Now, for those who remember that old, old, thread I made titled "Depression" you'd know I am not the most happy camper on Vizzed and in life. I'll be straight forward. My life is pure BS. People (People who are on Vizzed I know on other forums, cough Lazlo) who may think, "He's not depressed, he's been posting on those sites quite a bit." But in reality I just try to soldier on through and act happy and whatnot. But I cannot take it anymore, I mean, I lost my grandmother (That stings), my dad told me he always wanted two daughters in stead of a son AND daughter (OK, that REALLY hurts), and finally: My dad says I'll never be a musician because I wasn't a piano prodigy unlike my sister and master a instrument (specifically guitar) before turning 11 years old. He exactly said this,"Kyle, you aren't that talented. You just aren't talented like your sister." (OK, THAT HURT... A LOT!)That made my heart sink, and I started to feel pressure on my chest and began to walk away. AND, insult to injury, he said the reason he left me was because he couldn't bear to be the father of a disgrace. (OK, that pretty much killed me) 
   Now I feel I have no purpose in life, I just don't want to live anymore, don't want this horrible emotions and headaches from thinking about so many things instead of sleeping, I don't want to have this insomnia, and as I have already said, I just don't want to live anymore.

Dude, when I looked at the tread title and who created the thread, I know you are 11 years of age. Now I hope you don't get to my age and feel the same way because I'm thinking the same at 28.

Ok, I've been there with a traumatic childhood which haunts me to this day (maybe too much information I just gave?) I'm still hurt emotionally/intellectually by growing up in a divorced family - I'll stop there.

Are you complaining about some post on vizzed?

What do you mean on "posy" on Vizzed?

It was a typo that I happened to edit at the same time as you posted. Anyways I must have misread this when I skimmed over it because after reading it just now, it has nothing to do with Vizzed.

That situation you're in sucks dude, I'm not good at giving advice with sort of stuff so I was sort of saying things should get better with time...

Wow. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm not great at giving advice either, but I will say this. Don't try and survive this on your own. Trust God, rely on Him, and ask Him to help you through this. Honestly, a father like that isn't a father. He may be your dad biologically, but he's no father. Fathers should be building up their kids, loving them and preparing them for life on their own. I'd say to kerp on with what you love (piano, ect.) and don't let his words stop you. Sorry about the rant, that may have been too harsh...

earthwarrior : He married my mom because my mom didn't talk about me, if not much, she was trying to hide me because I didn't speak English at the time, which when he abused me, I forced my self to speak English so well.

BluemageKyle :   Vlad, I'm sorry you're going through this. Don't give up on life though. It's not worth it to throw it all away. Winston Churchill said: When you are going through hell, keep going. Maybe you could talk to him. Maybe if when he does something like that you just punch him in the face and run as fast as you can. Maybe that'd teach him that you're not as worthless as he puts it.

I'm gonna go ahead and say no, you shouldn't be punching anyone in the face.

He's your dad, so I understand that it hurts when he says that stuff. My parents divorced when I was 10, and there was a lot of hurtful things being said to me. The world is big though. Parents are important but it sounds like you'll always have your mom. I know many people who grew up with just a mom who doubled as a father as well, do to being abandoned by their fathers or by alienating them since they treated my them so poorly.

Regardless of what your dad says, you can do and be whatever you want. Maybe you will never be a musician, but that has nothing to do with your talent, and it sure as hell doesn't have anything to do with what your dad says. It makes sense that the things he says hurt you, because you know he shouldn't be acting that way. But he's only as important as you make him. What he thinks of you doesn't change who you are. You're worthwhile, you're important, and you probably are more talented than he thinks. Just because your sister might excel more than you doesn't mean that you are just flat out untalented. That sort of thinking is narrowminded and unnecessary. How he feels about you doesn't validate your existence, most importantly. Half the time my mom hates me, and it doesn't change anything. She's entitled to her opinion, and I'm lucky that more people don't agree with the crappy things she says about me when she gets mad.

Everything sucks once in a while. I've had several points in my life where I've wondered what the point was and why anything mattered at all. But if you can just tough through it, things always get better. Life can't just spiral downward forever unless you willingly make it happen. If you hang in there and keep trying your best, things tend to work out. Take it from someone who's had a lot of low points in life. Getting through those sucky years, I'm 22 now, married to my best friend, and have a 2 year old. If you had told me this is where I'd be when I was, say, 17, I would have laughed my ass off. We can't predict the future, but it's almost always worth working towards.

I went through a lot of emotional scarring stuff when I was your age, and it hurt for a lot of years. But I've long since let go of it. There gets to a point where you get old enough that you realize there's a big world out there besides your parents and your house and your past. The sooner you grow strength from the turmoil you feel and see it as just a single chapter in a long book, things are a lot more manageable. Things can only break you as much as you allow them to.

KG : Couldn't had said it better... literally.

Kyle. I feel your pain... somewhat. Wont go to much detail but... My mother was an ass to me since I was young. Lots of s*** happened, especially last year, couldnt handle it so I moved out. I went out to do what I want to do and look where I am now... a house to myself and doing what I love to do... cooking. (thinking soccer huh?)

OOPS... off track... anyway... do not let him put you down. Just continue on and do it..

Your problem is clearly you have no emotional support.you will feel better when you realise that you have worth. Albert einstein was dyslexic and he didnt let it stop him. If you are dedicated you can achieve what you want, if you want to be a musician stick at it. The fact your sister is better at piano than you at guitar dosent mean you cant be succesfull, or even become better than your sister. But you have to do what you chose for yourself, not your dad, who, excuse me, is a complete tool.
Incidentaly, if hes physically abusive, call social services on the prick.

What KG and mrfe said are both great ideas. So are the other ones. My opinion? Call the police. If he abuses you any more tell your mom and if she isn't there the next time it happens call the police to report child abuse.

thenumberone : Thanks, I have my mother for emotional support, but her mother abused her and her parents divorced so she and her father are close. She just doesn't understand because she always had a father.
KG : Thanks, I'd say that's some of the best advice I've ever gotten in this thread. Thanks.

I am sorry but I got kinda pis.... angry at your dad. That is so horrible. And well to your Mom also for trying to hide you for not speaking english.

I just seriously hope that you can find that you can belive in yourself, even though the people who should have didnt. I know its a hollow request especially from a stranger but for real, I hope you can ignore it all with the love and respect from other people.

And always remember, abuse would it be physical or emotional is wrong. Try to find somebody you can talk about it in real life.

Ya nadeyusʹ, chto vse idet khorosho.

Blue man, I know how you feel to at least some extent. My own "father" ran out when I was four but kept coming back to remind me that he wasn't around. I'm 25 now and both of my parents hardly ever talk to me (my dad never and my mom when she wants someone to argue at). The last time I actually seen my brother (which lives with my dad) was almost 3 years ago now (at my granddad's funeral), and because of my dad I barely know him. My older sister has a son now and I never get to see him... EVER. The only time I get to see anything about my family is on FaceBook. Some of that bothers me, but most of it doesn't. Who you are, what you are about, and what you are worth comes from YOU, not anyone else. The hardest part that you'll find is that eventually you'll realize that all you want is their acceptance and love, but you'll also find that you don't NEED it even if you still feel like you do. I don't know if you are religious therefore I'll keep mine off this board but you'll find that the greatest gift ever given to the whole of humanity is individualism. Each person is their own person. I am not you, though through this post I am now connected with you in a way, but that doesn't change who I am. And so just because you are connected to someone who obviously doesn't appreciate you as you would like them to doesn't mean that you should be anyone different than who you are.

My best advice for you: find a few good hobbies and work as hard as you can at them. be successful in your own way. Others will notice this in you too. Those who don't appreciate your personal successes are not people that are healthy for you to be around. When you see who does appreciate your personal successes surround yourself in them, because these are the people that see who you are and will take the time to get to know you. These people will help you build the SELF-confidence that you may be lacking due to your situation.

I wish you luck young brother. Remember we live in this world together. I'm pullin' for ya, we're all in this together.