Well then, off to rewrite this WHOLE thread again! I was writing, had to summon only and explain why I summoned them... But nooooo, my iPod had to run out of energy forcing me to rewrite this thread. =
Hello everyone. I will have to leave Vizzed for a while. Well, I have to leave the internet. I want to change into another person. Yesterday was an awkward day.
I was on my chair thinking about transgender... Then my mother came in to tell me that I have to change my clothes because I'm going somewhere with my father for my glasses, and when I removed my shirt, I noticed a nightmare. I had a little bit hair on my chest, and hair on my arms. That, is a nightmare to me. I then, for the first time, became mad and sad... I started crying because I am a gender I just... Hate to be... Male. It took me 20 minutes to change clothes, I still wanted to do my hair and brush my teeths but my father became mad! So I didn't do my hair... When I was in the car, I was looking outside, and saw heart-shaped clouds... I thought back about my body hair, and then I wanted to cry harder than before. But as I didn't want my father to notice me crying, I held back my tears. I lost the clouds and then saw it again, and wanted to cry again. But I did not. We were heading to a store for glasses to fix my glasses and get my father new glasses. When my glasses were fixed and cleaned up (FOR FREE! ), someone told me this: ‘You're a beautiful girl, eh?’. I was gonna blush, and I wanted to say ‘Thank you..’, but right after they has finished their phrase, I didn't had the chance to say anything and my father tells them: ‘He's a boy.’... But if he didn't hear them, I'd say thank you quietly and maybe they'd tell my father and my father says I'm a boy and then they'd get confused. So... Yeah.
Back on our way home, my father had to purchase something. I then was alone in the car and I hear something on the radio. A man had attacked a little girl of one and a half years old. She is now in the hospital, and the man got arrested. I wanted to cry about this, I almost did but I didn't... Held myself back for the same reason: my father. In the car, I thought about transgender the whole time. My father noticed I might be sad, but instead he asked if I was tired. IF I WAS TIRED. I said I was, but I wasn't. When I was home in bed, I was thinking the who I want to be, and the who I am right now. I need to change, and only now I realize I won't be able to change if I am on the internet. So I made this thread...
I will leave for a few months, maybe a year. Yes, that's how long. I refuse to come back if I haven't changed. This is what I want to be changed:
• Take baths way more often
• Brush your teeths every morning, midday and evening
• Be more active and hyper, but calm at the same time
• Don't go on the 3DS or anything else when I need to sleep
• Get rid of some of the habits I will never mention, unless I trust you with my life.
• Be smarter
• Do school, and not just sit there for 5 hours doing nothing
• A nice person to everyone
• Don't rage over nothing
• Eat properly
• Have manners
• Have respect
• Lastly, NEVER EVER CHANGE BACK INTO THIS DISGUSTING PERSONALITY WHEN I CHANGED.

When I come back, you will not recognize me. Not my personality, of course.
This is who I want to be. I can't be manly. Besides, I am uncomfortable if I am manly. I don't want to be a boy, but I am biogically. And I think being a boy is disgusting. It is way too disgusting. The toilets are disgustingeing at the toilet because... Well... Male body. I hope I can change one day. And this, is why I am leaving Vizzed. I will summon some peoples.

It all started with this chat. I used a pink font and the pink became my favourite colour. I love this colour. Without realizing, I wanted to become a girl.
NintendoFanKimmy :
Then, you made your ‘Why I hate being a girl’. I saw it a week or two after you made it, I read all of it, and then I replied to it. I wrote everything from me girly, and after finishing comparing, I realized I wanted to be a girl. Then, came the chat.
CatLady :
I was talking about it all night, and then CatLady said ‘Transgender’. I was curious to what it meant and asked her what it meant, but she refused to say what it meant. I was curious and looked it up, but then my iPod fell out of energy. I then went on my pc, and I started chatting again, but 7 hours after CatLady said the word, I found a good source. I read the whole page, and then I was so confused. I thought about it the whole time.
I could not stop talking about it.
Then, it was an idle chat one day. I wanted to talk, I was talking earlier, and everytime I stopped looking, someone comes in, leaves, and then right after they left, I check.
I got so mad... I started raging on chat, and then randomly I said ‘Stop doing that James just be a little cheery gir- wait wut..?’. That is what happened. I said to myself to be a girl. That is when I was confused. Then CatLady came in, and I said that I don't even know anymore. I could not stop to think about transgender. A few weeks later...
Xenthou :
I somehow brung up transgender again, and Xenthou asked CatLady if she could link to Xenthou's thread.
A little bit later that day, at night, I had read her thread and replied to it. It took me 2 hours to type a single post. She replied to my post... ‘If you prefer to identify as female, then you indeed are transgendered.’ Her thread was to me the best source I found. I still was not sure after this, though. I indeed do prefer to identify as female, but that may change. But really? I don't think it will. Yesterday night, I have come to the conclusion that I am transgendered.
If Kimmy never made her thread, I wouldn't be here right now.
Thank you, Kimmy, CatLady and Xenthou for all the help. You have helped me a lot. Thank you so much...
But because I want to change into a better person, I will leave. I will come back, this is temporarily.

I hope I will be able to change into the person I want to be. When I'm back, I'm someone else.
I will leave friday. I will be posting here until friday. I will miss you all...
Welp... I guess this comes to an end of the thread and the story...

Goodbye, fellow friends. I hope that everything will go well on Vizzed when I am not here. Friday... Two more days...

And now, time to change!
~James
(If I don't come back in a year, it means I can not change. I REFUSE to come back if I have not changed!!)

i know we have only known eachother for a short time, but you should do what you feel is right. if your really serious about this, then i think you should go for it. its fun having you around but, vizzed can be a bit of a distraction especially with my homework when your trying to set some short term goals. All i can say is, i hope to see you back here soon! and good luck~

Forgot to summon me . Jms, be yourself. I dislike when people 'changes' their personality (no offense). Instead, improve yourself. There's a huge difference between 'change' and 'improve'. Don't be around people who doesn't respect you. They are the uncool ones here, not you. Don't listen to them, just be yourself and go around people who likes you. You have a sense of humor, and you have the right to be. Be who you are, James. When you come back after the 'change' you'll make, you won't be the funny-weird Jms we'll have on Vizzed. If people are saying things like 'Do a manly laugh.' Or, 'do manly jokes', never listen to them. Just because you'll transgender, it doesn't mean everything will be good. Instead, you must fight against people who disrespect you. Also, you must remember this, the only difference between men and women is their BODIES, and nothing else. I wasn't trying to be offensive during that post, just helping you, bro .

greenluigi :
It's funny how I am changing to become who I want to be, myself. I am gonna try to change to improve myself, Green. It was my decision, no one asked to do this. I mean, you would want to change if you are disgusting, right?
Also, one if the reason I hate being male is because I am uncomfortable in a male body. I don't think the difference between male and female is just their bodies. If it was, everyone would be the same. There is male brains and female brains. My body is not mine. Sounds complicated, though. I meant: my body is not the gender I want to be. The brains are different, males and females think different. Also, no one has ever criticized me if I am being girly. I am always at home, and the only one who has criticized me is my father because I sit like a girl. I then sit better because I don't want to them to notice that I am not the kid who they think I am. At least, not yet. But I am sure of it my father will notice that there is something wrong. Maybe not today, but soon.
By the way, I summoned Kimmy, CatLady and Xenthou because thy helped me. I could summon people, but I prefer not to.
james44028 :
To me, this is very important. I am leaving because if I stay here, I won't change. I only realized that yesterday. I tried to chabge once but Vizzed distracted me and made me lazy once again. Once I am back, I will not be as active as before. Or I will be posting more whilst being less active, if that makes sense. :3

Thank you for your support, though! :3

Sounds like your problems are not even related to gender change.

You just want to be a cleaner individual, which is fine. It's rather offensive that you would suggest that it's disgusting to be a man, or that not having manners, ect is a masculine quality. No wonder you don't want to be a guy if that's what you think. Masturbation? Yep, it's our fault and guys are horrible because everyone participates in it.

Oh, wait, nope, not all guys masturbate. LOL.

Wow James, I never knew this was on your mind so much :|

I see you want to change a lot, and I think that you can change a lot. Not only the genderthings, but also the other things. And yeah, boy toilets are really disgusting, even I think so. Others might as well, but most are too lazy to even aim right when they go to the toilet

If you really feel uncomfortable about being a boy, it could be better to change for you. But I hope that the toilets aren't your only reason
Males and females are different in many ways but also the same, so I hope that you realize what you're about to do and that you won't regret it. I am happy as a boy, but I have no problem with it if people feel uncomfortable about their gender. I hope that you'll be able to change in a good way James, good luck!

Sword legion :
P- hai
Maybe... Maybe not related to gender change, but I just dislike being male. I don't want body hair, I don't want a deep voice... It is just an opinion for being a guy, I just... Dislike it. That's all. And… Masterbation is the most disgusting out of all... Things... Except guys who disrespect females. There is nothing that I hate more than guys that has no respect for females. Basically, I hate a lot of guys. I say that everyone who masterbates has no respect for females.

juuldude :
I thought I forgot to say about the toilets
The toilets aren't mily main reason. Sure, a small part, but really... I have started to feel uncomfortable since two-three months ago. I hope I will be able to change into a better person. A person who doesn't rage quickly...
But thank yoi for your support. I appreciate it.

~James

Wow, James. I really don't know what to say. I'll try to make this post worth the while, though .

First of all, good luck! I wish you the best in everything you do for the months and years to come .

Second of all, the conclusion you've come to, you being transgendered, is cool in its own way.

Do you want to know what isn't cool?

There is an astounding amount of people in this world who will look down on you and mock you for it. They will laugh at you, make fun of you, be unbelievably cruel, and possibly even pity you for it.

Do you know what to do when that happens?

Ignore it. Just be whoever the hell you want to be. I am pro-LGBT for LIFE, including the "T". Everyone, good deeds and misdeeds aside, is equally awesome in their own unique way, and this includes the transgendered. People vary, but EVERYONE is capable of being ANYTHING they want to be.

James, the fact that you're trying to define yourself and become who you feel you really are is amazing. Especially since you're so young. What are you, my age? You're a fantastically bold individual, and I have heaps of respect for you as a result of that. Never let anyone stop you from being whoever or whatever you want to be.

If you feel like you're a girl on the inside, or would prefer to be, then it's no problem. Show it, and simply regard those who get in your way as rocks lying in front of you on the road to your dream. Just like rocks, they get in your way, but they're also unfeeling, at least towards you.

There's something you should know, though.

Some people may think it's "wrong". Don't become upset at them or criticize them too quickly for it, though. I always used to make that mistake!

There is a difference between thinking something wrong and FORCING your ideals onto whatever it is. Some people will undoubtedly believe that being transgendered, for example, is immoral. As for myself, I DON'T find it wrong at all, but I respect people who think so. 

Then, who are the people we should be worrying about?

It's the people who attempt to change you or what you believe to fit their views. THAT, I think, is wrong. I am not God (for those who believe in God, as not all people do, I guess ); I am not the one to judge what is right and what is wrong, but I honestly think it is safe to say that trying to change people because of the way you see life through force or threats is unjust. It truly is.

Live and let live. Some people don't get that.

One of my best friends thinks that being gay is wrong.

If I had learned that earlier? I would have gotten so angry and probably refused to talk to her for a whole day.

Now that I know more, however? No way. She's a little religious, she believes homosexuality is wrong, she thinks gays will be punished in the end, but do you know what she DOESN'T do? She doesn't force people to be "straight". She doesn't tell them it IS wrong. She tells them she THINKS it's wrong. There's a huge difference.

I honestly wish some people wouldn't think certain things are "wrong", but some do, and, hey, I am not of authority to change them. I have no right.

You know what YOU should do?

You should respect their opinions, as long as they let you have YOURS. That's what you should do .

I know I'm diving into what seems to be an unrelated subject, but I'm just trying to prepare you for what I fear you may have to face in the future because of this, and that is intolerance. That's all.

It's almost frightening, actually. Doesn't it seem so? The fact that some people believe some aspect of you is WRONG? Yes, I guess it is. Seems a little hurtful, too, in fact.

You know what I say?

Just because they believe it, it doesn't mean it's true. Just because you believe something, it doesn't mean it's true either. You can think of it this way - none of us know what s*** is, but we all have our own beliefs of what it can be .

Some people think transgendered people are unjust. It's a little unfortunate, I guess, but they're out there. As long as they respect you, however, you should respect them back . If they start to get mean towards you because of who you are, however... that's a different story. It's their loss if they don't see through the cloak of intolerance that hides what you really are - a kind and wonderful person - from their eyes. It really is .

Just be whoever you want to be. If jerks be who they want to be, jerks, then it's their own problem . It's their misfortune. Not yours!

I'm still close as ever with the friend I was mentioning earlier. The one who believes homosexuality, which I used an an example earlier of a commonly shamed thing to be, was unjust, yet doesn't force her beliefs on other people. She still respects gays as she should. And that's why I respect her. In fact, there are SEVERAL friends of mine, including some people on this site who, unlike me, believe that certain things such as being homosexual and/or trangendered are wrong, but I respect them for being docile about it.

So, don't take things the wrong way. If they are intended to be hurtful, however, dodge them. If you fail to do that, then at least get back up. If even that is too difficult, just remember that there will always be people who love and care about you to pull you back up .

One of those people is me, but, as you've said, you aren't going to be on Vizzed until you change and become your ideal self. The only way I can talk to you is through this website. That's okay, though. Just do what makes you feel comfortable . All I ask of you is to always keep in mind that I, along with many other people, of course, will always wish you well and be here for you whenever you need us .

Also, just in case you misunderstood Green's post, just know that he doesn't know this entire situation very well. He means well, though. I know him. I know what he's trying to say . He loves who you are already are, and he misinterpreted "change" . He doesn't know that the kind of change you're trying to go through is improving . He thinks you're going to change your "funny-weird" attitude XD. I don't know about that, but he, just like me, RESPECTS LGBT people. Do NOT get the wrong idea . 

Like he said, don't listen to the people who tell you to be "manly". There really shouldn't be such thing as "manly" or "womanly", as I believe that everyone, both men and women, can be what is considered "manly" and/or "womanly", or however else they wish to be . This is a separate topic, however, that I will only tell you about briefly. 

James, I know you're a very nice person who means well, but PLEASE don't associate the behavior you stated you wished to be in the thread as "girly". It does very well fit the female STEREOTYPE, yes, but it isn't "girly", okay ?

Not all girls are well-mannered .

You said that you would improve your sanitary skills or whatever by "taking baths way more often", brushing your teeth every morning, midday, and night, and that you would "be smarter", "have manners", and "have respect". 

Hey, don't get me wrong. Those are GREAT things to do and be. They REALLY are .

But, James, my friend, you ended your list of good resolutions with "I can't be manly." It's as if you were contrasting that statement with the list of good things you resolved to do...

Not all men lack manners, alright ? Not all of them are dirty, and not all of them are not "smart". Not all men "rage over nothing", and not all of them aren't "nice to everyone". Not to mention the eating properly and whatnot. Please don't confuse males and females with the male and female STEREOTYPES, okay ? 

To quote Green, "the only difference between men and women is their BODIES, and nothing else." Okay? Like I said before, EVERYONE can be ANYTHING they want to be, alright ^^?

And you seem to get that ! You obviously seem to understand that since you're working so hard to become who you feel you really want to and are meant to be despite what other people may think ! Because of that, again, I harbor TONS of pride in you. TONS and TONS and TONS!

All I want you to know is that pink isn't "girly", for example XD. I'm a girl, and I am more "guy-ish" than HALF of the guys in my class, personality-wise XD. It sure makes me fit the male stereotype! It definitely makes me close to how the media portrays males! But does it make me "manly"? No, it doesn't . Some men aren't "guy-ish". 

The point I'm trying to make here is, I'm actually not guy-ish. I just dress in shorts and hoodies. I just act cool. I like to make my voice sound a little deeper than it actually is sometimes. I don't cry easily. My life doesn't revolve around emotions 24/7 like it does with too many female characters. Does that make me manly? NO. It makes me similar to what the MEDIA PORTRAYS as "MANLY." I'm just not like the female stereotype. 

You, on the other hand, have told me that you like dresses, you would like to spend more time doing your hair, and you like the color pink, etcetera, etcetera. However...

Is that truly "girly"? Nope. I'm a girl. Do I strike you as someone who likes dresses and all that? Nope, again XD! But I'm still a girl. 

This puts the definition of "manly" into question, doesn't it ?

Anyway, that aside, everyone is unique, and if you wish to call YOURSELF girly, do so by all means . That's the great thing about freedom - you can make and call yourself whatever you want ! Everything is okay, as long as it doesn't harm other people in any way .

You have lofty goals, James. Pursue them. I admire your bravery and the fact that you had the courage to make a thread a thread about this and tell us. Use the freedom you have to make yourself a better person. If ANYONE tries to take that freedom away, then fight for it. Never forget that we'll always be fighting for it with you, by your side no matter what happens.

Oh, and women have body hair, too XD! Maybe not on the chest, but we DO have body hair XD! We shave it because society, as usual, expects more of us, appearance-wise, than it does from men ... That aside, NO gender is "disgusting" . You may feel uncomfortable being something, but it doesn't mean you can't appreciate other people who are .    

For example, I DESPISE dresses. I hate them with a BURNING passion... on myself, that is . What I actually mean to say is I don't like wearing them. In actuality, I adore it when other people wear dresses. I find them very attractive indeed . I don't mean it "in that way", as I'm straight, but that doesn't matter. Point is, just because I don't like wearing dresses, it doesn't mean I hate people who do .

Just because you don't like being male... it doesn't mean you hate people who are male, right ?

I've just reread your thread again to make sure whether my reply was still valid, and you said that you were a gender you "Hate to be", not "Hate"... That's good . I just felt like stressing the difference anyway in case you ever forget by mistake, which is really important XD!

Anyway, to cut everything short (assuming 2000 words is "short"), be you, or more like, become you . As long whoever "you" are isn't a person who denies the rights of others, I will always love you .

I don't give a sweet rat's a** about whether you're "polite", "sloppy", a "he" or a "she", but you'll always be James (possible name change?) - No. You'll always be my friend . That's for sure. That's all that's important, as long as you're respectful .

Best wishes, James, and good luck with EVERYTHING! Never stop being the strong person I'm proud to be friends with today ! You're fantastic, and you should acknowledge that!

- Yasmine

NintendoFanKimmy, out!~

EDIT: P.S.

There IS such thing as women who disrespect men, too, by the way XP. Ha ha.

Again, best of luck, James!

NintendoFanKimmy, out, again!~

NintendoFanKimmy :

This post though... Ahem. *Enables auto caps on iPod*

So many emotions! O-O
Too start off, let me start off with the end of your post.
I will always try to resprct girls, even if they disrespect men. I don't want to disrespect females... So yeah.

MY DOG JUMPED IN MY... Ouch... She then lies down and looks at me... So cute!

Back to the beginning of the post.

You said you really don't know what to say but yet, it is over 2K words long!
I mean, I scroll to see the last post, I am there, I scroll and scroll and scroll and scroll... It kept going! I was surprised and I have read through all of it.

I appreciate your effort to write such a long post.
For what I can say, uhh... My head hurts XD
But next year, the school I am going in, there is only 10-20 peoples there and they all support each other. Well... Except one tries to be perfect and flames others when they are doing it wrong. Flaming isn't perfect... But he doesn't like, bully, so yeah. But I kinda have to disagree with anyone being capable of being anything... I can't become a frog and when someone kisses the frog I become a princess! I once asked Frodlex to kiss me because I'm a frog... xP Frod Frog...
Ahem. I don't think anyone is capable of being anything, unless someone makes an thing to make it sonthat you can instantly change in the person they want to be, but I could see that easily abused. But it is how I look at it so yeah... This is gonna take me ages to respond o-o
I really don't know what to say...
Hmm...
I should say thank you...
Thank you for your support. I really appreciate it. :3

Also, every now and then I will check the site out to see if there is anything on the notification thing... I should check Vizzed out often... I keep getting random guests referals! And I also have two hacks so I need to check the site at least once every week whilst trying to not get distracted. :3
And that's all I can say. Can't think of anything else...
Meh.
~James

Hey JMS I know I haven't seen or spoken to you in ages but saw this post and I can see you are having a tough time right now.
I can understand why you think some of the things you do but other things I don't understand at all. to try and help you with as much will go through as many reasons as I think I can give an exploitation too. but first want to ask you if your feeling like you are a transgender is down to changes from child to adult. it is a challenging time of life yes and expect more changes to happen soon. with regards to your father was rushing because you had an appointment he might not of wanted to be late and thought he was protecting you when the people said you looked like a cute girl then whilst driving you home the story you heard on the radio didn't seem to bother maybe he was trying to concentrate on the road to avoid a crash. if you are not going to be more open about your feelings with your parents there is little they can do to try and understand you.
but if you are being raised where your father has very bad hygiene hardly bathing and never brushing his teeth and your mother is bathing daily and brushing her teeth three times a day doesn't mean all men are as bad as your father and that all women are as clean as your mother.
I don't get why you feel the need to change your whole personality you are who you choose to be. Men and women should all have respect for each other and be polite and I don't think there is anything for you to gain only a lifetime of misery and self conflict. things like finding going to the toilet disgusting is just nature and now matter how you feel inside can't  change that. Masturbation is not only done by men but women also do it and all they even make toys for women to use as to it being disrespectful I guess that is up to your point of view on the subject. I think it is a good idea for you to get out a bit more so you can see the diversities and similarities between not just gender but individuals.things staying up late past your bedtime to play your 3DS whilst not a good idea but again both men and women can do it. eating properly is again up to you and  not down to your gender women also get body hair but a lot of them prefer to shave or wax it off don't let anyone tell you blue is for boys and pink is for girls and what you perceive as being manly and girly a lot of old lies from the past please don't change who you are because you feel you have too in order to live your life the way the way your told women should live it rather try and experience life by doing what you said and getting out there I think you will truly find out if you think you are a transgender or not peace and good luck 

Sword legion : "No wonder you don't want to be a guy if that's what you think. Masturbation? Yep, it's our fault and guys are horrible because everyone participates in it."
TheJmsGamer :   "I say that everyone who masterbates has no respect for females. "

You two both realize that girls masturbate? So do females have no respect for females? If you want to change genders you might want to know that. Also, many girls do masturbate...

mourinhosgum :

No kidding.

Sword legion : Judging from what i quoted  and what i've read, you did not know that they did... Also, dont play the "i was being sarcastic" card, as you can't tell sarcasm through a post

mourinhosgum :

Totally.

Quote by Coffee on April 14 2014

i think sarcasm is a lost art
our ancestors forged this art with their blood and tears, to pass on to its new generation
but we had other plans
as some ascended and gained the elders' powers and knowledge, others were stuck to the bottom of the pile and forgotten
these beings would be christened
the "twelve-year-olds"





*ignore words in post plz*

Sword legion : Nice spam m8

I'm going to go ahead and close this thread.

It devolved and derailed.



You can still PM or profile comment Jms, but that's mostly for supportive comments.

If you're looking for discussion and/or a debate, create a debate thread in the debate forum.