I should stop hating humanity. It sounds strange that i do but.. I really hate humanity in some way..
i'm also afraid of the capabilities of humanity. The destructive power. And willing to survive at any cost..

This is something that come across when i got age of 12.. A strange sensation went through my dream. About humanity.. A LOT. Of things happened in my dream.. Killing, abusing ,raping, destroying, the things in science that where corrupted. The higher ups  in the world who are playing monopoly with us.. Who are taking complete control of our living. I also dreamt about some things of memory of humanity killing important people.. Or well.. It seemed that i was just a child.. And these where my parents.. This dream was like lasting forever. I never felt such pain in my whole life..

Since then i begun to hate humanity.. Its not that i completely hate all of you.. Its just the human race that i feel a lot of hatred toward.
i think that humans are all unknown persons who do not know of there own actions.
the same things with bullying(bullies) they do it because they like it.. But they do not know what pain they cause to other while still enjoying there suffering.. But when these people would commit suicide. There suddenly is a totally different person with in the bully.. Like he is afraid of what I've done..

i know humans are not to be blamed to much.. They are just living being just like anything else in the world.. But humanity is just... argh.. Damn this i just can't explain the intense hatred within me.. I never feel such hate while being surrounded by people i know.. But most likely when i hear or read the things that are caused in the world.. And also when i'm surrounded by a lot of unknown persons.. I'm always afraid of what could happen in such situations.. The desire of humans to kill is not to take lightly... man i'm such a failure in this world.
hating my own specie. ha ha.. I'm such a stranger in this world.. I never ever got a explanation of why i dreamt this.. And i always felt like there are things within me that i cannot remember..

So.. Yea.. I think i have to accept it.. That humanity is just a corruption created in this world.. But i should also just have to accept this fact..
me hating humanity will not solve the problems within it.. So its utterly senseless.. And still.. Its just really hard..
i might get killed before i even accepted humanity. And before i could stop hating.. But this is in the future.. I'm not in the future.. I'm in there here and now..not in the past or in the future.. I have to try to realize this.. And then i might overcome this hatred..
Greetings to all, Yngwie

Well, I was playing this thing called Whirled and I got too attached to it. I tried to quit, and I managed to only last year or so.

And Chewing my fingernails.

Uhg. Chewing on things. I often chew on my clothes when I get bored; I need to find some way to cut it out.

I need to quit getting on the computer so much. It causes a lot of headaches because of eye strain. I also need to quit watching Netflix. I guess I won't have a problem with that for right now because we haven't payed for this month yet. I certainly don't want to stop but my eyes want me to.

I need to quit finishing homework on Sunday and get it over and done with on Friday.

I need to do something similar to Techno Dragon. But instead of homework It's revision.
I need to start revising for Exams and tests for over a week before it since I have noticed my grades are starting to slip and I really need to get them back up.

I need to spend more time on studying for the SOLs coming up in may, I probably know most of the material covered, but a good refresher is probably good to have., I need to hit the text books and start studying a lot more frequently than I am now. I want to finish of the year strong and get at least 500+ scores on my sols, and I have a lot of studying to do on my ap exam which is on May 17th so I don't have a lot of time, I just don't feel up to doing it because it is boring, but I really should, and need to.

Everyone else's seem so dramatic, but my first thought came to drinking pop. Coca-cola to be exact. I know it's not good for me calorie wise and acid on my teeth wise, but I keep buying it and drinking it. Nom nom nom, I love it so!

Not really serious but listening to 2chainz he's garbage, but he's so laughable,

I really need to stop being a night owl. It's starting to take a toll on my health... but I just can't... I've tried fixing my body clock but I've been all upset and annoyed, and tired... and it just goes back to it's original pattern after awhile, so I just gave up on it and accepted that I'm a night person. Boo for early classes when I was in high school! Thank God I can now choose my own schedule!

Vizzed.  But I won't, because I like the .00013% of the userbase (counting inactives in total count) I talk too, and I feel like I still need to do a few things while I'm here.
Plus I'm a mod, and I still enjoy doing my job, but it doesn't mean I shouldn't quit coming here.

I need to stop eating so many fattening foods.  But they are so delicious...

Stop biting my fingernails and reading.

I might get a Hangnail from all my Fingernail biting.
I read so much, everyone who works at that library could write a book about me, and I'd read it!

~SadSecrets/S.S

I should probably quit Evony. Been playing it for WAY to long and it's a massive waste of my time. But I'm addicted to it and don't want to because I enjoy it.

Procrastination for some reason. I'm really trying to end that, I need to get more tasks done. Criticizing myself harshly is something I need to quit, but can't seem to do so.

1 quit chewing my finger nails as well. 2 Quit sleeping in late i want and need to wake up eariler in the mornings but sometimes I just can't do it. anyways If there's more I will edit this post