Well hey everyone I'm Stefan and this is how my life has been up until now... (I need to let some steam out)


well at the start of the year up until Feb I have been at school every day didn't get to talk to my girlfriend till the night and that sort of kept going till near my birthday which is the 21 but then suddenly out of nowhere on the 19th she splits up with me which makes me depressed and sad (I was so low I attempted suicide twice) and I was super down for my birthday so then  I start to move on and I date my best friend.... didn't work out then I start doing roleplaying (as a kingdom hearts character) and that brings me to march and I bump into what I thought as a angel she was beautiful I instantly fell into love with her but then 2 over roleplayers started saying that she didn't like me and out of hurt and sadness I message her ( f(naughtyword) you I thought you liked me) and I cried all night up until now  and that leads to this day


sorry if its just useless crap but I needed somewhere to let it out to people that MIGHT care sorry if you don't


in any event that this causes problems feel free to delete this

and if you read this Alyssa I still love you :'(

I'm sorry to hear that you are going through trying times. Honestly you shouldn't let yourself get so upset over girlfriends and such. When you are young you start liking someone, and then you might move on because of other situations that arise.

Breaking up with a girl should never be a reason to kill yourself. Especially if you only dated them for a short while. Enjoy the moment for what it is, and move on. You never know, the next person might be 10x better

yeah its just i feel so lost and useless i loved her so much

One thing about break ups, they are painful but it gets better through time. Don't kill yourself over one girl that's for sure, its not worth the drama. I hope you can find someone a lot better than your previous one.

I know it's hard to put thing into perspective. All you want is for said girl to give you some love in return, and it seems like everything you do just makes matters worst.

But you know, as hard as it is, you can change your life into a happy one. Just focus on doing things that will break your cycle, make new guy friends, or try to get closer to the ones you have. Life is only as dramatic as you make it, so try to surround yourself with people who see the big picture and don't get worked up about things.

You're still very young, don't look for true love until you've grown up. I know it the feelings just bump right into you, but keep busy in doing things that explore yourself and the world around you.

your right... i just have too much on my plate at the moment


the dredded exams -.-

lonekingstefan : Haha, exams suck! (it seems a little early, my students still have 2 months). Maybe plan something adventurous for your summer break. It doesn't have to be elaborate, but a change of senery or lifestyle can go a long way. Do you tend to isolate yourself, or are you always with a group of friends?

every chance i get i isolate myself i hate being with people i just feel like i dont fit in

lonekingstefan : It's hard when you feel like now one really likes being your friend. While a little alone time is good, isolating yourself tends to make us dramatize things. Try finding some good hobbies that will keep you busy and social. And keep talking to us about it! Do you find sometimes you find it hard to yourself, to be who you really are with other people, and instead are trying hard to be liked?

i like being alone nobody to hurt me

I'm going to assume that this is your first girlfriend based off of how you talk about possible suicide attempts. It's called heartbreak do. It's a part of human nature, everybody gets it. More than likely, you'll find another soon so don't worry too much about it.

yeah it was my first serious one...

Dang. I know this is kind of old, but that sucks. Honestly, I have attempted suicide as well.I have become so depressed that I have tried some 3 or 4 times a day for about a week. 

Are you doing any better? And there is a MMORPG for Kingdom Hearts? Could I perhaps get the html link for that? And is it free? World of Warcraft is free, but not the MMORPG part, unfortunately.

thing1 : You attempted suicide and failed 3 or 4 times a day?! Not to be rude, but how is that possible?

im okay guys.... i was on my ipod and it wont let me type when on ipod