Things have changed drastically for me this week. I have been out of work now for almost 4 months due to a severe neck injury I had in a car crash. I made a thread about that way back around the end of April and early May. I went back to work this week at the place I had been working at before. It is not the same place I had worked at before with my girlfriend. Many of the familiar faces are gone, but it isn't an entirely dead place. It's a lot better than things at home! I think it is a big improvement over the way things were when I was sitting at home with that spinal/neck injury. I spent a lot of time working through that and my depression.

I have plans ahead for the future, but I probably won't be getting to spend much time on Vizzed anymore. That has to do mainly with my work schedule. I'll be busy 8 hours a day 5 (and at times 6) days a week. Not to mention, I still have to upgrade my computer to Windows 10. That is something I plan on doing when I can get enough money saved up to start buying more groceries and not having to cut back on food as much as I've been having to do. Just as I figured, as soon as I went back to work, my dad started treating me like crap again, but I knew he would.

I hope one day, I can just get up enough money to live in a nice place by myself and not have to be around him anymore. Upgrading this computer could take some time because I don't know how well 10 will run on my PC. There could be some problems with: hardware, drivers, etc. I also wonder how the RGR Plugin will do. I've got all my Downloads and Saves on a flash drive, but all that remains to be seen how all that will work. I have a lot of concerns ahead. I want to get back to doing some gaming, but I'm still wanting to go out and have a social life too. Next time, I'm not riding with anyone.

I probably won't be going out with those people again, and if I do, I'm taking my own vehicle. I know I won't be too drunk to drive. I do plan on dating again also, and there is someone in the future. However, things don't look as serious as they were with the other girl I was with back in April. That's not a bad thing. I've noticed I have more fun in those types of relationships for some reason. I guess there isn't as many serious feelings, and I tend to not get hurt as easily. It really took a lot for me to get over this last one, and everything feels so different now.

Work is a lot different, and I found out a lot about my ex from some other co-workers. I don't know it for a fact, but I think she was in an abusive relationship while she was with me. She just went back to him after the accident, but I don't think she ever left him. None of that makes any sense to me, and I don't want her around me if she's got all that drama in her life that she keeps going back and forth to. I haven't heard from her since, and I don't think I ever will again. It's okay because I don't need her. It sucks that she's gone, and her life is so awful, but what can anyone (including myself) do?

I just want to get back to living my life and will hopefully fall in love again someday, but I don't think I ever will. However, I don't need to. I can be more than happy with: a good job, an updated computer that is capable of playing all my old RGR games like I play now on Windows 7, a casual relationship, and the experience I have now to make better choices about how to handle myself better so I don't end up in another drunk driving accident like before. I'll be my own driver and try to get them to not drive.

It sounds like you a thinking positively and are in a healthier place! It's good to have have some goals in place, and these sound reasonable. Staying busy is good too!

I was glad to read this post, even it's it not all sunshine and rainbows. There's a quote I love from Epictetus: "no one is ever unhappy because of someone else". In other words, you have to realize you can create your own happiness from within, and it seems you are starting to realize this.

Keep it up, friend. You WILL find some good friends and probably a good girl one day too... but don't depend on those things, be happy with yourself first.

Wow... you've been through a lot I have on idea how I missed this post till now but I hope your doing alright. I'm glad to hear your back to being able to work after that car crash, I honestly hate to hear about those I've been through a handful myself never fun.

While you may not be able to spend much time on the site anymore I'm sure if you ever come back to spend more time on it the community would welcome you back with open arms, and honestly no one can stay active on here without being interrupted by real life eventually. It sucks to hear that your dad is treating you like crap just because your working again. I don't really have much I can say about your ex but I wish you luck with the casual relationships.

SonicOlmstead : I've been on Vizzed quite a lot since I made this post in August. I just haven't posted much in a while. I've been playing through a lot of my old games and that's been it. I've also upgraded to Windows 10, but I'm not liking it as much as I did with 7. The updates take longer to install, but the games still play fine with the RGR plugin. I'd like to get back to doing video games on here and no more of the drama with family or relationships.

I found out quite a lot about that girl I was with. She was never really my girlfriend. I feel like I made too much over her. I lost interest in a lot of things, and in some ways, it felt like I lost interest in Vizzed. But, I started back again in November when I got my computer upgraded. I hope to continue on as long as things run right with the new operating system.

luigi25 : Well good to hear you're still around then I hated windows 10 when I first got it not as much as windows 8 but I much preferred windows 7 but overtime I've gotten very use to windows 10. I hope the drama in your life can quite down some so you can focus on that.

That really sucks to hear, and it does sound like because you were so attached to her it started to hurt your interests but it sounds like things are starting to get turned around so that's good.

SonicOlmstead : I hope the drama quiets down too, but I don't think it ever will. The problems I keep having at home with my dad are unbearable. He's making it almost impossible for me to live here. I don't have the money to live on my own. Even if I sold everything I had it wouldn't be enough, and I really can't live like that! All because of him.

If he wanted me out, then why didn't he explain all this to me years ago when I had the money to take care of myself. It's like he's hitting me at my lowest point. 2020 is of to a terrible start, and I think it's going to get worse. I'm starting to have issues at work too, and my job has gotten more stressful.

I just want a decent life. I'm doing the best I can. I don't want to have another nervous breakdown, but I'm worried I'm headed for one. One thing I do know is that I don't want another girl in my life like the one I had last year. I swear, she just made things harder. MGTOW for life!