So I don't really like to go into detail about my personal life due to feeling like I'm always bringing down the mood, boring, or just plan uninteresting. But I thought hey why not I need some advice and just a way to vent because why not.

So first things first I decided that I will be going back to college this spring semester, I've been out of school for over a year now, and I've switched colleges around 3 times.. I graduated from a community college when I was 17, and planned on going to Uni like most people do. I chickened out due to anxiety attacks right after orientation... So I took a break and just took an online class at the community college I graduated at prior.

Fast forward, me and one of my good friends decide to go to college for acting and we had a plan for living, and classes and everything ready for fall semester, we did our auditions and got in. Well before that could happen she's now getting ready to move to California instead, and her acting career is taking off, while mine isn't.. She's now not going to that college anymore, and neither am I since I was mostly going for her and the college has been giving me problems for months anyway.

Now I've decided to finally actually start taking classes again at my old Community College until I can figure out what I actually want to do in life, since it's one of the only places I feel comfortable enough to do things by myself. Because my anxiety has gotten so bad to the point where I require a human crutch to be with me or else I can't complete any simple task. I'm basically a big mess and can't do anything anymore, and I'm hoping I'm soon able to learn how to function soon.

That's pretty much the gist and I don't know what do anymore.

Advice can be bad, really bad, so take this with a pinch of salt.

You're at that age, it's good to get it over sooner rather than later, before you really blame yourself for nothing.

You can always quit it.

You have your life ahead you, so spread those wings and learn to fly.
Go out and fall on your ass, and then pick yourself up.
Some things are only meant to carry you so far, so stop living in your head.

I really feel you on that deg I don't really have an answer for over coming the fact that it's constant and makes it impossible to do anything cause I'm in the same boat but one thing I can say is learning to vent to people and talk about things is way better then letting it bottle up if you have anyone you know you can talk to I would really say that you should try to more often and if not I mean I'm not good for advice but I always can listen. I feel like I may be going all over the place but main thing is don't bottle things up lol only took like 5 years for me to learn it but It's better.

Hey Deggie,

I've sorta been there. But you've made it further then even I have. I tried going to college but I only lasted about a month before I had so much anxiety, I couldn't even think about it without a panic attack. This was basically my high school life within the last 2-3 years. As much as I would love to do college, I just can't.

Personally, I think you should be watching out for your health more. I think its great that you want to go back and do schooling to better your life later on, but if its effecting you that much, I don't think you should force yourself to keep feeling that anxiety without some kind of help.

Sure there is the whole regret thing later on in life, but you know, You can always do online college in any point of time in your life. My mother even tried doing college at 48 years old. The only reason why it didn't work out was because, well, she ended up in a coma for 3 months. Not much you can do about that.

So in conclusion, please watch out for your health first. Its a lot more important.

I'm almost 22, and have the exact same anxiety as you. It stopped me from becoming great at anything. My advice is, find your passion and force yourself into it. I'm a janitor, because I wasn't able to. That's just forewarning about how bad not having a great education can be.

Though I feel bad that you don't have a human crutch. All my monetary endeavours are home based now, becausw I can't get to college by myself, not even community.