Are that your reasons why you hate your life?...
I'm sorry.. But you're just being immature yourself..
its scientific proven that playing shooting games may cause aggression upon a person..
For your parents.. Your mother seems a bit odd okay.. But I prefer have a mom like yours then the one i currently have..

you're not the only one with problems in life..
let me start of with a little story of myself.
I was born in the Netherlands.. And i seemed like a healthy baby at first..
but when i got 3 months old my parents noticed that i was un able to stand, or to crawl..
I had cancer.. And this is when my whole life started to collapse..
they did countless operations on me and they used different methods to cure me.. The outcome of this:
A body that wasn't able to grow proper.
my organs like my kidney is taken away. And the only kidney i have left only works for like 20-30%..
my other organs are all damaged. And they only work for 50-70%..
my body is really light compared to others.. I weight 85.8 lbs and i'm 5,4ft... and i'm at a age of 20..
my body stopped growing.. So i will not be able to grow bigger..
my brain is damaged so i forget things really often. And some times may even disappear forever..
my body is almost unable to produce fat.. So i cannot use fitness to build up muscles and gain weight...
maybe one of the worst things.. I cannot became a parent myself.. Since fertility is taken due the chemotherapy. So i can never be a dad.. And my girlfriend/wife could never be a mom from a child of me...
trust me.. Your life isn't that hard to begin with..

To start with my family..
Both my parents where addicted to drugs... my dad seemed to be cured from this.. And lives a great life now being Muslim..
my mom at the other hand is swallowed by the desires of drugs.. And she is a 18 old teenager in a body of 48... be glad that your mom has mother sights...
Me and my sisters are almost being parents of our own parent.. She always goes to parties.. Afterwards she never remembers what she did there.. .She cheated on my dad because he was Muslim and they had less to no sex anymore.. So she went to other mans to full fit here desire for sex.... and the fact that she can't even get a grip of reality.. She is living in a own created word..
For my oldest sister.. She was as a mother for us since my mother didn't.. But my sister also abused this.. She always told us to do this and that and bla bla.. But she only did this because she was deeply sad inside because our own mother didn't didn't take care of us...
she went to the wrong people and used drugs.. She also got addicted to this..
my little sister always called me handicapped and Mongol because i had cancer.. And she didn't know that she hurtled me that much.. I also almost killed some of her friend because they where always bullying me with this... and from here on out in my home town the people got even afraid of me and hated me..
I've grown up on my own.. Without  a mother figure. And without friends..
my sister who is one year older then me took care the most of me.. She seemed to understand me the most out of my three sisters..
my dad didn't had the time to do things with me because of his work.. So i rarely did fun things with him.. I once went to a zoo with him.. I liked that moment..

Now for the other side of the family.
my family is in a small war alike situation..
My grandma and mother hates each other.
my aunt and grandma hates each other.
my dad's family just popped up recently.. Like 5 years ago.. So i don't even know them that good..
the whole family side of my mother is in rage with each other so its hard to make contact with my own family...
the side of my dad are to far away to see.. Also my grandma and grandpa are often on vacation.. So i don't see them often.. Maybe once in a year or 2..

for the recent life.
I got problems with my ears.. I got tinnitus.. So: murmur,squeak whiz and 3 different of other strange noises in my both of my ears.. Making sleeping almost impossible...
I have problems with my strength due my work.. Other people on my work are picking on me because my body doesn't seems to be strong enough to take on the jobs..
I hate my own body.. Its weak.. And i want it to be stronger.. I want to work hard.. And i want to sweat the living s*** out of my life.. But things are easily taken over like: oh wait this is to heavy I'll do it for you.. Then i'm like: dude do not try to take away my work!.. But they never understand me...
my girlfriend and i are happy.. Like really happy.. This is one of the things that keeps me alive.
i'm afraid of strangers.. And have a strange hatred toward humanity.. Which is just hard to live with.. Since i'm human. I indeed hate some parts of my self..
such as my sins..
i have the strange desire for sexual activities since the age of 4-5.. This is a heavy burden.. And i don't know where it comes from..
i'm someone who loves eating.. I eat.. And eat.. And always eat.. But my body doesn't get fat all at.. This might seems also something fantastic.. But it isn't.. People who are normal weighted and say: oh i'm to fat.. That are the people i disgust!.. They are never satisfied with there weight even if they are not over weighted.. While i'm struggling to keep my  weight between 85.8 lbs and 90.2 lbs.. I almost never weight 90.2 lbs.. Most likely between 85.8 lbs and 88 lbs....
also i'm very jealous. This is something that is really eating on me.. Since i'm really quick afraid of losing my girlfriend toward others.
or losing rights because others are better..

Dude you are just living a standard childhood... trust me..
to come on the friend thing. And trust things..
they should have a reason why they don't trust you.. And if you feel like they are not trusted then stop giving them stuff if you already know that they will not give it back..
some things in your live relays in your own hands.. If you don't follow your own paths them your live or your being will never grow..
I hope this will let you feel better about your own life.. I think there are plenty of people left here on vizzed who also have a pretty bad life without being noticed...

Greetings, Yngwie

TheeDragoniteMaster :   Aww, I know that feeling. I hate my life too, but at least we still have  our friends...

I hate my life as well it sucks but I make best of it so I wont go to hell

link101 : What the heck . . .

Now, I can understand what you're feeling. But just try to pull through. I can't really do much but offer my moral support. I think the best advice so far is leggy's and Furret's. As he says, Just smile Furr the win. Keep going.

TheeDragoniteMaster : I am going to be straight up blunt with you say you feel alone you can't have feel alone the reason is because not a thing in that passage have a thing to say about vizzed that must mean that you have friends here on vizzed that care about you. You may have a reality family that you don't like well now you have a cyber family and cyber friends. I do honestly know how you feel and I would like to help you with that problem but the only thing I can do for you now is be your friend on vizzed. Please accept this a gift from me a friend request. I hope you are able to overcome this hatred I will see you later ok.