Sometimes it's good just to let things out. So be honest, how are you doing?

Personally I think I'm doing okay. About a year ago I had some health issues, but I haven't needed to take medication since July. Which is pretty cool to me. I was worried about an exam I had coming up but it ended up not being nearly as bad as I thought it would, and I actually thought I did quite well! I'm in a tough program in university and it has really gotten to me at some points but I think it just makes you stronger as a person.

Anways, how are you? Be honest, it feels good to just say something sometimes!

Yep, sometimes you need to vent, and so this thread serves that purpose I guess.

I'm not doing all that great, but it could be a lot worse.

I guess I'm kind of okay, specially considering that today I seemingly didn't take a big hit from my weekly medication, which is a big relief.

I'm lacking some sleep after a four-day trip, which I seemingly won't recover until next week due to how busy I am. I have a couple of minor tests in the next 48 hours and I'm quite short of preparation due to things, so I'm also a bit stressed about that (which in a sense deprives me of sleep, so twice the problem).

And well, I must admit I feel lonely for being a bit egotistical. Since the year started, all I've had are brief Whatsapp conversations with my real life friends, and all due to my change in studies keeping me busy. I know I'm focusing on my future rather than my present, which somehow justifies secluding myself, but still I should take a step forward and suggest meeting with them despite living in opposite ends of the city. We have a local holiday upcoming, so maybe it would be a good timing to hang out with them again and disconnect for a while.

  although for the most part I  always try to be as optimistic as I can there is something that is bothering me regarding what has been going on in the country that I live in and that,s the prime minister that we have who seems to spend more time vacationing in other countries along with his family rather than taking care of the responsibilities that he should be doing back home also I am concerned about what will happen once they legalize marijuana this july and while I don,t smoke nor do I intend to start smoking I,m concerned about what will happen once it,s legalized since I don,t know at this point if it will be a good thing or bad especially when there will be people driving and operating heavy equipment while smoking weed

I guess I am doing ok right now, as in I don't have anything particular to complain about. I was very sick last week (had a 40 degree celsius fever) but now I finally seem to have recovered for the most part. Other than that schools and works keeps me somewhat busy, but I have a holiday next week so I'm looking forward to that. After that is when test season really begins, but at the same time I'll only be a couple of months away from graduation so that's helping drive me.

Hmm I'd have to say the past few years I've been doing better than most of my life.
Still not where I want to be yet though. I'm really glad though I get this chance to vent
I recently turned 4 sadly 4 of my neighbors in to the office for stalking me for 3 yrs
they've been leaving me alone for now but I expect it won't last.
I also have been getting lots of headaches and haven't been feeling well for awhile now.

On the positive side I have recently gotten a great deal on an old caddy the first car
I've ever owned. One thing I've learned is it's the bad times that always make us
appreciate the good times so I always look forward to what the future holds. 

It's a bit early but I want to wish everyone a happy April Fools Day and a Happy Easter.

what a nice question! its good to let out our thoughts on a public thread like this.

i think i've been doing insanely well recently, my only drawback concerning illness since i'm susceptible to getting sick every now and then. weather doesn't really help.

i wasn't necessarily a recluse back then, but i was extremely shy and anxiety ridden so i avoided any friend hangouts and big events where attention would be directed at me. i have a partner thats been making my life more bearable. he honestly helped me gain a lot of confidence back which allowed me to perform to the best of my ability at concerts (since i'm a performer), apply and land a job (working as a barista wa-hoo!!!), and make a load of new friends through conversations and making plans. i was never like this a year ago, but now i feel better about myself. i went through emotional turmoil in high school since i was stuck in a toxic friendship, as well as having family issues since 11 years old. i'm still slowly getting to a balanced equilibrium in my life, but i can't complain with what i have now. the only thing i wish to have is more inspiration in my art works since i've been artblocked, and more time to relax... being a full-time student at uni and having an almost full-time job is insane, paired with my gigs and performances through NY, NJ and philly haha.

i hope everyone else is doing well too!

I'm really tired right now. My body wants to rest, but I know if I nap, I'll refuse to wake up until I feel 100% satisfied, but I want to work on things tonight, and then I'll sleep for the worst school day of the week.

It has been a fun day. My stepdad and I drove an hour to hang out in a Round 1 arcade. It was his first time there, and it was my fourth time in Round 1. Mainly, I enjoy going to play Pump It Up, as it takes a lot of my energy with amazing songs to tap to. Of course, it's also the reason I'm tired right now, because I played PIU a lot today.

Momo, I know how you feel. Memorial day weekend was supposed to be my time of rejuvenation, but I'm coming down with a cold and feel too sickly to function as well as I usually do. 

Herbal tea, bouillon and blankets do help! Been living off these things for the past few days

I'm doing perfectly fine right now, though the reason I'm as fine as I am now is because I made a decision that allowed me to feel so much better, but it also costed my relationships with multiple people.

Trying to summarize it briefly, I was a moderator for a discord server aimed for Mystic Messenger fans. I had a great time until the owner decided to focus on something else, and he chose to make this girl a "co-owner" aka giving this girl complete and total power in his absence. Since then, my anxiety and stress slowly skyrocketed all because of this girl for multiple reasons:

-for being owner, she's constantly breaking rules more than enforcing them
-she's a die-hard BTS fan to the point of excessively spamming BTS images in both of her server daily, no matter how many times people had asked her to stop
-anytime drama happens in our servers, she refuses to put her foot down, and I end up being the one who has to deal with it, despite the fact that there were other mods present. At the same time, when someone complains about drama in another server, she steps in, feeling it's her duty to fix it.

And then I finally lost all respect for her when she kicked out a member of our server just because she and several other people were trashtalking this person and they didn't want them to find out.

As soon as I left the server and another one related to it, I ended up being simultaneously trashtalked and harassed on twitter over my decision to leave. Even the actual owner antagonized me on twitter, saying I only left because I wanted to be promoted when I returned. Seriously....

Honestly, it's not worth the stress and anxiety if my two bosses are two immature people who can't grow up and learn from their mistakes at all. Since leaving, I've been doing A LOT better, as I'm taking care of my health and focusing more on myself while keeping in touch with the people I genuinely like from there.

Basically on how I'm going right now, other than basically trying to survive through some tough financial speed bump at the moment. I am doing alright I guess. It seems a little weird for me, it's basically like a financial roller coaster where some points that I'm riding on cloud 9 with money and other times, I'm barely struggle paycheck to paycheck, and knowing my financial roller coaster, I will be out of this financial speed bump and have no issues,

Also on top of all the financial BS, my whole work schedule is all over the place with some nights working like 1 A.M. to 10 A.M. (Central US time) with some days being 11:00 P.M. to 8 A.M. (Central US time), which having all of these night shifts can really mess around with your sleep schedule, especially on how your day goes is: Sleep, wake up, then either play video games or draw something or goof off, then go to work, then sleep, and repeat. With this whole weird sleep schedule, it can really mess around with your mind and cause a whole lot of stress on your mind if you're not used to it, but not me since I'm so used to it because I was working overnights for the past few years.


Other than financial BS and the whole Overnight work, my life is doing just fine, mostly just making through the entire day in one piece, and with playing games, drawing artwork, and watching videos on YouTube, that can ease a little bit of those stresses.

Not everyone has a perfect time where they have absolutely no BS on their agenda, there is no such thing as anyone with a perfect life where they don't have to deal with BS. Everyone has at least one BS mess that they have to deal with right now, no matter if it's major or minor. Dealing with BS  is basically the definition of Adulthood, "You deal with BS 24/7/365".

I'm frustrated, but fine. I get to deal with my current apartment's BS that I've been trying to solve for over a year with no avail. But now, I'm starting to hope the frustration will go away once I move into my new apartment. My new puppy is healthy and getting along with Charlie Brown (my Mini Aussie), but I can't seem to get the pee accidents out of her. 

As long as my apartment doesn't try to charge me for things they should have repaired over half a year ago, and the move goes smoothly, I think that I will be fine. 

My status is bad, physically and mentally drained. From the bad dreams that I have experienced, to deciding what actions can I safely do to assist me and my relatives. The thought that I cogitate on each day is will we have a chance to enjoy our life peacefully again, and what reason did these evil people have to encounter us. What did we do to deserve this, is a question that I want answered but possibly will not.

I felt to type my response solely to emit what is an onerous weight on this body and mind for years, not for false sympathy or pity. I have asked for help on this site, and though grateful for the comments I did receive do not want any more temporary curious people responding to me.

I'm unsure on exactly how to describe how I'm feeling right now. I guess... I'm fine? I'm not okay? I don't feel good physically? I feel lazy? I'm ridiculously concerned?

First thing I want to say is, I've been trying to lose weight, and in my process I noticed a lot of problems I dealt with. Anytime I stress out, I resort to eating to make myself feel better or less stressed (this is exactly why I gained 40+ pounds in a single year, thus putting me over 200 pounds). When I'm dealing with school, my weight is no longer my main priority because my education needs to be taken care of, and I need to make sure I'm passing my classes. Back in the spring semester, my family was not helping with my weight problem as every week, my mom would one day be too lazy to cook that she'd buy fast food, and then there's rarely ever a variety of food to eat outside of junk food. 

As I finished summer school, I had planned to get back to walking more and keeping out for what I eat and try to successfully get out of 200 pounds, but then a brand new problem came along...

My left knee has been strange since my birthday. On that day, my boyfriend and I walked around different malls to spend time with each other, and at some point, I felt pain on my left leg, especially around my knee. I brushed it off, thinking it's only hurting because I was walking a lot that day. Then the next day, Van and I go to an amusement park to have fun, and after a long while, my knee hurt again, this time to the point where it really hurt to walk. This lead us to leave the park earlier than we wanted to, and it hasn't been better since. My mom came to visit me the past weekend, and she noticed the way I was walking was odd, to the point where she decided to take me to the hospital as soon as I returned to her home for the fall semester. 

And now, I'm unsure what to do. I want to walk, but I know it'll only make my knee either hurt with pain or just swell up. I want to dance, but I'm afraid of how that'll go with my knee. Plus since yesterday, my knee was all I could really think about, and I can't stop wondering if my problem is a minor one or a serious one. 

Doing alright, just going to enjoy the weekend, and work on my Youtube channel videos for the upcoming next few weeks. Last night stayed offline most of the late evening, was going to do some gaming, but decided to spend time with the girlfriend, today she is out with some friends at a work fundraiser or something like that, and so I figure I would do something productive today lol.

The weekend just started, and I'm so ready for it. It's been kind of a crazy week. I just got accepted into a new job that pays a lot more than the current one I'm working, which is what I really need right now since I'll be starting college August next year, not to mention bills that have to be paid. My school is still nothing more to me than a corrupt garbage dump. I'm just waiting to finish this year and finally move on to college where I won't have to put up with any of the school's crap. Looking forward to this weekend, though. I'm off today and tomorrow, which never really happens a lot so I'm excited.

I'm doing quite well, but at the same time nihilism is keeping me from having any sort of goals or having motivation to work towards them. I only do the things I want to do, but at the same time I have trouble deciding what I want to do.

This isn't necessarily negative or dire but I certainly do think I need to get some things in order or else I'll be nowhere years from now.

Just contemplating the meaninglessness of my life is all.

I haven't been well in several years. I'm mostly just wondering how long I'll last tbh. Knowing I'm turning 18 very soon and will have to go out into the world by myself, I honestly don't know if I'll make it.

I'm surviving. Whether or not that's a good thing, well, I couldn't really tell you.

I'm ok, just getting done with my college semester finals. Hoping I will do well on them, my future depends on it.