becerra95 : OOOOooo more talking, I didn't think anyone had it in them lmao

Progress in college has been great! I have but a small handful of courses remaining, plus the practicum if I manage to get into it. Grades have been phenomenal though so I'd be shocked if I somehow wasn't eligible. Two more terms, the fall and the winter, and then I'm graduating! It does not feel real in the slightest after all this time, gotta be honest. Maybe it'll slap me harder once it's actually happening. I also had a bit of a mishap with a parking ticket where the company associated with surveying the college parking lot ticketed me, despite me paying it, because the permit website needed updating and I ended up botching it without a second thought. Once I was able to clear my name and not have to pay a ticket, I ended up forgetting to renew my permit...so it all practically felt like a waste of time in the end. .-.

Novel's a stalemate; I'm working on characters and the sort of storyline/plotline/misc stuff I want to tell before I do any actual writing. Why is sitting down to think on it so much harder than the times you daydream about it? I swear it is almost as if people don't like working :V

I made the thread for that very reason yasee. I know people are just naturally shy to new posts and new faces, so I wanna be a part in reeling folks back in and making Vizzed feel whole again, and not as if it's drifting in a void, lurking from the scene but still close enough to be aware. It happens, I get it, but I also want to make this feel worth my while too. One of these days I just might not come back...although that's not me putting pressure and giving expectations. Let us just see what the people do first, eh? ;V

SonicOlmstead : The novel's slow-going. When I take time to work on it, I've been practicing and getting potential ideas using a story creating ai to auto-generate random excerpts for me to fill in the blanks. Like I probably said, the hardest part outside of starting the story is creating the filler for the story, because you want a really riveting piece of literature to captivate and let people imagine your world, even if you probably don't 100% get it yourself!

College has started for me, so I'm going to have a lot less time to work on it in the future. As for you, it's great to hear you made a decision for yourself! So long as you're absolutely certain on it, I'm sure you'll do great. I'm not going to try and stick my foot in my mouth or anything, but I personally do know a thing or two about being indecisive about momentous decisions like this. I've spent many years just existing, but not necessarily living, you know? There's plenty of reasons for that, but one I can point out is how lots of things in the world don't get me excited or appeal to me like they used to, or lose their luster over the ages past. Learning about yourself and trying to come to terms with the facts of the matter, and deciding on how it makes you feel or what to do about it, that kind of business.

If you're absolutely certain that is what you want to do, hold on to the feeling, and don't do or hear of anything that will intentionally put you down (Kind of like 'Trust no one, not even Yourself, but in a sense, you still have to trust yourself lmao).

I understand where you're coming from.

This past decade has tested me and my ability to cope with what kind of circumstances (and lack of) come my way. Without going into too much detail in the 'How' department, I definitely felt my optimism get sapped away as I came to terms with what I was dealing with, and I found that without having a proper goal to focus on, not only was my optimism just *gone,* but I was a much more irritable, sad and I'd daresay pessimistic individual with no proper outlet to make myself 100% back in form.

My optimism is still there, but it just needed some coaxing to get out again, a reason to have optimism, and as much as I always wanted to believe in the past that I could be capable of being optimistic for absolutely no good reason for the sake of staying on top of things, it's a helluva lot easier said than done.

Pacman+Mariofan : That is true, but when I said that, it was more like...just writing what is in your head, whether it was planned or unintentional, and try and see if you get inspired from it to continue it, or edit it into something else, or even give you a totally new idea just by staring at it and realizing there is potential in making some differences.

I've done my fair share of writing in college already, and although I'm tired, I do understand the satisfaction in going back and sprucing something up you made. It's the sharing aspect that really makes it worth it, so I understand the enjoyment and entertainment about it.

Pacman+Mariofan : Well good on ya, glad to hear it has been a fruitful endeavor for you so far. I've been more of a Pokemon fan myself, starting my role-playing days in Deviantart groups, moving on over to Tumblr for a little while to try getting popular in the ask-blog community (I didn't get popular), and now I sit on a pretty decent pile of possibilities in creative storytelling with that brand.

I'd honestly be trying to start my visual novel with Pokemon in mind, but I fear there would copyright infringement consequences, even if I made it and shared it for absolutely free. On the plus side, this means I get to be original in my potential work. Still procrastinating a little bit on starting, but when you have total freedom on how you want to create something, you get stuck on the best way to start.

My english college teacher warned me about this in a lesson. The best method is to just write it out, whatever's on your mind, then clean it up later. I've been too fixated on how to begin that it gives me the excuse to not even start. It's kinda sad, but I'm hoping to get over it soon.

Pacman+Mariofan : And I do appreciate that. <3

Social Work's a great way to get yourself out there, and there are a lot of branches you can take to help meet the needs of others. I would say however you really want to assist someone would be the ideal way to strive for how you want to go about using that major. Congratulations on being close to finishing that though! Must be an incredible feeling.

You're writing a Pacman story? What sort of premise have you made involving a simple game like Pacman?

I honestly have no thoughts about 2020, outside of the fact that the year was yet another defining example of being an onlooker watching the world burn by choices beyond my control. I have spent a very long time being a homebody, even before the pandemic, because I have nowhere to go and nothing to do with myself, but being forced to stay at home definitely solidified that notion further, if I wasn't as hard as concrete by then already. I'd feel sad and pathetic about it if I wasn't so numb and used to it by now. Frankly, it was this pandemic that was the icing on the cake for me to finally decide that I just gotta do SOMETHING. That year I started college, and still going as of now.

SonicOlmstead : Well I should preface that my first attempt at college ended in dropping out, so I'm not exactly going back into it as if I'm trying something different after "graduating" the first time. Back then I had absolutely no idea what to do with myself. At my age now, well, I still don't, but I am not completely in the dark this time either. At the very least, I have a goal in mind, and that's all I need right now to get through these days. At some point in time in your life, you might come to the same conclusion too; Nix the what-ifs and the fears that come along with progression that force you to stagnate where you are now and just go for something, anything, just so you can say you're going to be out there living your life! I mean that's what college is made for right? The big dreams? I'm sure you'll get tired of your own anxiety enough that you'll just naturally want to move on. Whatever works right?

There are a good plethora of jobs that you can qualify for under Justice Studies that go beyond being a detective. Besides, you'd probably need to amp up your sciences and biology knowledge for that sort of business, like getting into Forensics. Of course I don't know all the possibilities off by heart, but surely there's more to it than knowing how to wield a gun (That's probably for some other discussion).

Yeah, the creating of this novel is going to be a helluva hurdle, the inspiration to just write something down can be hard to come by, but it should be fine. All I have to do is write, so I will write until something interesting happens. Should be simple enough.

SonicOlmstead : Well hey there, fellow college taker! I understand that thought process extremely well! Although to be honest, college wasn't my first choice because I was hoping to go out and get an immediate job, but after a decade of rejection, and in light of everything that has happened in the world recently, I threw my hands up and went "Screw it I'm going back to college!" Also, outside of having to start paying back the funds you received from the government when you dip out of classes for a semester and thereby no longer considered a Student, you really don't have much to feel pressured about. Don't let the anxiety get to you, because you technically can afford to take your time in the education process, it'll just take a little longer if you do is all.

Also it's good to hear you aren't too deep in diabetic issues. I cannot speak for experience but I'm sure it's more than a hassle to deal with a body that refuses to keep its equilibrium in a healthy stable state, yaknow?

How am I? Well, I think I'm doing alright. Currently waitlisted to get into Justice Studies and I suspect it's going to be a looong while before I get admitted into it. It's pretty popular, go figure. Other than that my days are relatively quiet. I spend a lot of time figuring out what to do with myself, outside of the fact I still live with my folks, which is fortunate because I don't have to worry about excess funds, but we do bump our heads somewhat frequently in many a talk or situation.

I'm trying to get myself into a more official hobby that isn't gaming, and I'm looking to try my hand at creating a visual novel. I've been humming and hawing about creative outlets outside of the occasional drawing I do and gather some willpower and inspiration into that, or animating. So at the moment I've chosen the former, but who is to say I won't take some time to learn both anyway? My problem has been sitting down and creating the story, because frankly I got nothing. Barely any characters, and no major plot to associate it. Forever a work in process am I right?

Hi.

You probably don't know me, and I wouldn't blame you if you did manage to forget. I've had this account for a very long time, over 4000 days as a matter of fact, so that had to be somewhere around early 2010 at least? I'm one of those vagabonds with this website, and even more so once Nintendo went around and smacked down the emulations and hacked emulations of their games. But I have grown weary of not doing anything with this account, and I want to attempt to put this thing to good use.

So here's what we're gonna do; We're going to have conversations! Oh not the CONVERSATIONS, heaven f o r b i d you're going to make me chat with you, he who tells ME what to do and how to live MY life! Nah, I'm not forcing it, but I know how shy each and every one of you are, and I only know this out of experiencing people on other websites and forums and mobile games and whathaveyouelse.

This is more like a dare.

If you're willing to accompany me here and entertain each other with whatever kind of talk we could get into, I'd very much like to see what y'all have to say to little ol' me.

On top of that, having people reach out will motivate me to stick around, and I can finally get around to changing this crummy-ass name that I've had this entire time by earning enough Viz to do so (Sitting at 53000/78000 upon making this thread).

So it's like a help you-help me-help-each other-to-help me kind of scenario. But other than that, I want to see what sort of folks are really around here these days, if any at all! Maybe I'll stick around some more, maybe I won't, who knows? I sure don't. But I will entertain the notion and ask y'all a very simple question.

How's life?

I cannot say too much about the subject since I myself have not had a full blown wave of depression, though I have felt several instances of self-loathing, fear, uncertainty, and all the likes. Take what you want out of this if you will.

If it has to come right down to it, look inside yourself and drag that positivity right out of your negative system. It's difficult when the depression is stronger than your actual feelings about wanting to be positive, let alone plain natural happy positivity. But eventually, perhaps when you least expect it, your desire to not be negative and depressed will arise from your bowels of depression, and from there, give yourself the time to reflect. Think about your current feelings, past feelings, feelings you might feel in a future time. Give it the whole Who-What-When-Where-Why-How Questionnaire, and ask yourself if it is truly worth it to let these feelings be a part of your living life.

The will to live is always stronger than the will to die, and depression is a self-inflicted distraction that often leads to suicides and the like. Find your will to live, so that you can find your will to love, and spread that love to others under similar circumstances.

Eniitan : The meaning to that is simply by the meaning of my first post. Dont fret, its got nothing to do with you. That post alone tells that I struggled to try to find a place to post, yet once I found this thread, I had a easy time to explain this, and then post it.

Simple, easy, and totally not time-consuming in any way possible.

Im more likely to scour all corners of Vizzed until I find something to post into rather than "planning" where and when Im going to post my words.

Personally, I have found it difficult to find a thread to post into these days. Whether I dont have a say in a given topic, an idea or question has been replied to enough where I would just waste a space, or some other third thing, I search up and down topic to topic to see if I have a reply to something, just to feel like Im getting back into the swing of being on this site again.

So, for now I got this that I replied to. As hypocritical as the idea is in this thread, it suffices.

Over-hyped? Maybe.

Most of the 3DS games I got are Pokemon, one I think being Mario, and the Wario-Ware Maker that I havent touched in years [because I obviously don't want to make games anymore huehuehue], and a couple others not as related. My childhood was one half Pokemon, so you can say that is where a lot of time went into. The other half was other games, I had a NES and a PS2 back then, so that's where the rest of my time went.

I owned the Wii before and had a selection of games on there, but last year or so I took it all out and have it in a storage unit. Now the only I got going for me these days is the 3DS, Xbox 360, and the ol' lappy here.

Getting back to the topic again, I can say that yes I DO enjoy these games, but the thing with Mario and Pikachu is that there are only so many times you play it until ya gotta move on to something else. Their franchises have a repetitive habit, even if they add on other extras and bonuses to the games. Mario is more likely for this in my opinion, because after clearing everything...what then? A new game to do it all again? I guess so. Pokemon has a repetitive habit too, catching, training, and sending them off to other people. Besides battling online if you are confident of your abilities, which I for one am not, that's all you do really.

And that's all I do, actually. But I don't hate doing this, because I discovered that being able to train Pokemon that no one want because of all the work they have to put in, and giving someone a super strong Pokemon through all of my hard work might make them super happy, and possibly giving that stranger a reason to play some more. Not that I would ever know though, but the thought counts.

In conclusion? Yes, I enjoy these games almost all the time, Pokemon more than Mario, but I feel the need to back away from them on occasion and move on to other games, like Kirby, Fire Emblem, and Viva Pinata Pocket Paradise. Actually now that I got an Xbox I don't play the 3DS game of it anymore, but that is besides the conclusion. These games were given to me as a kid, so rather than promotional uses through commercials and broadcasts, it was rather finding the love for something, and fostering that love of it until it consumes you. Even up to now, I am considering getting myself Pokemon Go the day it finally arrives to Canada! I'd have to set up some things until then, but yeah, there is a whole lot of love for the franchises to spread around.

Not really battle scars per se, but when I was a wee lad, I was sensitive when playing video games. Now this might seem like an odd thing to read, but at that time, if I got really competitive about it, I would get odd pains in strange places.

That doesn't happen anymore, mostly because I can be far more chill about it now. Of course I'm competitive don't get me wrong, but it just does not happen anymore to my relief.

Don't worry, nobody ever knew about it, it usually happened when I was playing solo.

plasticinsanity : Aaaw thank you! Yeah thats a Pokemon alright~

So, I have a certain feeling that Im gonna be putting some people that have dumped art here to some slight shame, but what happens happens, this is how we strive to be better! xD
((Click these links into a new tab if ya dont want to be directed to the picture))

This from my Tumblr

This is also from my Tumblr

And this is on Tumblr and DeviantArt

The first two pictures are my own made Pokemon character. I created him at first for a PMD group on the DA, but Im starting to waver away from it, and bringing forth an idea to creating my own story with the characters in my head!

So yeah, if youre curious you can inquire me about it!