If I don't do this, I'm more likely to take a long time to feel better, so here I go.

My life has been a little crappy lately. I've still been my usual self on Vizzed because Vizzed typically helps me feel a lot better. This time, I know it's going to take a lot to make me feel better if I don't talk about what has happened in the past 2 weeks, maybe even if I do.

I haven't seen any of my real life friends for the past 4 weeks. All 5 of them have been busy. It has been a very long time since I had gone that long without seeing any of my real life friends, and I don't have much to do at home besides what I'm getting tired of doing a lot (even being very active on Vizzed!), so it's pretty hard for me to deal with.

One of them returned to his house yesterday so his family could find a stray dog a home at a shelter, and then I asked him via text if he's staying home or going back to where he had just been camping. A few hours later, he told me that he's back at the campsite. That made me cry inside.

Another one of my friends told me that her friend from a few states away is at her house and wants to meet me. We tried to make that happen yesterday and today. Both times, something came up. Almost every time I try to have a hangout with her, something comes up. I'm never mad at anyone about it, I'm always just mad and sad. She made it obvious to me that she too gets sad when that happens.

One of my former best friends apparently hasn't been able to talk to me much. He keeps apologizing and acting as if he cares a lot about us being able to talk and hang out (which he probably does). It seems that he can barely find any time to talk to me. I think it's because he has 200+ other friends and he's usually busy. I've been busy lately, and I can still find plenty of time to talk to all of my friends. For a few months, I stopped trying to talk to him. He didn't say anything until he realized that he forgot to say happy birthday to me. He said that I'm his best friend. It will take a lot for me to believe that because he talks to his other friends all the time and never talks to me unless I talk to him first or he's talking to me just to wish me a happy birthday and/or apologize.

One of my dogs was acting strange for over a week. I think she and my other dog got in an argument because she kept hiding, being sad, being mad, and staying away from him. A few days ago, she returned to normal.

My mom is driving me crazy, as she has been for a few months. I doubt that problem is ever going to be solved until my brother changes drastically.

I don't think I'll be completely normal until I see one of my real life friends. I'll be somewhat normal if I get to talk to any of my Vizzed friends, I think.

Edit: I feel a little bit better.

A better rant.
My ex girlfriend is always annoyed with me. And all of our conversations suck.
My ex boyfriend moved across the state and left me no contact info.
I haven't seen any of my friends in two months.
I have barley any friends to even see.
My parents have annoyed me to the point where I plan to run away in the next week.
All my pets have died.
The only chance I had to see any of my friends I had to do s*** for my parents.
For end past 2 months every moment I haven't been crying I've stopped crying to cause pain to myself.
You have it easy.

Everyone everywhere is dealing with problems everyday.
Some guy in Israel just lost a child in a senseless war.
A child in Africa is dying of starvation at this very moment.
Somewhere a homeless person is going to sleep under a bridge tonight.
It goes on and on.

I understand the need to rant - it helps me to feel better when I do it too. Pac, the bottom line is that this too shall pass. In 6 months you won't even remember making this thread. In 6 years life will be so different, it'll be hard to even relate to what 14 year old Pac was like. Hang in there man, and keep doing your best.

Barathemos : This isn't a contest, this is a fellow Vizzed family member that reached out to us for comfort. Yes, you got problems the same as all of us and what I said to Pac applies to you too but remember to be compassionate as well.

thephantombrain : by showing him what other problems people have, it makes his problem seem worse, and basically should make him feel better. Plus, ranting made me feel a lot better

PAC, there are always hard ships, they get better.

Barathemos : I knew that I have it easy and that you have it really hard. I saw your "Relationships Suck" thread. I sometimes feel as if I barely have any friends to see either, besides the ones on Vizzed. My friends on Vizzed are really great, but I'd rather have my real life friends because 3 of them have been my friends for a very long time and the other 2 are my best friends that I know I will also have for a very long time. I hope you know that you're lucky to have any friends. It probably makes barely or no difference, but still. 3 of my pets have died: a dog I had literally my whole life up until September 2010, a bunny I had most of my life until sometime not recently this year, and a dog that was only 2 years old when she got sick and died a few days later. I know that I don't know how you feel, but I do understand what you're going through. Are your parents annoying you intentionally? Mine are, all day, every day unless guests are at my house. I would've said something similar to you to what thephantombrain said to you but I couldn't say it without sounding mad or selfish.

thephantombrain : Usually bad stuff passes quickly after good stuff happens for me so I'm not worried about my thoughts of it sticking in my mind. Actually, in 6 months I will remember making this thread because I have a strong memory for things like this. I've known for many years that my life will be so different in the future, and I'm not looking forward to it because I like my life like it is now: usually balanced with good and bad things, me being pretty independent, and my parents taking care of me when it's necessary. I know I'll hang in there and keep doing my best. If I didn't do my best by going to Vizzed so I can cheer up, I'd still be really sad and mad and I would've not been able to stop thinking negatively for a while. Thank you for understanding.

PacmanandMariofan : yes, they are annoying me intentionally and they know it.
I have 2 friends.
I have to wait till school starts to talk to them, Ik how hard it is. One of my pets was killed by a coyote
And if you sound mad or selfish, I'm used to getting hate from people,don't worry, speak your mind.

It sounds like a case of dealing with the teenager life. It's alright, bro. Things will get better when school starts back up. If you ever need somebody to talk to, just hit me up with a PM, or see if I am in chat, alright?

I can't say that I have had long periods where everything sucked like you have but all I can say is that it's a period. Sometimes life will disappoint you and will give you a challenge that you need to overcome. There was a period that I was bored of everything and I was so tired that I lost the mood to do something. When I went on vacation that was gone though. So sometimes it's just a simple thing that can change your mood. I think that once you have been to your friends you will feel a lot better. Don't worry, sadness is a part of puberty

Barathemos : It sometimes feels as if I have 3 real life friends because the other 2 are so busy and don't talk to me much anymore, but, like I said, I have 5. One of the friends that doesn't talk to me much anymore will go to my school next year, as he did since 1st grade. When he sits near me in a class of mine, I get to talk to him without problems (unless the teacher is talking), which can't happen in any other situation. So I have to wait at the earliest until school starts to have a decent conversation with him. Finally I know I'm in a situation very similar to one of yours. One of your pets was killed by a coyote?! Dang! I saw your trust point rollercoaster in the few months that it took place so I knew that you're used to getting hate from people.

thing1 : At the end of next month, I start my first year of high school, so heck yeah things will get better then! Yep, it is a case of dealing with the teenager life. I've had to deal with a lot more crap as a teenager than any other time in my life that I can remember. It's not a bad thing because it helped me build a lot more character. It practically started killing me at one point but it isn't a bad thing.

juuldude : I had a few periods in my life where I was bored of everything and I lost the mood to do something because I was so tired.

I'm feeling much better now. Not back to normal yet, of course. There are a few more days this week (or the rest of the week) that my girl friend's (notice I put a space because we're just friends) friend is in my state so I should be back to normal sometime this week.

PacmanandMariofan : yeah, it's really hard getting to talk to your friends, because they either have things to do, or just don't want to talk. I can't talk to my friends during school, I don't have classes with them. And yes, one of my cats got out and the next day was found dead about a mile away. Life isn't always easy, and I wish you the best.