It looks like I am at the end of another relationship again, but this wasn't much of one. I was in love with this girl, and there has only been one other one that I have felt this way about in my lifetime. Some of you have been keeping up with what's been going on in my life over the last week or so. It has been a turbulent time for me, and the girl (I'm not going to say her name here and make her even angrier at me than she already is) I was with at the time of the accident has made things even worse. We met at work almost a month ago when I started helping her put bottles on the line.

I thought she was sort of attractive but didn't think much of her at first. I figured I'd be friendly to her anyway because I knew she was pretty even though she had problems with her appearance I don't want to discuss. Come to find out, she had a big crush on me, and some of the other women in the plant forced her to talk to me. I didn't know what to think! She ran off and hid, but I respected her space. I didn't force her to speak to me, but she finally did in the breakroom in front of everybody. Later, I decided to get to know her a little as a friend.

That's when I started falling in love with her. She used to be very attractive with sandy blonde hair and a beautiful smile that, by now had gotten ruined. Part of her teeth are missing now. I also found out a lot of other things about her, one of those things was that she had autism. She was also living in a trailer park with a bunch of roommates that were being abusive to her. Nonetheless, she was very enthusiastic about her new job with me and our relationship. She started wearing nicer clothes to work and fixing up her hair and makeup. We never showed affection in public because I discouraged her from doing that.

We did outside of work with her leading the way. I got to meet some of her family, and they seemed to approve of me. Her aunt (I thought) really liked me. They claimed, I was "a keeper" and to "hold on to this one". I was there for her when she moved out of her roommates trailer and into a friend's house. That's when things started getting more serious. I got more involved with her. She started partying with her friend, and that's when we found ourselves in a drunk driving accident. Me and her weren't speaking to each other that day as it was, but after that we have become very distant.

I tried to reach out to her, but she kept pushing me away. She never replied to any of my texts or anything this weekend despite the fact that she got a new phone. I don't want to go into the details of the accident or what has happened since. I have made other threads about that on Vizzed in the Girlz and Guys/Relationships section. "Where to Even Start" and "How do I Go On Living?" Look at those for more information. I'm pretty broke up over this girl, and I don't think I'll ever forget her. I did something stupid last night. I just recently signed onto facebook mainly to look at things that were related to Vizzed.

I came across her profile. Some of her old pictures were on there, and I commented on one of them and how nice I thought she looked in it. I told her, "I'd never forget her". Next thing I know, she deleted this profile, and it was no longer available. It's safe to say, she's done with me. There is no point in continuing to pursue a relationship with her. If she calls me, I'll answer it and try again, but if not, I'm done! I want it if she does, but I don't think she does. So, I'm basically all alone again in my life. My dad is going back to his old ways, and that wasn't meant to last.

I'm all alone, and what's worse, we never got to go out on a date or anything. I had plans to take her to some good places. I wanted to spend money on her and make her happy. I would have bought her anything. Why did this have to happen? I feel like this is the end. I don't think I'll ever have another relationship like this again. I really had big plans for us, but it looks hopeless now. I don't even know when I'll be able to work again. I don't know if I'll be able to keep my job. They say I will, but what if? I need someone right now, and things are really hard for me. I just hope I can stay on Vizzed and all through all of this and start over in June and still have a job.

I don't know about this girl and if she's still working there or not, but I hope I can still work there and find out what happened to her. I want to know what's going on with her. I know she won't let me help, but I still want answers.

I'm sorry to hear that your relationship has ended and that she chose to ghost you. The end of a relationship is always difficult and especially when there is a lack of communication involved. It sounds like, from her behavior thus far, that she may avoid you at work, which is a mixed blessing. This may mean that you can keep your job without awkwardness, so hopefully that will be the case. Above all, know that you will get through this. You were complete before this relationship and you will be complete again after this relationship. Never lose sight of yourself, and the strengths that define you. It may take some time to heal, but I have every faith in you that you will love again. Hang in there my friend. It may take some time, but you will be alright. Also I would like to recommend a website to you called 7cups.com. Its an online community that offers each of its members emotional support through difficult times, they offer access to therapists, and additionally you can seek anonymous one on one help through a trained listener. I would give it a try. It may take a few tries to get a listener that works for you, but I've found that it has really helped me with my depression. So good luck my friend, and we are all rooting for you.

Norriegirl93 : I don't know when or if I'll be able to return to work. I have suffered a spinal injury in the car crash that happened last weekend. I hope to go back in June. I also hope to meet someone else pretty soon and forget any of this even happened. We never got the chance to even make any good memories.

Hoo boy, this string of threads has been an emotional roller coaster. Forgive me for not noticing the recent development sooner. Not sure what's up with the less attractive thing, I know you're broken up, but it's not very nice. That aside, well...You seem pretty torn. You said some nasty things at the end of the previous thread, yet here you say you'd still try again. That's completely understandable. You're probably having emotional recoil and need to cope.

It's for the best regardless that you stay apart if you two are done though. In a way she's doing your job for you. But don't you just hate that? It feels spineless to just break up with someone without even saying a word. We can assume it may have something to do with her actual mental issues though.

Of course you had plans. There's always plans. But it's bad to make plans without considering the possibility of not realizing them. I've learned that the hard way in many facets of life over the last several years. Even your plan B isn't a true fail safe. See though, this is what gets me. A person's character is color coated in a way. If she came back to you with no clear explanation as to why she left, you'd have no reason to expect she wouldn't do it again. Then you'd have two choices. Go into the relationship knowing that there's an extremely high chance of a repeat offense, or just keep it platonic.

Love is a struggle, and sometimes it doesn't pay off. It's your decision if you want to go through it. But if you don't, you need to build a foundation for enjoying your life without it. That spinal injury isn't helping. Sheesh, if it's that awful. You're getting unemployment right? Well, if you have any creative or mathematical talent, I'd pick up a hobby that can turn into a commercial venture, because back problems are no joke. Also, that car accident was no one's fault but the drunk driver. No matter who you blame, nobody could've anticipated that. I think you know that too though.

pennylessz : It's nice to see you again. I didn't know if you'd see this thread or not. Thanks for the reply. I feel like you're right about taking her back without her giving me an explanation as to what's going on with her. I've made that mistake with another girl here recently, and that ended in a disaster. I was actually thinking about giving that relationship another try! Then, I realized what a mistake that would've been.

Anyway, I'm safe the way I am now, and that is single! I'm hoping this neckbrace will come off June 14 which is my 36th birthday, but I'm taking things one day at a time. I recently, joined facebook and am getting ready to work on building my webpage on there. I'm thinking of using the same profile picture I use on Vizzed. This could be a way for me to reconnect with old friends.

I'm done with this girl unless she can call me back with an explanation. Same goes for anyone else.

That's the spirit, keep your self confidence up when you need it. And let it out when you need that. It's like breathing in and out. Eventually the panic attack fades away. Right now is a time for healing anyway, and taking it slow is probably the only thing you can do. I hope your birthday wish comes true though. What will the purpose of your webpage be, a blog?

I'm just curious in what way you'd reconnect. Just remember, if it's a forum, advertising it here is a bad idea. I found that out the hard way many years ago. Though honestly, those who stick around here do so out of loyalty. I doubt you could drive traffic much lower than it already is.

I don't look at this relationship as a complete failure, but there was room for improvement. I wished that it would have lasted longer, and we could have made more memories. I've got a few but wanted more. I would've also like to have gotten to know her better. Maybe, I could've meet her mom. I don't know if her and her family were really that bad. There was a lot she wasn't telling me.

I hope she calls me back in the future and explains all of this to me, but I doubt she will. If she never can, I'm done, and I'm going to do my best to not call her, text her, or have anything to do with her ever again unless she can explain everything to me that's been going on this past week. If she can't, I never want to hear from her again because that is not fair to me regardless of what she's going through.