Lately I've been having trouble with expressing how I feel. It seems whenever I make a new friend and start to get a bond between him/her they leave.

Even when it's small friends that just come and go triggers old friends that I miss. But that's not my main point. I have trouble knowing what I should do with my feelings. I want to let it all out but I don't see what that will accomplish besides reminding me about it.

Sometimes when i'm happy I don't even know if I am. I want to be happy but I think i'm sad. I guess I don't know how to feel half the time. Or I do but I just have that emptiness inside.

I guess it seems i'm doing this for nothing but I honestly just need some advice. I don't know how to handle my emotions anymore at all. I guess I just need to let go of it. But that would probably do nothing to help.

I'm not even sure but I may be going through personal depression. Some of the symptoms would be this. I have experienced them all.

~you can’t sleep
~you can’t concentrate or find that previously easy tasks are now difficult
~you feel hopeless and helpless (at times)
~you are much more irritable, short-tempered, or aggressive than usual (I've been more angry at those around me like parents)
---------------------

I don't know exactly what i'm going through but all I need right now is some advice. Thanks you for your time.

Hm... my first tip of advice depends on your answer. Is it the bond between "friends" that upsets you the most?

catfight09 : I guess, I think that that's where my sadness might have started.

But I can't say for sure that it might be the main reason. If I can maybe learn to let that go it might go away.

Well, can you give examples  about the moving away friends that you made? You could PM me if you don't want to say it openly.