It is always good to bring your thoughts out to people. Yeah, we don't know you, but it doesn't mean we cant tell you that we hope you come around and manage to repair your life. As a human, I cant really say much more than that, because I don't know what your going through. So I genuinely hope you can manage to repair your family relationships, and if you haven't already, report that bully to the principal. I was bullied as a child because they wanted me to do their homework, because I didn't play sports, or just because I have red hair. Take it to the adults at the school, they know what to do.

ender44 : What's funny is that after that day, I never say the guy again. Now he doesn't even go to the school anymore...

I'm likely to get put on someone's "spammer" list for replying to this so late when it's been inactive a few days and possibly not intended to be a discussion, and I do apologize if this puts me on your spammer list personally. However, since I have a lack of internet access, this is the first chance I've had to even see this thread, let alone reply.

That said, I do want to say even though we don't know you, and I've never even had the priviledge of posting in a thread with you or chatting, we don't mind you sharing like this. Hey, I even made a thread solely for the purpose of encouraging people to post things like this. I think it's good to open up to friends (though you definitely want to pick and choose what to reveal to whom), it encourages and heals. I'm sorry to hear you're in such difficult situations. That is a lot to have to put up with, and I admire your strength, though it is a shame that you have to be so strong. Also, you can (and will, if you try your best) overcome these circumstances and one day better your life. Know that I'm not saying the current situation is your fault (it most certainly is not), or that you can change what is beyond your control, but rather that you will not always have to endure these things. It will get better eventually. And I can't say much, since you didn't specify why, but you have no need to be ashamed of your race or nationality. There's nothing wrong with being black, just like ender and I have nothing to be ashamed of for being reds, despite the mockery we may endure for it. I chose rather (just recently) to take great pride in being a red (and consequently, Irish), though as I said, I've heard a lot of insults hurled. You also (as I) have many reasons to be proud of your heritage.
I don't know if you believe in God or not, and I apologize if I offend you in saying so, but I will be praying for you, and all of your family you've mentioned. I guess the point to my little ramble here was just to let you know that you're not alone, and someone does care.
Best wishes.

I'm sorry that things are so rough on you right now. Having grown up in a household where my parents were always fighting and there was always some sort of drama let me just say I understand. Just try to keep your head up and keep fighting. It will get better someday if you put the effort in.

The one thing that I will say is just keep studying and trying hard in school. I know it sounds lame but that is the way I was able to get out of the BS in my life and really make something of myself as to not perpetuate the BS cycle. I know it's easier said than done when your home life is filled with Drama, I've been there...but you need to try somehow.

OK I'll get off my soapbox for now ;-)

Look I have ADHD and people talk about me as well but remember this " whatever people say about you is none of your business", your not sleeping on the streets starving, your not dying of a un-curable disease, and seeing how your being abused like I was a long time ago the next time it happens tell the police because not one human being can put there hands on you, and be grateful that you have a place to sleep, some people are dying on the streets and your in good health for the most part so it's just a rough patch and there's still the rest of your life to look forward to.