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Before I get too deep into my mind dump, this isn't about suicide and shouldn't be taken as such.

Anyways, I can't help but wonder if my life had a New Game + so to speak where you start your life over with all the knowledge you've attained in your last run through your life. I just feel sometimes that I'd be 10x better off than I am right now if I had another chance to run through it all.

I'm not saying I'm in a bad place right now, in fact I'm doing something with my life I never thought possible. However I wonder sometimes how much more prepared, focused, and better off financially I would be if I could reset at this stage and go through my life again with all my current knowledge.

Although that would add another level of complication to your life, since in essence, you would have to pretend you didn't have this knowledge, as a 3 year old having all sorts of life experience would be hard to cope with with well meaning parents doing what they are supposed to do trying to raise you, although you might understand where they are coming from better, and have that information reinforced in your head better to prepare you for your adult life. School would be a breeze, but your social life would likely be affected being a 20 year old trapped in a child's body, then again you might be able to embrace your childhood again like you did originally.

Where am I going with this? I'm not really sure. I have a tendency to overthink abstract concepts in my head, and in this case the concepts has fallen out onto this forum.

So I think my question is, does anyone else feel this way? I don't necessarily mean being depressed or whatnot, but a case of hindsight being 20/20. I think it's the Video Game nerd inside of me longing for a "1-up" so to speak since I can get polished in a video game, and know I could do the same in real life if I had a couple of shots at the same life to live it to it's fullest extent.

Hopefully my mind dump made some amount of sense. So that being said, does anyone have anything they'd like to add to that school of thought? Against it? I'm up for a good old fashioned "Live Life to It's Fullest" debate if anyone has any ammunition on the subject of this "life" thing.

I'd like to try and keep this topic from turning into an afterlife discussion if I can help it, but if that's the way the flow goes, I'll ride the wave.

Anyway, I think I'm done rambling now. Who's up next? :p
Before I get too deep into my mind dump, this isn't about suicide and shouldn't be taken as such.

Anyways, I can't help but wonder if my life had a New Game + so to speak where you start your life over with all the knowledge you've attained in your last run through your life. I just feel sometimes that I'd be 10x better off than I am right now if I had another chance to run through it all.

I'm not saying I'm in a bad place right now, in fact I'm doing something with my life I never thought possible. However I wonder sometimes how much more prepared, focused, and better off financially I would be if I could reset at this stage and go through my life again with all my current knowledge.

Although that would add another level of complication to your life, since in essence, you would have to pretend you didn't have this knowledge, as a 3 year old having all sorts of life experience would be hard to cope with with well meaning parents doing what they are supposed to do trying to raise you, although you might understand where they are coming from better, and have that information reinforced in your head better to prepare you for your adult life. School would be a breeze, but your social life would likely be affected being a 20 year old trapped in a child's body, then again you might be able to embrace your childhood again like you did originally.

Where am I going with this? I'm not really sure. I have a tendency to overthink abstract concepts in my head, and in this case the concepts has fallen out onto this forum.

So I think my question is, does anyone else feel this way? I don't necessarily mean being depressed or whatnot, but a case of hindsight being 20/20. I think it's the Video Game nerd inside of me longing for a "1-up" so to speak since I can get polished in a video game, and know I could do the same in real life if I had a couple of shots at the same life to live it to it's fullest extent.

Hopefully my mind dump made some amount of sense. So that being said, does anyone have anything they'd like to add to that school of thought? Against it? I'm up for a good old fashioned "Live Life to It's Fullest" debate if anyone has any ammunition on the subject of this "life" thing.

I'd like to try and keep this topic from turning into an afterlife discussion if I can help it, but if that's the way the flow goes, I'll ride the wave.

Anyway, I think I'm done rambling now. Who's up next? :p
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I often wish I could redo parts of my life.
But if you ever stuff something up, you always learn something from it.
If I actually had the opportunity I wouldn't change anything major in my life. That could change in my later years though
I often wish I could redo parts of my life.
But if you ever stuff something up, you always learn something from it.
If I actually had the opportunity I wouldn't change anything major in my life. That could change in my later years though
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No, never.
I rarely regret for things that I've done in my life. Because I think that making mistakes is necessary, if you want to learn by life.
Besides, if I could change anything, then my life would be probably vastly different than now, and I don't want to change anything in my current life.
No, never.
I rarely regret for things that I've done in my life. Because I think that making mistakes is necessary, if you want to learn by life.
Besides, if I could change anything, then my life would be probably vastly different than now, and I don't want to change anything in my current life.
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I gotta learn everything the hard way, so a do over would be awesome. Woulda done lots different, but schtuff is still all good.






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I gotta learn everything the hard way, so a do over would be awesome. Woulda done lots different, but schtuff is still all good.






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As much as I wish I would really like to change some of the things I've done, and the way I would do things, there are just certain parts of my life I just never want to go through again. So I suppose I kind of would like to start over on somethings but I don't know for the most part.
As much as I wish I would really like to change some of the things I've done, and the way I would do things, there are just certain parts of my life I just never want to go through again. So I suppose I kind of would like to start over on somethings but I don't know for the most part.
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Who would want to go through puberty again? Not me I didn't have the best of childhoods so I wouldn't change anything because I like who I am right now and am quite happy with where my life's going.
Who would want to go through puberty again? Not me I didn't have the best of childhoods so I wouldn't change anything because I like who I am right now and am quite happy with where my life's going.
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Although I don't like to use hollywood to explain myself... has anyone ever seen Butterfly Effect?

Basically the main character gets a chance to go back in time and fix the "mistakes" he made in his life.... which turns out to screw up his life even more than if he had actually made those mistakes.

While I look back at my life and wonder why things happened and wish I could "fix" mistakes I made... those mistakes taught me so many things about life and about myself that I couldn't go back and undo them and still be the person I am right now.
Although I don't like to use hollywood to explain myself... has anyone ever seen Butterfly Effect?

Basically the main character gets a chance to go back in time and fix the "mistakes" he made in his life.... which turns out to screw up his life even more than if he had actually made those mistakes.

While I look back at my life and wonder why things happened and wish I could "fix" mistakes I made... those mistakes taught me so many things about life and about myself that I couldn't go back and undo them and still be the person I am right now.
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I wouldn't change anything in my life because if I did, I think it would follow The Butterfly Effect; I would end up really messing up my life or I would become someone I wish not to be. I'm happy with my life and I wouldn't change it for the world.
I wouldn't change anything in my life because if I did, I think it would follow The Butterfly Effect; I would end up really messing up my life or I would become someone I wish not to be. I'm happy with my life and I wouldn't change it for the world.
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Hellz yesh. I most certainly would start over. If I was fourteen again and knew that the kids that were picking on me were going to end up pregnant and married at eighteen, i would have had a much better adolescence. I don't know If I would change everything though. I did fall deeply in love before and that was the best time of my life, but the heartbreak afterward I would not wish on my deepest enemy.
Hellz yesh. I most certainly would start over. If I was fourteen again and knew that the kids that were picking on me were going to end up pregnant and married at eighteen, i would have had a much better adolescence. I don't know If I would change everything though. I did fall deeply in love before and that was the best time of my life, but the heartbreak afterward I would not wish on my deepest enemy.
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I think just about everyone has something they wish they could do over… I don’t think anyone’s had the so called “Perfect” life. Everyone has their struggles whether they be big or small. It is normal to want go back and do things differently.


I’ve always found that it is the struggles in life that in the long run matures you and makes you a better person and over time you discover without those struggles you wouldn’t be the person you are.
I think just about everyone has something they wish they could do over… I don’t think anyone’s had the so called “Perfect” life. Everyone has their struggles whether they be big or small. It is normal to want go back and do things differently.


I’ve always found that it is the struggles in life that in the long run matures you and makes you a better person and over time you discover without those struggles you wouldn’t be the person you are.
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i wouldnt start over. there are some stuff i regret not doing but i wouldnt change that. who knows where id if i hadnt done or done some of the things that i did and didnt do im starting to confuse my self
i wouldnt start over. there are some stuff i regret not doing but i wouldnt change that. who knows where id if i hadnt done or done some of the things that i did and didnt do im starting to confuse my self
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So Kinda Like Rencarnation Starting Your Life Over With All Your Experince.I Never Want To Change My Life Unless I Do Something Really Really Stupid That Just Embarise Me.
So Kinda Like Rencarnation Starting Your Life Over With All Your Experince.I Never Want To Change My Life Unless I Do Something Really Really Stupid That Just Embarise Me.
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If I did start over, I'd make just as many regretable mistakes. Why bother?
If I did start over, I'd make just as many regretable mistakes. Why bother?
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There are always some parts of my life that I want to start over.
There are always some parts of my life that I want to start over.
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Actually, most recently I've thought of the same things. "What would life be like if I could start it over, knowing everything that I've learned throughout my life." I have always thought this would be awesome. I don't have any depression issues or anything like that, but I do think this is an interesting topic, and I aswell think of how cool it would be to live life over again, be able to ace that test, or tell the truth to somebody you lied to and realized it was an aweful mistake. I started thinking about this topic because of a discussion we had in drama class about regrets, and even though I'm still quite young, I have already done lots of things that I wish I had never done, or in terms "regret."
Actually, most recently I've thought of the same things. "What would life be like if I could start it over, knowing everything that I've learned throughout my life." I have always thought this would be awesome. I don't have any depression issues or anything like that, but I do think this is an interesting topic, and I aswell think of how cool it would be to live life over again, be able to ace that test, or tell the truth to somebody you lied to and realized it was an aweful mistake. I started thinking about this topic because of a discussion we had in drama class about regrets, and even though I'm still quite young, I have already done lots of things that I wish I had never done, or in terms "regret."
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Hmm, I think that I would. I mean, not to change anything (I like the way I am/turned out/where I am), but, I wouldn't mind reliving some things in my life again. But, I would be scared to mess things up.
Hmm, I think that I would. I mean, not to change anything (I like the way I am/turned out/where I am), but, I wouldn't mind reliving some things in my life again. But, I would be scared to mess things up.
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I think EVERYONE has been through that phase in life...
When they feel like they've hit rock bottom and wish they could change something
Or start ALL OVER AGAIN..which is clearly impossible.
I think EVERYONE has been through that phase in life...
When they feel like they've hit rock bottom and wish they could change something
Or start ALL OVER AGAIN..which is clearly impossible.
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I think about it sometimes. Not that I hate my life or anything, I just would like to do something new change my old life...I have some regreats and unneccasary enemies and would like to change it.
I think about it sometimes. Not that I hate my life or anything, I just would like to do something new change my old life...I have some regreats and unneccasary enemies and would like to change it.
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As Jay-Z said 'gotta learn to live with regrets', I don't know you MegaHarv, so I can't say for sure what’s happening for you right now or the experiences in your life that might lead you to think or wish about starting over again. I do implore you however, that if you do have depression and anxiety related issues or any such related condition, that you might think about, seeking help, if you have already not done so, there are so many good therapists out there, and bad ones too I admit, but as I say there are many good people out there and when you find one you will be able to go through thinks step by step and explore what leads you to this kind of thinking.

But as I say this is for you to deal with and since you are asking a question of other Vizzed members then I shall reply with my thoughts, which are in no way to be taken as what I think you should do, as the only person who can make any decisions about their life is you.

For me I have to live in the reality that there is no going back, I would love to thing that life had a rewind button, as a child I imagined that I was like a kid in one of my comics who had a remote control that could rewind time, this child was to so happy and care free as whenever he made a mistake he could correct it, but what would I have learnt if I had not learnt from my mistakes? I would never have grown up, part of growing up for me was accepting my decisions and having effect, sure there is lots I could have done differently as a child had I known then, what I know now, but do I want to go around beating myself up for that and live with regrets, not really. I choose now to celebrate that I at least have the wisdom to know where I went wrong in the past, the task for me now is to put this into actions, rather than lament on the past and what went wrong and what I could have done differently, be it through not dealing with bullies at school with a stiff kick to the nuts - some of them really would have deserved that, the bullying perverts, or deciding to leave home sooner. But what I realise is that each day we are reborn and can make any decisions we want to. I decided to give up my job, rather late in life and seek a new career and what a risk that was, I lost my relationship and many other things, but I knew I could not go back and change anything; the change has to start and happen now for me, not in the past.

Sure I lament over losing the person in my life who meant the most to me and wished things could have worked out differently and that I had done different things, but when he left me, I knew that we were not working out together so why would I have wanted to do things differently and stay as we were.

I tend to over think things too, I used to call it thinking, but my therapist called it obsessing and not using my mind, I was insistent that I was just thinking over things, but he was right, I was just being controlling and over manipulating. Depressives such as I, obsess and don’t tend to put things into actions, that it what it is such a popular fantasy to want to turn back time and do things correctly, or I use to imagine that I was a superhero like Superman and had unlimited powers. I used to fear being caged up, solitary confinement, that I would become answerable to my sins and from that there would be no escape, This was my biggest fear and from this I became claustrophobic and could not breath.

It is scary to think that we have done wrong things, even when we did not mean too, if am unhappy, its because I realise that I am not where I want to be now, but I have effect and can do things, I am not ‘feckless’, the only time in your life when we are is as a baby and without our mothers breast we would die of starvation, so we cry to survive.

My guess is that people who are optimistic and do not suffer so much from depression are happy with the decisions they have made overall, or are on the whole more philosophical about the ones they have made, even the wrong ones. I am still to young to know for sure whether I truly wish I could start over, on my deathbed however, I will not want to think that I did not do the things I wanted to, the only person who hold me back is myself, not my dysfunctional family, my drunk parents, my abusive uncle and my cruel beating aunt, I have my own mind and can do with it anything I please.

Its not a case of how well off you are or the place you live in, being a thinker rather than an obsessive, can happen anywhere. Viktor Frankl was put in a Nazi concentration death camp in Germany for being Jewish. His solution was to reclaim his own mind and develop a soul and spirituality that could not be taken away by his evil German captors. By becoming engaged and freeing ones mind from the now ‘imagined’ confines of ones environment he set himself free, despite the withering of his limbs and the death of his family in German captivity.



I seek now not to start over, but to engage, 'to lead a life worth living' to be kind to other people, to make the most of what is around me. It is far too selfish of me to want to turn back time, this is too inward, depressives only tend to think of themselves, people need my help and support and I need to be there to give it to them, rather thank thinking I wish I could go back…..
As Jay-Z said 'gotta learn to live with regrets', I don't know you MegaHarv, so I can't say for sure what’s happening for you right now or the experiences in your life that might lead you to think or wish about starting over again. I do implore you however, that if you do have depression and anxiety related issues or any such related condition, that you might think about, seeking help, if you have already not done so, there are so many good therapists out there, and bad ones too I admit, but as I say there are many good people out there and when you find one you will be able to go through thinks step by step and explore what leads you to this kind of thinking.

But as I say this is for you to deal with and since you are asking a question of other Vizzed members then I shall reply with my thoughts, which are in no way to be taken as what I think you should do, as the only person who can make any decisions about their life is you.

For me I have to live in the reality that there is no going back, I would love to thing that life had a rewind button, as a child I imagined that I was like a kid in one of my comics who had a remote control that could rewind time, this child was to so happy and care free as whenever he made a mistake he could correct it, but what would I have learnt if I had not learnt from my mistakes? I would never have grown up, part of growing up for me was accepting my decisions and having effect, sure there is lots I could have done differently as a child had I known then, what I know now, but do I want to go around beating myself up for that and live with regrets, not really. I choose now to celebrate that I at least have the wisdom to know where I went wrong in the past, the task for me now is to put this into actions, rather than lament on the past and what went wrong and what I could have done differently, be it through not dealing with bullies at school with a stiff kick to the nuts - some of them really would have deserved that, the bullying perverts, or deciding to leave home sooner. But what I realise is that each day we are reborn and can make any decisions we want to. I decided to give up my job, rather late in life and seek a new career and what a risk that was, I lost my relationship and many other things, but I knew I could not go back and change anything; the change has to start and happen now for me, not in the past.

Sure I lament over losing the person in my life who meant the most to me and wished things could have worked out differently and that I had done different things, but when he left me, I knew that we were not working out together so why would I have wanted to do things differently and stay as we were.

I tend to over think things too, I used to call it thinking, but my therapist called it obsessing and not using my mind, I was insistent that I was just thinking over things, but he was right, I was just being controlling and over manipulating. Depressives such as I, obsess and don’t tend to put things into actions, that it what it is such a popular fantasy to want to turn back time and do things correctly, or I use to imagine that I was a superhero like Superman and had unlimited powers. I used to fear being caged up, solitary confinement, that I would become answerable to my sins and from that there would be no escape, This was my biggest fear and from this I became claustrophobic and could not breath.

It is scary to think that we have done wrong things, even when we did not mean too, if am unhappy, its because I realise that I am not where I want to be now, but I have effect and can do things, I am not ‘feckless’, the only time in your life when we are is as a baby and without our mothers breast we would die of starvation, so we cry to survive.

My guess is that people who are optimistic and do not suffer so much from depression are happy with the decisions they have made overall, or are on the whole more philosophical about the ones they have made, even the wrong ones. I am still to young to know for sure whether I truly wish I could start over, on my deathbed however, I will not want to think that I did not do the things I wanted to, the only person who hold me back is myself, not my dysfunctional family, my drunk parents, my abusive uncle and my cruel beating aunt, I have my own mind and can do with it anything I please.

Its not a case of how well off you are or the place you live in, being a thinker rather than an obsessive, can happen anywhere. Viktor Frankl was put in a Nazi concentration death camp in Germany for being Jewish. His solution was to reclaim his own mind and develop a soul and spirituality that could not be taken away by his evil German captors. By becoming engaged and freeing ones mind from the now ‘imagined’ confines of ones environment he set himself free, despite the withering of his limbs and the death of his family in German captivity.

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I seek now not to start over, but to engage, 'to lead a life worth living' to be kind to other people, to make the most of what is around me. It is far too selfish of me to want to turn back time, this is too inward, depressives only tend to think of themselves, people need my help and support and I need to be there to give it to them, rather thank thinking I wish I could go back…..
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If I had the chance to restart life with all the knowledge I currently posess I´d take it.
Not because of regrets, hell I don´t wallow in regrets enough to have them affect me much long term since I hardly ever do anything wrong, but getting a good extra 18 years and not mentioning those years being years where I could read! Holy crap that would be awesome. There are so many books in this world and so many games and so many things I can never finish in such a short lifespan that starting over would rock, more games, books, anime, movies and experiences in general.

So yeah, I´d start over but not cos of regrets but because of this awesome oppertunity to get more things done in my life before I die.
If I had the chance to restart life with all the knowledge I currently posess I´d take it.
Not because of regrets, hell I don´t wallow in regrets enough to have them affect me much long term since I hardly ever do anything wrong, but getting a good extra 18 years and not mentioning those years being years where I could read! Holy crap that would be awesome. There are so many books in this world and so many games and so many things I can never finish in such a short lifespan that starting over would rock, more games, books, anime, movies and experiences in general.

So yeah, I´d start over but not cos of regrets but because of this awesome oppertunity to get more things done in my life before I die.
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