Originally posted by MichaelVash7886

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rough time of it tough.

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are my eyes trickin me or did way stuff that one lol

i think alot of us on here have bad times with relationships. we just gotta stay positive and move on, lol if i didn't i would probly be dead

more like 5%. and who is Monica Bellucci? and does it matter, s***s need to be shown a better life

could we have a site link? to the game

yeah... with me its sorta thesame stuff over and over, and she is the most understanding chick, i love her so much(as a friend), and yeah she is just so caring, me and her are sorta venting buddies, im sure that she has other friends she goes to about stuff to, and i do a lil bit, like with christian problems i go to one of my christian mates, and guyish problems between the guys. but most others are between me and her

agreed. i didn't mean i totaly ignored girls, i ment i became less obvius that i was after them, i still flirted and stuff i just didn't act as if i wanted to go out with em. oh and im not asking them cauz i already know the answer, a painfull one, and then tension would happen so im not going there

guys who do stoop that low are either desperate or screwed in the head

yeah, i got one main one that i talk to, she's awsome, the most amaxzing chick around(i dont like her more then a friend), and ocationally i go to other people but i dont give the ditail i give the my best friend
me and her help each other out a bit, its a great friendship and i hope it lasts

also i come onto forums like this and sorta just vent and talk to poeple i don't know and people who would 99% not have contact with the people envovled

i havn't gotten very far yet, but its more promising, so yeah i figure, if i can keep my cool, and look as if i dont care even tho i do they'll start to like me more

i dont blurt it out... its more i want to tell someone so i talk to someone about it, and if im stupid i'll tell someone i can't trust and then it'll blow out, latly tho i've been able to find people that i can trust

also i write alot of stories and stuff, usual as me as the main character and i base the other characters on people around me... eg that last storie i posted was about me and one of the girls

its sorta half working for me, if i act as if it doesn't effect me and im ignoring them girls seem to take more notice

i have a tendancy to let people know things they shouldn't and intearn it sorta goes back to the girl, effecting the way she thinks and acts around me

zylo did break rulz

^likes food^^ should realize that alot of people use the school system aswell as there home connection

i like going out... without my pants

wat can i do, my heart is for to girls, one in a story i posted in the stories and stuff section, and another that im not gona go to much into cauz 've already said to much, i can't stop thinkin bout them, and wen ever their around where i am i can't help but have my eyes slip glances at them constantly, im scaed that i'll lose their friendship, i don't want to lose it, i wish life was simpler

thanx for the advise zylo, wat you say is very tru, it does feel like im left behind, like im unwanted sometimes to, the worst thing is having a friend you hold so dear turnin into a friend you like more then a friend but she will never like you bak that way and tellin her will make things sour, it hurts now acutally

u do realize that i am 17

ice shut ya gob, for a lil bit would ya this is obviusly a sierus situation.... and i know how ya feel about the "friend thing" most of the girls say that to me and they think its better to have heaps of friends who are girls, then a girl friend, i disagree with that so yeah..

i wrote this on the bus trip home today, its actaully wat happened on the bus trip for me

Sluggishly wheezing through the traffic we head towards our destination. Worried little about the trip my eyes drift calmly through the scene, the endless cars, like ants on their march zimming past back and forth, rustic buildings cramply sit watching the world go by, predestines almost none existents in this fast pace life. Everything silent to the music slamming my ears, the swaying of movements gently lulls me as I follow the bus’s lurching. Her eyes catch mine, darting them left I hide in my writing, letting them drift back to drink in her beauty. Guilty feelings start to shadow my heart as I remind myself what I’ve gone through with her over the last 3 years. My heart lurches at those thoughts and my spirit dips. Distracting myself with my music I try to escape her gravity. Failing dismally
Another drifting look out the window. The buildings, now lush green paddocks, trees, scattered across them. My eyes again fall to her, guilt and pain wrench at me; this dirty pleasure hits my conscience. ‘Why’ does this keep happening, the thought pounds me, sending my mood lower? Her smile always present, showing her pearl teeth, her deep brown eyes catch mine I scatter, looking away. I know she saw me looking at her; pain swells in my throat, grabbing my MP3 player I switch to some techno to try and drown the sickness inside me, the heavy thumps numb my thoughts slightly but not enough to help, searching for my volume I find that it is already at its loudest. “Help me god” I speak silently asking for anything. Many glance again falls onto her beauty; addiction is now in control I feel sick and resentful. Worried now will it all fall apart, will our friendship hold, or will it die painfully, and will I ever forget her.