ahh, the time my partner left me on the dancefloor

the time my mother left me in the cold as she forgot I was outside.

the time my brother cut my nails off

One painful memory that I remember vividly was losing my grandfather when I was a child. I looked up to him as a hero since he had so many great Navy stories. When he passed away I took it hard.

When my brother smashed my new remote control car because I wouldn't let him use it.

When I chipped my tooth.

When I banged my head against the edge of the pool.

When I stepper on a nail.

Ugh.

I've lost many family members and friends those are always painful

Wow a painful memory of mine was when i was dating this girl i really liked and i guess my friend liked her too, he actually introduced us, so i heard through her that he wanted nothing to do with me because i went out with the girl he "liked for a very long time", but the thing is she told him long before we got together that she was interested in him and that they could only be friends, so not too long after our month anniversary he said he wish he had never befriended me and that he was starting to hate me because friends don't stab friends in the back, long story short we ended up breaking it off and she hasn't spoken to me since

Totts : I have a few memories in regard to past relationships that I do not look back on fondly. The obvious one that sticks out like a brightly reddened sore thumb in my mind would have to be when I was dumped for lack of a better term on my birthday and I was sick on top of it.

Although it has eased with time and I now consider myself fortunate that this particular relationship ended it kind of soured me about birthdays and I haven’t had much success in the relationship department in the years since.

I don’t think there is necessarily anything or anyone to blame for it but it can be a downer from time to time. I tend to throw myself into my work as my way of dealing with stress and it serves it’s purpose. I prefer not to think of my past relationships because there is no good that comes from pondering the what if’s or, trying to pinpoint whatever mistakes you may or may not have made in a relationship.

In this instance this person whom I was with for quite a while told me that I wouldn’t amount to anything and basically told me that in her eyes I was useless. I have used that as motivation to be the best I can be at what I do and try to be the best person that I can be. From what I have heard about this person in recent years she hasn’t had an easy time of it and ended up pretty much down and out.

I frankly feel bad for her because despite what was said to me and how it was said to me I am at the end of the day a decent human being and hate to see anyone suffer even if in this case it happens to be someone who has wronged me in the past. Although I don’t hold any grudge I don’t want to communicate with this person strictly because it would bring back a lot of memories that I prefer to leave where they belong, in the past if that makes any sense.

Having to break up with my gf of 1 year. hardest s*** I ever had to do.

thepvtcaboose : I’ve been there brother… It isn’t easy especially when you can be blind to the realities of the relationship. The relationship I mentioned before was like that it was a long drawn out type of deal which saw some splits and back togethers and eventually out right broke that lasted on and off two years if memory serves me. Despite everything I was put through during the course of the relationship I still tried in vine to figure out some way to make the relationship last even though I was not the guilty party in terms of why the relationship ended.

The problem with me was I knew the relationship was pretty much a bad idea to begin with but because I had strong feelings for this girl I foolishly ignored my conscience for a really long time. It was only after I finally reached my limit with everything that I pretty much realized you know I’m a better person and if she doesn’t value me in any capacity then why should I feel guilty about it?



This was shortly before I left high school so that will give you an idea of how long ago this was and such. As I said I do not hold any malice for this person because although it is tempting to be angry it’s not productive. I can’t say that so easily in regard to some other relationships but this one despite how wronged I was I prefer to just say you know what? I’m better off.


I am in my late twenties now and even though as I said before I haven’t really had a solid relationship in the years that followed and such I hold my head high because I know if I continue to be the best person that I can be and work hard and be responsible etc. that the right one will come along.