I have a love... *SIGHS* She knows i love her andi know she loves me... We dated but it was in our vest intrest to hold it off for a while. I dont want to get into details for no reason so ill leave it there. We both knew it had to happen and i did the right thing and rejected the girl that tried to catch me on the rebound. I wasn't depresed so i didn't need her... DAMN!!!! There are 2 people on this board who know her.... Ohh well...

It is sad but it had to be done... But as i said (i think i said) we are still friends. Besides its only until we go down to Melbourne... Uhh Capitil city of my state. It could be worse... We could never see each other again.

No not at all Hopstar. most of us would most likely know what you mean. Though after experincing what you did i sorta isolated myself from love and waited for love to make its way to me instead of my love making its way to someone else.

Elara, i move to melbourne at the end of the year. She says i am the best friend she ever has and most likely every will have because from all her previouse break ups i am the only one who still talks to her. She likes that because it means that there is still a chance. I also have a felling of dominence because their are alot of people that like her like i do but i am the only one she likes. That sorta thngs gives a man power because he knows he has been chosen even though he was just himself. No masks, nothing fake to lure her. She found me, she noticed me, she loved me. That sorta thing.... as Hopstar said, is warm and inviting but it is so much more when you are loved by some one you love.

And as you can imagine we cant wait to leave and move to melbourne. Should be awesome because there nothing can stop us from dating where as here, distance is a real pain.

Love can be painful, ive had many painful moments which is why as i said i isolated myself... Alot, i isolated myself from my parentsand for some time my friends. My parents were greatly concerned but what could they do? They tried to talk about it but i never said anything. "Is something wrong?" I would always and still do say the same thing "No... why would there be?" Never to i get an answer for that, never. So i assume i am ment to be happy... and i realise i am. I have found my true love, because she found , me and we will always be together even if we do not hold the status 'Dating'. Well, thats my little speach.. heh heh heh, maybe a bit long.... Thanks. I really needed to say something like that to someone, somewhere....