I'm single because I'm a bit different I suppose.

I'm a sort of complicated person, my past is complicated and so is my present. I've also always been a person that's more mature than other people my age which makes it hard to find people that actually understand me. Most people my age has always thought that I'm a bit weird because I'm deep and likes to analyze things.
Apart from that I'm also quite picky when it comes to boys. I want someone that can "tame" me, and someone who doesn't get "tamed" by me instead, I'm a rather strong willed person. All boyfriends I ever had has always been to easily changed. I don't want someone who always does what I want them to, I want a little challenge. Sigh, it's so hard to find the right person.... Maybe I never will.

I'm working on a bad habit I have.

Sometimes it's like I "disappear". It's like all my emotions and everything that defines me as a person just vanishes and I become "empty". Other people finds this strange of course because they get the impression that I'm offended, which I'm not. These situations tend to turn into arguments, because it happens very sudden and I don't even realize it. I'm working on this, and I'm trying to find a way to "reach" myself when it's like that. But it's really hard, how am I supposed to realize what I'm doing if I can't think? I finally managed to accept that this is a part of my personality and hopefully that will help me to move on and learn to handle it.

Alright the title kind of speaks for itself here. 

Has anyone ever read any of H.P Lovecraft's works?
In case you're not sure who he is, he's the person behind the Cthulhu mythos. He was and American (I think) horror/sci-fi writer in the early 1900's. I just started reading his books and I just want to know what you guys think of his work. If you haven't read any of his books, why not start now? I found a good link to where you can download all his works as eBooks for free here.

Thank you everyone for your nice replies!
I really appreciate it! I've missed you all and this community so much. I'm happy to see that vizzed is just as friendly and welcoming as it was a couple of years ago. I know that a lot of people on here has been through tough situations and that we together can help and motivate each other to move on. <3

plasticinsanity : Hey! Yeah I know... It's never too late to change and I think everyone deserves a second chance :3

Eniitan : I was very happy when you remembered me earlier! I still remembered reading your posts about life. I always thought you seemed like a wise person and I still do, I just don't know your story. I'm looking forward to speak more with you in the future! Stay strong <3

supernerd117 : Haha nice! I knew that profile pic was good for something!

Hello everyone!

I don't know how many of you that actually remembers me but, I'm 0ddie. I think it's been, like, almost two years since I've been online now.

Almost two years ago I was diagnosed with leukemia. Back then I had dropped out of school and was heading down a dark path. Lot's of partying and bad things happened. Nothing that I am proud of today, I feel like I wasted three years of my life doing absolutely nothing.

When I was diagnosed my life changed entirely. I fully realized what I was doing to myself and everyone around me. The cancer helped me to break free from all my "friends" and from the life I was living. I'm certain that if it wasn't for the cancer I would have been dead today. Sometimes tragedies turn into miracles.

Since I was diagnosed I've gone through numerous treatments and had a lot of chemotherapy, and I'm still not finished. In November will my treatments be finished and I will know for certain if the cancer is really gone. Today I'm studying again and enjoying life to the fullest. I've found myself again and since I've always wanted to be a scientist, that's what I'm aiming for. 

I'm glad to reunite with this awesome community and find new and old friends here! If anyone have any questions or would like someone to talk to about anything, feel free to PM me! I hope y'all have a great day/night and I'll see you around. <3

Greetings friend!! *hands you homemade cookies*
Welcome to Vizzed! Hope you'll have a good time on here, and enjoy all the wonderful forums!
I'm thinking of studying as a nurse aswell, but I'm more into treating cancer patients since I've fallen ill myself. It really seems like a wonderful job if you want to help people!

Have a great day! C:

Yes I do! Most of the time I don't talk out loud I just have this, sometimes really deep, conversations with my self in my head. When I'm sure I'm alone I sometimes actually speak but mostly I don't.
When I clean my room for example I tend to say things like: "I'll place you there" or "This one goes here" and when I crochet, draw, make polymer clay charms or other creative stuff I always make up stories or deep conversations with mystical creatures/people in my head.
When doing things like riding a bus though I sometimes think of conversations I'll have with someone later, but that's not really talking to myself I guess...

Right now I'm trying to re watch the whole Bleach series, a huge project but I'll make it, I have lots of free time right now so it's the perfect opportunity!
When I'm tired of Bleach and feel like a break, I watch one or two episodes of Spiral: Suiri no Kizuna, it's not that interesting but it's alright I guess ^^

I've been, for a looong time, paranoid about sleeping with my back to a door or a window. 
I don't know for how long this paranoia has been going on, but I think it's four to five years at least.
I think it started after a horrible nightmare I had where some kind of really creepy cat-like animal with ENORMOUS eyes stalked me in every window close to me. The animal just sat there, watching me with those huge eyes, never blinking, not even moving, just sitting on the windowsill. The scariest thing about the dream was that I live on the 10th floor but still the cat, or whatever it was, had jumped up and sat there...

That's my silly paranoia, what's yours?
Please note: I love cats, they're the cutest thing ever, but the thing in my dream was NOT a cat, just some creepy cat-like monster. 

Oh my God....this will be horrible, I'll never make it....

Here goes: mat9p

Well that was a total fail...I ended up pressing some weird shortcut buttons and opened up new tabs and stuff :/

No, I would certainly not want to know the time of my death.
First of all, if I knew that I only had , for example, one week left to live then I would probably do all kinds of crazy stuff and spend all my money. But what if the prediction was wrong, and I didn't die, then I'd be standing there, without money and no goals in life.
Secondly, if I knew when I was going to die and if it was going to happen in a really long time, it just wouldn't feel right. What should I do? Plan my entire life? Plan my last moments? Aren't life supposed to be full of surprises?

Yay! Another awesome person joins the site!
Welcome to the best and friendliest site on the web!
If you have any questions about anything (I really mean anything) feel free to ask me or other members!
I really hope you'll enjoy posting just as much as playing games on here!
Welcome to Vizzed, have a good time friend :3

I just finished watching Danganronpa, an anime that I recommend to everyone interested in mystery/horror, it was extremely well made and I just loved the style. Epic characters and the plot was perfect, WATCH IT NOW (or I will consume your brain >)

No I wouldn't say I hate them and I don't dislike them either, I might actually like some of them, they tend to be really boring sometimes, but sometimes I actually find them quite interesting.

My showers are usually quite long, a regular shower of mine is around an hour or more.