Well since no one here knows me, my name is Nathan. Most of my online friends just call me devastator, Dev, and more recently (due to my steam name UndeadRaisin) raisin. Most just see me as a gamer who makes people rage which I tend to do often in Call of Duty. Or they see me as the guy who does screamo. Truth is as much as I like it, id rather hang out with friends drinking some iced tea and playing my acoustic. That is my happy place. But I wasn't always this happy. Because for almost five years, I have had to live without my grandfather. He was my mentor and my best friend. He inspired me to do everything I do today. Four years ago on January 23, he took his own life. Why? Because people constantly looked down on him instead of trying to love him and understand him. It drove him mad to the point where it killed him. I was 16 when he died. I didn't know how to cope with his death, so I cut. It was the only thing I could feel. Pain. As a result of this, I have over 300 scars. Then I picked up my grandpas old guitar, and it helped mold me into who I am now. Then the cutting stopped. Now I live to make sure others don't make the same mistake he did. And I do not tolerate judgement. Judgment always leads to destruction. Whether it's someone else's, or your own. My grandfather serves as an example of that. So don't judge each other. Show each other love and respect. You could save someone's life. You could change them. If any of you just need to vent or need someone to talk to, I am here for you so just shoot me a message. I might be young, but I am a great listener. Don't stay in the dark.

I'm really sorry about what happened with your grandfather. It must be hard on you, considering that he's really important to you.

I'm glad that you've stopped cutting and became the person you are today because of your grandfather. May he rest in peace.

Thank you, Mistress. In a sense, he had to die in order for me to mature and help others. It sucks, but it isn't so bad. I still have his guitars and his love for music. He is alive in me. 

nmag360 : well thats nice now we know all about you and i want to say also welcome and hello have fun on vizzed playing games and being friendly to the other users

It's really nice to get to know more about you man. It is kind of sad to read about all of this, just be strong man! You can do it!