I don't hold grudges. I do relish my revenge though.
When I prove somebody wrong, show them, that I could do something that they thought I couldn't, or I escaped their manipulative trap? I stand up tall and laugh. For all my low self esteem and realistic outlook upon life. . . I can briefly act like quite an egomaniac and just. . . not stop.
I don't actively relish my grudges, in fact, I don't have them.
But when I come out on top. When I've proved something. When I've reclaimed my honor? I relish it. I enjoy it. I love it, and I will take full occupation as the new ruler on the block.
It's complicated, but no, I don't hold onto things. I do use my angst and desire to make things better to keep myself moving forward though. We as humans experience emotion for a reason. The thing is, you don't dwell on them all the time. Let it take it's place, and don't become too obsessed. Hate, and angst can be powerful tools at your disposal, but like most of life, you need logic to guide you too.
I have mastered my anger. It is one of my most powerful tools when boiling deep down inside. A fuel that keeps on going, and I don't make life miserable on other people either. In fact I am genuinely happy most of my life, and I enjoy people's company. But when the time comes, the angst and the reminder is always there. It is the steady fuel that allows me to create. The other half of the time, I am creating out of love. A love for what should, could and would be, if only I could be there.
And then there is sadness, and equally powerful emotion. An emotion that doesn't create like love and hate can, but can create very small, fine and impacting points.
An author knows about all of his emotions. And they are the lifeblood of himself. ^^
I don't hold grudges. I do relish my revenge though.
When I prove somebody wrong, show them, that I could do something that they thought I couldn't, or I escaped their manipulative trap? I stand up tall and laugh. For all my low self esteem and realistic outlook upon life. . . I can briefly act like quite an egomaniac and just. . . not stop.
I don't actively relish my grudges, in fact, I don't have them.
But when I come out on top. When I've proved something. When I've reclaimed my honor? I relish it. I enjoy it. I love it, and I will take full occupation as the new ruler on the block.
It's complicated, but no, I don't hold onto things. I do use my angst and desire to make things better to keep myself moving forward though. We as humans experience emotion for a reason. The thing is, you don't dwell on them all the time. Let it take it's place, and don't become too obsessed. Hate, and angst can be powerful tools at your disposal, but like most of life, you need logic to guide you too.
I have mastered my anger. It is one of my most powerful tools when boiling deep down inside. A fuel that keeps on going, and I don't make life miserable on other people either. In fact I am genuinely happy most of my life, and I enjoy people's company. But when the time comes, the angst and the reminder is always there. It is the steady fuel that allows me to create. The other half of the time, I am creating out of love. A love for what should, could and would be, if only I could be there.
And then there is sadness, and equally powerful emotion. An emotion that doesn't create like love and hate can, but can create very small, fine and impacting points.
An author knows about all of his emotions. And they are the lifeblood of himself. ^^