it should be without you here. Good luck with everything.

zanderlex : I did come back to read all these replies, please don't use the word love towards me though. I guess i never really explained it much to anyone here but due to my life experiences "Love" is a word that provokes large feelings of revulsion and disgust from me. To the degree that if anyone is overly nice to me feelings of distrust and uncertainty are developed towards that person. Simply put i've had a rubbish life and i'm very wary of affection i'm afraid.

SonicOlmstead : Drama doesn't really bother me honestly. If anything i prefer to know what other people are going through so i can possibly help. In a weird therapeutic way helping others with their issues helps me forget my own.

pennylessz : Yeah i do remember you for sure. If you want to add me on discord my uertag on discord is this Ruukan#0001

Also if anyone wants to invite me to discord servers just either send it through discord or a pm here, Unless you're fine with people being able to access it freely then put it here.

Eniitan : No worries, Friendships like all relationships are a two way street, It usually takes one person to initiate the conversation but if the other person i.e me isn't available for communication then it's hard to message them in the first place. I don't really ever expect anyone to message me honestly. So don't worry about it.

m0ssb3rg935 : Oh it's not a "goodbye" post, I mean the fact i'm replying here (albeit quite a while later) is the reason it is not. Although that does give me flashbacks to probably a number of leaving threads i have encountered many of which were probably my own. Vizzed is by no means perfect but i somehow always end up coming back here regardless..

Boured : Yes i do remember you, I'm pretty sure i was modding for a while when you first became one also?.. Not sure if i did for long after that but i remember your name fondly.

Slyshiyoshi : Firstly yes name changes do make it specifically hard to remember people. Secondly, My discord details are above if you want to invite me.

I look forward to talking nonsense with you.