I've been home alone for a few days and will be for a few more, meaning I get some quality time with just me and my dog. To all the social butterflies out there that probably doesn't sound very fun but I couldn't be more happier.

I'm a university student so really I'm alone in my dorm room 5 days of the week already and I enjoy the freedom, but every week that also means I don't get to see my good old buddy for 5 days in a row, which is easily the hardest part about university life. My pal's been there with me for 11.5 years so far and we've gone through ups and downs together (99% ups) and having a dog has really helped me, especially going through puberty.

So basically I'm combining the best of both worlds here. I can chill by myself with nobody around to judge me, and my best friend is right next to me sleeping and enjoying my company.

Dogs sadly don't live as long as we do but I hope we can still have plenty of fun years together.

I've actually been getting out of a really big depressive slump lately and I'm feeling really good about myself and what I've been doing lately. I'm starting to go out a lot more, because of pokemon go, my relationships are still hectic but I'm really glad I have really important people by my side, and I've found solace in people I didn't think I'd ever get close too.

I'm still full-time at the same trashy and toxic job, but the best thing about that place is that i work with my best friend, and he's literally one of the biggest lights of my life and is really the reason I keep trudging on.

I'm starting to gain my weight back which makes me happy, and I'm going to my first pride fair this weekened, which will be horrifying to say the least but it's a change and I'm excited about it.

To be honest I admit that my life in the current position I'm in right now wouldn't be the best but you could of asked me this same question 3 or even 4 years back and I could say it's a major improvement, thanks to the people in my life who care about me and just want to help me out i've been able to get more out of my shell then ever.

I used to live in the same house as an abusive father who around that time had left my family to dry and while we're still recovering, things have been moving along much faster. We've even found a potentially new place to live, though due to circumstances we have yet to take the offer.

I've been trying to get my own life back into motion and eventually things will work out. I hope that in the coming year I can make that difference.

I just turned 35 but I can still pass for 28. I'm only as old as I feel and I feel 90 years old. lmao


Birthday is in October and October is my favorite month of the year. We have Halloween and all the beautiful fall colors here in Minnesota,football college and pro, and all the candy and horror movies. I watch movies with my best friend every night of the month in October,this year we did the Hellraiser series,Peter Jackson's Dead Alive,Return of The Living Dead 1 and 2,and every year we watch the complete Nightmare on Elm Street series.

I had a really rough end to the year in 2019 but at least the very last week or so was good again. Some stuff I won't get into and there's other stuff I still don't fully understand but currently everything seems to be going alright still. Saw some friends on New Years Eve who I hadn't seen for like a year so that was really great to just be able to have a laugh together. I mean it was like we last met 3 days ago haha

Most of them I've been friends with since Kindergarten or Elementary school so at this point I'd consider them lifelong friends. Honestly all my friends I made early on in life have all turned out to be awesome people so I think kids might naturally have a better feel for people lmao

It's the start of the new year I'm on break and am as carefree as you could ever ask to be so I'd say I'm pretty good and as far as I can tell am healthy. I guess if I had one complaint my sugar (I'm a type one diabetic) could be better but minus that I'm doing great.

Right now I am in a pretty good mood, that's kept up all winter break. I graduated from college and today I'm going to the school to see if I can keep working there and then on Friday I have my entrance exam for Grad School.

I'm doing pretty great. I'm about 30 mins away from being back home in Minneapolis on this flight. My team won yesterday in the Outback Bowl that we flew to Tampa Bay for and I'm off work till next Monday so I'm having some Bloody Mary's on the flight. I kinda cut myself off last night so I wouldn't be hung over for getting through TSA and waking up to head back home but now it should all be a breeze so we decided to partake while were on the plane.

Oh and best of all I learned that my MN Wild were given the 2021 NHL Winter Classic yesterday so I have to get tickets for that for around the same time next year! Whooooop Whooooop!!!!

Generally I have been feeling pretty good lately, much better than I have been doing in the last few months although it might just be the fluoxetine kicking in but as of making this post although I am not exactly sure why but my anxiety is kind of acting up slightly.

Right now I am doing pretty well. I had a good birthday celebration yesterday and I'm just going to take today off and watch Netflix so that I can relax and build my strength up for when I go back to work.

Today I would day that I have been doing pretty good overall, stilll kinda tired but that is not much different from any other college morning. XD

Doing alright I guess, I've definitely noticed the effects my poor sleep schedule is having on me though. It's going to take some work bringing that back to normal (which normal for me is still not ideal since I stay up late talking with friends but I could do it consistently)

I'm doing absolutely great. Maybe. Kinda? I'm kind of bored. I am home now after a day of school, talking to people, reading stuff up. Being on Discord, apparently back on Vizzed too (I turned 6 a week ago!), etc. I'm probably not back for realzies and definitely don't expect me to still be posting in like a month, but I'm back for now. Yay.

Hope you're doing good, too. (:

I am doing pretty good, I just came back from my asthma review and it is about average so better than it used to be when I was younger. XD Now I am cold.

I'm doing pretty well. I got a sick deal at Gamestop yesterday so that put me in a good mood and I plan on going back again today to see if there are any other good deals left.

Other than that, I still haven't gone back to work or school so I've just been going to the movies, watching Netflix, and playing games and I guess I can't argue with that.

Better than a few days ago. Was able to kind of share something I'm going through currently and that put a lo -t of weight off my qhoulders.

Today I am not doing so well since I have been pretty ill lately and the cold doesn't really help to make me feel much better or recover any quicker than usual which is unfortunate but that's the way of the world I guess. XD

I'm a little sad, recently.

I don't want to go into details, but my personal life isn't where I want it to be.

There's a saying that an old friend of mine on Vizzed used to say:

"You come to Vizzed when it's better than where you are at."

It's the one constant in life I think is true about this place.

You know, ever since I made that thread about "Going Back to Square One" and just finally let that monkey curse off my back, I actually have been feeling a whole lot better.

It might be awhile to finally rebuild that confidence that I once had way back when, but it is a really long climb back to the top, but I think I can accomplish it.

Right now I'm not doing too well. First of all, I have a lot of appointments for work that I need to take care of which are digging into most of my time. I also got a lot less for my first freelance check. I was told how much I would get for each thing I do and I ended up getting around half of what the work warranted.

Plus I got an email yesterday saying that the person I sent a reccomendation request to never responded, so my application for grad school might not even go through at all.