Not particularly had a great past couple weeks.

Some people at my internship suck at communicating. I had to hear from others that they had some questions or concerns regarding my work or work attitude (I'm just a calm and laid back person in general, I struggle sometimes at being really assertive), this was never communicated to me. Really fun to hear about it right before the holidays! I mailed my professor about it and she was going to set up a meeting with her, me, and the person supervising me. I hadn't heard from her yet, but I was supposed to work yesterday so I went anyway and basically got warm greetings from everyone except said person, who gave me a 'oh I didn't know you were coming today'. She then alluded to the fact that I might not be the best match and that maybe a different place would allow me to grow more. Really lovely to hear. In my mind when you take someone on an internship you communicate with them so they can adapt, take in feedback, and grow. If you let this build up without mentioning it once and then practically suggest pulling the plug all of a sudden it just makes you a bad supervisor.

So now I'm uncertain about the future of this particular internship, even though I find it really interesting.

I also was sick all throughout the Christmas week, lovely stuff. Had about the most depressing Christmas of my life. At least I saw some family before New Year's.

To be honest I've been fighting depression some the past few weeks I keep looking for jobs and almost every day it's the same jobs that I don't feel are worth the time to work at and when there is something worth applying for a lot of times I get a dreaded "We've decided to go forward with other candidates" message and I'm just like why does nobody want to interview me I was at my previous job for over 2 years and worked my tailbone off and was one of the best employees they had so why is it so hard for someone else to hire me I didn't quit all of a sudden I gave a 2 week notice I can't figure out what the big issue with myself is for jobs. Family has been pushing me to find something as well and that annoys me cause like I've not stopped paying rent or buying my own food I've not asked anyone for money I'm still doing fine but it does stress me out to bring it up like I'm not trying. I feel like I'm failing at life right now I guess but at the same time there's not much else I could be doing at this point.

I've been physically and mentally exhausted due to work. I've been advancing work at home in Wednesday and Thursday, as well as taking myself a heavy load home in Thursday and Friday. My body said enough yesterday and even today I'm feeling a bit unwell, so I postponed advancing further until tomorrow. We're entering the last week so this is probably going to continue, meaning I'll have to see how can I deal with it before my body says it's enough.

On the other hand, I'm also extremely done with my girlfriend's family, specifically her older sister and her mother. Both are so stubborn it seems you're talking to a wall: her sister doesn't want things to change even if it means hell for her and her surroundings, and her mother doesn't even listen to her and expects her to live life according to her own, twisted and outdated rules (funny thing is, she didn't care when my girlfriend was young, and even funnier is that she wants to know every single detail of her life now that she's living with me). I wanted to talk to them too because I'm tired of seeing my girlfriend bad or down because of them, but when I saw it was impossible to make them see the truth they don't want to accept I gave up, and so did my girlfriend.

It's been quite an intense weekend so far, and it can get worse tomorrow. I just hope it doesn't, just in case I'll take home loads of work so I can work remotely if my body stops me. Not a good solution but it's what we have at our job, hopefully the icoming legal changes can actually change this but we'll see.

right now? I wish I had a time machine and was laying low in the 90s or something, a saner time period than right now

Right now, I am doing good, but I wish there was more time in a day since it is hard to get so many actions every day when the best time to compete is in the last 7 to 4 hours of the day. Other than that, I am doing good, other than the fact I lost the skill to PvP in Minecraft Bedrock lol.

I've gone back to work and I feel like mentally I'm in a better space for the most part because of it, that said I just really struggle missing my wife sometimes and then when I was on call with Ian the other day I learned it could be years before I hear anything and then even after that it could be another 2 years before I get to live with my wife. It's definitely not the easiest thing to deal with thinking about planning a trip as much as I hate flying but I definitely can't go 4 years without seeing her still hopeful that the original timeline I was given will be stuck to but I don't think that's how it works.

I am doing good right now, but now you have to wait 60 seconds to rate a song rather then 25 seconds. Other then that I am doing good, I was streaming on Twitch earlier, I wasn't talking, I just wanted to download the stream to watch another time lol

Right now I am feeling kind of lousy because I found today that I have to find another massage therapist because the one I've had for several years is going to be moving outside of Winnipeg. What sucks is there likely isn't another one out there that brings their dogs to work.

Today I feel kinda bad cause my one co worker asked me to come in and help her cause she had way too many rooms to clean and I couldn't for a while and then by the time I would of been able to I was feeling sick due to my sugar so I didn't really feel up to it but I still feel like I let her down by not going in but hopefully she's not too mad.

Well I feel better after being locked out of this site last weekend (but found another key lol! seriously though I lost a good night's sleep because of it, and it wrecked my appetite and on take out night of all days)

Been well overall today. Little errands done, much laziness in between and just at a restaurant enjoying food and company with friends while watching the nba playoff game, okc thunder vs phoenix suns

I am really tired right now, between early morning doctors appointments, shopping and seeing a movie I feel ready to sleep right now

Tired. And sick. And tired of being sick.

Last Monday I started feeling some difficulties to swallow alongside symptoms of a cold, as well as light dazing and lack of balance. On Tuesday it became apparent I wasn't feeling right because I was feeling very dizzy and my lack of balance started to worry me. My doctor said I had a light episode of tonsillitis, so I started treating it in the hopes it was the source of everything else.

The tonsillitis did go away, but the rest of symptoms including the lack of balance stayed. Yesterday I got a different prescription for the next days, stating it could be due to an accumulation of mucus within the auditive system instead of the usual places when you catch a cold, which would explain the lack of balance (since it's certain parts of the auditive system which actually control it, oddities of the human body).

I started the new prescription this morning, and so far it does seem it brings good results. The lack of balance for once seems lighter than lately, so I'm confident this new prescription will do away with these issues in due time. I hope the go away soon, it feels awful even attempting to go outside when you're constantly feeling like standing/walking on a rope.

Right now I'm wishing I could have one more day to my weekend, the next REAL long weekend is actually about two weeks away but now that it's Spring I want to have my weekend for awhile longer.

I'm struggling. I've been unemployed for about 4 months and finding a new job has not been going well. I've had a couple of interviews but my latest one has gone a month without responding so I have no idea what's going on there.

I'm also dealing with a 15 year old daughter who is actively lying to me on a regular basis so she can secretly hang out with her boyfriend. Not really sure what to do about her in that case. My wife and I are trying to just ride this one out and hope that things don't go too far but at this point we aren't too hopeful. I just hope she doesn't get pregnant from this guy so when she finally comes to her senses she can just move on from him.

I thought little kids were tough.... teenagers are much tougher.

I'm doing okay. Moving out in this economy is taking a little longer than expected... I have the money for it, but I (nor my future roommate) are comfortable moving out on our current incomes, so we're both trying to get a better job before pulling that trigger. As long as at least one of us gets it, I think we'll be perfectly fine taking the final step. I even have an apartment picked out and all.

Like geeo above, I've gotten quite a few interviews at this point but no one has bitten yet. I've got two(!) lined up on Tuesday but I can't say I'm feeling particularly confident about either of them. I work in a pretty rough field currently market-wise that AI is making treads through (IT), so the jobs that do bite, I'm competing with people who are much more qualified than I am because they were laid off or something. I'm extremely fortunate that my current job still seems to need me as of now, even assigning me new tasks that they didn't trust with other people recently. I really don't make a lot at all, but I'm counting my blessings for now - little income is better than no income.

I'm getting a better hold of my health though, and am generally happy with where I'm at in life. Sure, still living with my parents does bug me a little - but in the past year or two it's starting to become a roommate situation here even, as I mostly pay for myself now - some food, toiletries, bills and all that, so I'm becoming more and more independent as the days pass. And I think my mom is still depressed after a lot of family stuff a few years ago, and is somewhat emotionally dependent on me, so she's certainly not in any rush for me to go either lol. My understanding is that in a lot of other countries, people live with their families for a very long time rather than the American way of moving out ASAP, and financially I think that would be wonderful for a lot of us if we could maybe at least reduce the stigma around it here in the states.

Overall I'm doing okay I think but the past few days my sugar has been killing me 2 days ago I ate dinner 30 minutes later on my phone's dexcom app I had double arrows down 75 (below 70 is considered low) so I went got an ice cream sandwich 5 minutes later I was 53 5 minutes after that 42 5 minutes after that too low to read so I went and got some chips ate those an hour later was only 56 so I went down and got some peanut butter crackers finally got up to 86 was like phew okay till like 20 minutes later I was low again so I went and got yet another ice cream sandwich. Then I was good till I was getting ready for bed and noticed my sugar was now over 300 but because of how my sugar had been since dinner I was worried I'd drop so I didn't give extra insulin only to wake up at 4 am over 350, still had issues all day yesterday just not as bad but it was really rough.