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I think I understand everything now... all of it.

 

06-04-14 06:17 PM
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I guess the time of truth finally showed up, in a simple detail, but if I were to express myself, they would say I am saying bulls*** or I have a "bird mind", so I'll express myself here, after all, I been telling all of you who have been really patient and read how my life is going, even if there is nothing you can do directly.
Anyway, if you read my previous thread, you may recall I have figured out what was wrong with me.

But now, I feel I finally found out WHY I am like this, why I was like this my entire life, you already know a part of what happens to me, so feel free to explain everything correctly, if in case my way of thinking turns out to be wrong, it may be wrong, but this is what I feel, I don't really have this kind of help personally, so I have no choice but throw my chances out there.

In short, I feel like the cause of me being like this is my mother, since I was a little child, I never really got that close to my mother, since I was a little kid, I could never get close to her like I should do (probably).

A while ago, I figured out that my mother is only worried about herself, she only talks about herself, or worry about things that have something to do with her, she never have time for me, she likes to critic me all the time and when I go critic her she simply doesn't want to listen and tells me to shut up, she offends me out of nowhere when I am trying to calmly talk to her, and when I try to express what I feel, she says that I am acting like a "victim", she simply doesn't listen to me, and hardly even care, she only look for me to ask for something, when she needs something, my father been acting like this, but at least he rewards me when he can by giving me some money, but not my mother, if I don't do what she wants, when she wants, I am a evil guy. She never said I was a good guy, only a bad guy, she puts the blame of everything that happens here on me, she blamed me that her relationship with my father is s***ty because of me, basically she puts the blame of everything on me, and she even told me to f*** myself or today when I asked her where to throw away the blanket, she told me to put it on my ass.

So when she said this, I had some kind of flashback, I reminded that when I was a kid, everything I tried to do she said it was badly done, she never gave the support I wanted from her in so much time, she only made bad comments of me during my childhood, always bringing me down and treating me like I was some kind of slave, I got into depression because of her, I almost killed myself because she said I was a weight in her life, and until today, I could never go through with the many projects I wanted to do in my life, because I my subconscious always told me without me knowing "You won't make it" because it probably got permanently printed into my mind that I can't do anything right.

Recently on school we had to make a paper cut of our sizes, and we had to decorate it in any way we wanted to, and I wanted to help my group, but when I was trying to align the paper to the line, I never got it right, something simple I would take a long time to do it and also badly made, my group partner could make it in a matter of seconds (with a little help) and this thing that I can't do things right came back to my head again.

But there is something I can clearly and proudly say I am capable to do: Have ideas, I unfortunately can't turn them into reality without help or without someone doing it for me, but I can have great ideas, and I can give you a simple example using this case.
My mother told me to throw the blanket (the blanket have a soft thing inside which is completely loose, and I did not do it, because the one on my own blanket is in it's place, the old blanket belonged to my brother) on the other side of the street, that someone would pick it up, but when I reached the garage, where my dogs stay, I looked inside the good dog's house and thought: I don't need to throw this away, I can use this to make her house more comfortable, after all, she is a good dog, so she wouldn't cause too many problems with it, and so I placed the blanket inside, so when she feels cold, she can go inside and lay on the nice blanket.

To resume everything, now I officially hate my mother, I don't want to stay close to her anymore, and hardly want to look at her face anymore, if she says I have nothing to gain doing this, I also have nothing to lose, she never really pays any attention to me at all, and to give you an idea of how much I hate her, I see her crying sometimes after having a bad discussion (me and her), and simply the feeling of regret does not come to me (note that outside of this case, when I do something bad, or a bad mistake, I always feel regretful for the mistake), I see her crying and I only want more.

There were MANY times I tried to understand her and do everything she wanted, but she still treats me like the kid I was in a long time ago, for me, her mind is paralysed on the past, she looks at me as if I am some kind of demon or the kid I was in the past, she never gave me a chance or anything, when I discussing something with her, she interrupts me, and when she is talking and I interrupt her she doesn't let me talk.

You know what? I want her to f*** herself now, even if she died in front of me, I would hardly feel any regret, I am tired of trying to please her and she never understand that I am trying so satiate her ego. I don't want to care about her anymore, and I won't give a f*** to whatever she says from now on, and now I will only do the things she asks when it have something that involves my father, if someone deserves the kudos here, my father gets the whole pot.

If I am what I am, I put all the blame on my mother, and now I hate her for that.

For you to have no doubts about what I am saying (and I'm being honest!), every place she goes to work, she ALWAYS have problem with the other workers, ALWAYS, people always make a fool of her or treats her like trash, trust me, in all the places she went to work, she always left or changed jobs because of wanting everything in HER way, or like I mentioned before, to satiate her f***ing ego, trust me.

EDIT: I forgot to mention that from now on, I will follow my friends advise: Leave her talking, someday she will realize what she done. And that's exactly what I am going to do, from now on I will ignore her more often
I guess the time of truth finally showed up, in a simple detail, but if I were to express myself, they would say I am saying bulls*** or I have a "bird mind", so I'll express myself here, after all, I been telling all of you who have been really patient and read how my life is going, even if there is nothing you can do directly.
Anyway, if you read my previous thread, you may recall I have figured out what was wrong with me.

But now, I feel I finally found out WHY I am like this, why I was like this my entire life, you already know a part of what happens to me, so feel free to explain everything correctly, if in case my way of thinking turns out to be wrong, it may be wrong, but this is what I feel, I don't really have this kind of help personally, so I have no choice but throw my chances out there.

In short, I feel like the cause of me being like this is my mother, since I was a little child, I never really got that close to my mother, since I was a little kid, I could never get close to her like I should do (probably).

A while ago, I figured out that my mother is only worried about herself, she only talks about herself, or worry about things that have something to do with her, she never have time for me, she likes to critic me all the time and when I go critic her she simply doesn't want to listen and tells me to shut up, she offends me out of nowhere when I am trying to calmly talk to her, and when I try to express what I feel, she says that I am acting like a "victim", she simply doesn't listen to me, and hardly even care, she only look for me to ask for something, when she needs something, my father been acting like this, but at least he rewards me when he can by giving me some money, but not my mother, if I don't do what she wants, when she wants, I am a evil guy. She never said I was a good guy, only a bad guy, she puts the blame of everything that happens here on me, she blamed me that her relationship with my father is s***ty because of me, basically she puts the blame of everything on me, and she even told me to f*** myself or today when I asked her where to throw away the blanket, she told me to put it on my ass.

So when she said this, I had some kind of flashback, I reminded that when I was a kid, everything I tried to do she said it was badly done, she never gave the support I wanted from her in so much time, she only made bad comments of me during my childhood, always bringing me down and treating me like I was some kind of slave, I got into depression because of her, I almost killed myself because she said I was a weight in her life, and until today, I could never go through with the many projects I wanted to do in my life, because I my subconscious always told me without me knowing "You won't make it" because it probably got permanently printed into my mind that I can't do anything right.

Recently on school we had to make a paper cut of our sizes, and we had to decorate it in any way we wanted to, and I wanted to help my group, but when I was trying to align the paper to the line, I never got it right, something simple I would take a long time to do it and also badly made, my group partner could make it in a matter of seconds (with a little help) and this thing that I can't do things right came back to my head again.

But there is something I can clearly and proudly say I am capable to do: Have ideas, I unfortunately can't turn them into reality without help or without someone doing it for me, but I can have great ideas, and I can give you a simple example using this case.
My mother told me to throw the blanket (the blanket have a soft thing inside which is completely loose, and I did not do it, because the one on my own blanket is in it's place, the old blanket belonged to my brother) on the other side of the street, that someone would pick it up, but when I reached the garage, where my dogs stay, I looked inside the good dog's house and thought: I don't need to throw this away, I can use this to make her house more comfortable, after all, she is a good dog, so she wouldn't cause too many problems with it, and so I placed the blanket inside, so when she feels cold, she can go inside and lay on the nice blanket.

To resume everything, now I officially hate my mother, I don't want to stay close to her anymore, and hardly want to look at her face anymore, if she says I have nothing to gain doing this, I also have nothing to lose, she never really pays any attention to me at all, and to give you an idea of how much I hate her, I see her crying sometimes after having a bad discussion (me and her), and simply the feeling of regret does not come to me (note that outside of this case, when I do something bad, or a bad mistake, I always feel regretful for the mistake), I see her crying and I only want more.

There were MANY times I tried to understand her and do everything she wanted, but she still treats me like the kid I was in a long time ago, for me, her mind is paralysed on the past, she looks at me as if I am some kind of demon or the kid I was in the past, she never gave me a chance or anything, when I discussing something with her, she interrupts me, and when she is talking and I interrupt her she doesn't let me talk.

You know what? I want her to f*** herself now, even if she died in front of me, I would hardly feel any regret, I am tired of trying to please her and she never understand that I am trying so satiate her ego. I don't want to care about her anymore, and I won't give a f*** to whatever she says from now on, and now I will only do the things she asks when it have something that involves my father, if someone deserves the kudos here, my father gets the whole pot.

If I am what I am, I put all the blame on my mother, and now I hate her for that.

For you to have no doubts about what I am saying (and I'm being honest!), every place she goes to work, she ALWAYS have problem with the other workers, ALWAYS, people always make a fool of her or treats her like trash, trust me, in all the places she went to work, she always left or changed jobs because of wanting everything in HER way, or like I mentioned before, to satiate her f***ing ego, trust me.

EDIT: I forgot to mention that from now on, I will follow my friends advise: Leave her talking, someday she will realize what she done. And that's exactly what I am going to do, from now on I will ignore her more often
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Seishiro Leonhart : Damn Leo, after reading his whole thing I really do feel bad for you. No mother should ever treat their kid like that, that is just too horrible and sad. I'm sorry she had to treat you like that all your life. I just feel really frustrated now cause I really don't understand why she could act like that towards you that is just completely UNFORGIVABLE. If this had happened to me I would eventually stop caring for my mother, I would give up hope that she even cares about me or even loves me. At least you have a father that cares about you. Again I am really sorry to hear this Leo. With this realization that she was the cause of how you came to be you can now or continue to change yourself for the better. Don't let your mother's words linger in your mind. You are better than she is don't sink down to her level. Be your own person and never have disbelief in yourself.
Seishiro Leonhart : Damn Leo, after reading his whole thing I really do feel bad for you. No mother should ever treat their kid like that, that is just too horrible and sad. I'm sorry she had to treat you like that all your life. I just feel really frustrated now cause I really don't understand why she could act like that towards you that is just completely UNFORGIVABLE. If this had happened to me I would eventually stop caring for my mother, I would give up hope that she even cares about me or even loves me. At least you have a father that cares about you. Again I am really sorry to hear this Leo. With this realization that she was the cause of how you came to be you can now or continue to change yourself for the better. Don't let your mother's words linger in your mind. You are better than she is don't sink down to her level. Be your own person and never have disbelief in yourself.
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I can somehow relate I guess, it seems that my parents seem to focus more on the bad more than the good things that I do, rather than congratulate me on all of the As on my report cars they focus on the one B or lower grade. I can't help but feel that I am never good enough sometimes, and I always beat myself up for it, I always think that I could've done better and that I should've tried harder...even though my life isn't perfect though, I am fortunate to have 2 parents that love each other and my life isn't as bad as what other people have to put up with.

About your mother, she shouldn't be putting the blame on you. Just know that none of this is your fault, you didn't ask to  be brought into this world and it was their decision to have a child, and if they didn't make their decision careful enough and think it all the way through, then it is entirely their fault. Nonetheless, I think that some time away or to just ignore your mother would be best...assuming you haven't already brought this to her attention and had a serious conversation with this to her about this. I hope your life gets better, and always remember that this isn't your fault....
I can somehow relate I guess, it seems that my parents seem to focus more on the bad more than the good things that I do, rather than congratulate me on all of the As on my report cars they focus on the one B or lower grade. I can't help but feel that I am never good enough sometimes, and I always beat myself up for it, I always think that I could've done better and that I should've tried harder...even though my life isn't perfect though, I am fortunate to have 2 parents that love each other and my life isn't as bad as what other people have to put up with.

About your mother, she shouldn't be putting the blame on you. Just know that none of this is your fault, you didn't ask to  be brought into this world and it was their decision to have a child, and if they didn't make their decision careful enough and think it all the way through, then it is entirely their fault. Nonetheless, I think that some time away or to just ignore your mother would be best...assuming you haven't already brought this to her attention and had a serious conversation with this to her about this. I hope your life gets better, and always remember that this isn't your fault....
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Quite the diatribe. I could use this to describe my relationship with my mother (toned down of course, because our relationship isn't as bad as this one), but I can sympathize with you. Having a mother who's constantly critical of EVERYTHING you do and constantly nagging about your imperfections and s*** like that can be ridiculously frustrating. I can't say some of the things that you said, because she is my mother, and I do love her. She just pisses me off 95% of the time she talks to me. That's one of the main reasons I can't wait to go off to college. I won't have to deal with it anymore.

As for your situation, I concur with cnw. Mothers may have flaws, but they really shouldn't do the kind of things that could permanently ruin a child's development mentally and emotionally, especially when it comes to family relationships. I'm not saying that you are 100% correct, because witnessing your mother die right in front of you and feeling nothing is a little bit extreme...a lot of bit extreme, but I can understand why you would feel the way you do.

Sorry about the ordeals that you've faced so far. I know that you probably detest your mother to the point of no return, but I don't think it's a good ideas to hate her so much that she can die without you feeling anything. She did bring you into the world after all. You'll move out eventually, I'm sure, so until then, just bear it. I do recommend ignoring at times though. Speaking from personal experience, there have been times where my mom refuses to stop talking about sonething and I just want to tell shut up to her. Better to ignore. I know I don't sound like the most sympathetic guy out there, but I wish you the best of luck and hope that you always remember that there's a light at the end of the tunnel.
Quite the diatribe. I could use this to describe my relationship with my mother (toned down of course, because our relationship isn't as bad as this one), but I can sympathize with you. Having a mother who's constantly critical of EVERYTHING you do and constantly nagging about your imperfections and s*** like that can be ridiculously frustrating. I can't say some of the things that you said, because she is my mother, and I do love her. She just pisses me off 95% of the time she talks to me. That's one of the main reasons I can't wait to go off to college. I won't have to deal with it anymore.

As for your situation, I concur with cnw. Mothers may have flaws, but they really shouldn't do the kind of things that could permanently ruin a child's development mentally and emotionally, especially when it comes to family relationships. I'm not saying that you are 100% correct, because witnessing your mother die right in front of you and feeling nothing is a little bit extreme...a lot of bit extreme, but I can understand why you would feel the way you do.

Sorry about the ordeals that you've faced so far. I know that you probably detest your mother to the point of no return, but I don't think it's a good ideas to hate her so much that she can die without you feeling anything. She did bring you into the world after all. You'll move out eventually, I'm sure, so until then, just bear it. I do recommend ignoring at times though. Speaking from personal experience, there have been times where my mom refuses to stop talking about sonething and I just want to tell shut up to her. Better to ignore. I know I don't sound like the most sympathetic guy out there, but I wish you the best of luck and hope that you always remember that there's a light at the end of the tunnel.
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I cannot thank you 2 enough for your posts.

Today, everything occurred at the right time, I found out the root for all of this at the right time with a very simple things, I posted my thread at the right time, and you 2 posted at the right time.

I feel like I managed to finally open my father's eyes, I finally hit the bullseye, I showed my father what was happening, why that everything happens.

I had figured out what was happening, but writing this thread, helped me put my thoughts in order, and just in time, my father came in completely angry at me, and asked the question I waited a long time to answer:

"Why are you like this? Why all of this?"

Today I feel like I have won a very tough battle, and finally made the first step to a change in my family life. I am 100% sure this war I am living is not over yet, but today, after wanting for so long to be able to help my family, I have finally realized my wish, and managed to put a start toward our true happiness.

Vizzed community: I wish all of you a huge thanks, I DID NOT meet this site on occasion, and I feel the real battle is yet to come and maybe, all of Vizzed community will participate on this battle with me, even if indirectly.

Now I keep wondering, what God have in store for all of us? What are his plans? That answer no human being on Earth can tell us, but one thing we can be sure: Whatever God got in store for us, it's going to be the best, something that will be exclusively directed at us, and we will be the first one to "open the box", which contains our gift granted by God.

EDIT: Editting this post as MMM sent his post while I was typing my post.

megamanmaniac: I am glad to know that someone understand how I feel, and one thing I have to admit, is that when I am seriously angry, I tend to get out of control (and cause quite the damage in the process), but you can be sure of one thing: I won't hate my mother forever, when I am seriously angry, I do tend to say a lot of bad things, but when I calm down, I try to put everything in it's place, obviously I wouldn't remain unchanged if my mother were to die, I tend to say bad things because it's something from the moment, it's something that you say, but you end of regretting later, currently I am really mad at my mother, yes, true, currently I hardly feel like directing a word to her, true, but I can't be THAT evil, I say so many bad things when I am angry, but that's because at the moment of anger, I feel I can do as I please, but in the end, I would end up apologizing for everything I did or said.

I really thank you for your post too.

(Note: I did expect for the MMM summon to fail)
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I cannot thank you 2 enough for your posts.

Today, everything occurred at the right time, I found out the root for all of this at the right time with a very simple things, I posted my thread at the right time, and you 2 posted at the right time.

I feel like I managed to finally open my father's eyes, I finally hit the bullseye, I showed my father what was happening, why that everything happens.

I had figured out what was happening, but writing this thread, helped me put my thoughts in order, and just in time, my father came in completely angry at me, and asked the question I waited a long time to answer:

"Why are you like this? Why all of this?"

Today I feel like I have won a very tough battle, and finally made the first step to a change in my family life. I am 100% sure this war I am living is not over yet, but today, after wanting for so long to be able to help my family, I have finally realized my wish, and managed to put a start toward our true happiness.

Vizzed community: I wish all of you a huge thanks, I DID NOT meet this site on occasion, and I feel the real battle is yet to come and maybe, all of Vizzed community will participate on this battle with me, even if indirectly.

Now I keep wondering, what God have in store for all of us? What are his plans? That answer no human being on Earth can tell us, but one thing we can be sure: Whatever God got in store for us, it's going to be the best, something that will be exclusively directed at us, and we will be the first one to "open the box", which contains our gift granted by God.

EDIT: Editting this post as MMM sent his post while I was typing my post.

megamanmaniac: I am glad to know that someone understand how I feel, and one thing I have to admit, is that when I am seriously angry, I tend to get out of control (and cause quite the damage in the process), but you can be sure of one thing: I won't hate my mother forever, when I am seriously angry, I do tend to say a lot of bad things, but when I calm down, I try to put everything in it's place, obviously I wouldn't remain unchanged if my mother were to die, I tend to say bad things because it's something from the moment, it's something that you say, but you end of regretting later, currently I am really mad at my mother, yes, true, currently I hardly feel like directing a word to her, true, but I can't be THAT evil, I say so many bad things when I am angry, but that's because at the moment of anger, I feel I can do as I please, but in the end, I would end up apologizing for everything I did or said.

I really thank you for your post too.

(Note: I did expect for the MMM summon to fail)
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Seishiro Leonhart :

I think that we all feel that way about our moms sometimes, thankfully, it goes away often.

I can't judge your situation entirely cause I'm not there, but it seems taken care of, at this point. I just remember that my parents are feeding me, paying for my water, electricity, et cetera, so, pretty much no matter what they do or how unfair, (it seems) they are, it's always worth putting up with.

Actually, I struggled with the same thing that you did.

I do roofing for work, but, as some people know here on vizzed, I'm a more creative guy. The Star Fox RPg is just one example, I even made my own Zelda 1 mod. But whenever I work, my mind wanders all over the place. You have the same problem? Or similar one if I understand correctly?
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I think that we all feel that way about our moms sometimes, thankfully, it goes away often.

I can't judge your situation entirely cause I'm not there, but it seems taken care of, at this point. I just remember that my parents are feeding me, paying for my water, electricity, et cetera, so, pretty much no matter what they do or how unfair, (it seems) they are, it's always worth putting up with.

Actually, I struggled with the same thing that you did.

I do roofing for work, but, as some people know here on vizzed, I'm a more creative guy. The Star Fox RPg is just one example, I even made my own Zelda 1 mod. But whenever I work, my mind wanders all over the place. You have the same problem? Or similar one if I understand correctly?
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I'm not really sure to say if your making a good decision. but you really shouldn't do what your mother does. Ignore her, so be it, but don't put all the blame on her. In reality, your acting exactly like your mother in that perspective. It's okay to ignore her if she's, you know, being an arse, but I don't think you should hate her for everything. Maybe everything she does to you, but not everything.

But that's just me. Do what you please.
I'm not really sure to say if your making a good decision. but you really shouldn't do what your mother does. Ignore her, so be it, but don't put all the blame on her. In reality, your acting exactly like your mother in that perspective. It's okay to ignore her if she's, you know, being an arse, but I don't think you should hate her for everything. Maybe everything she does to you, but not everything.

But that's just me. Do what you please.
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My young dragon has finally come out of his hole. Though it may had been hard for you, you have now seen that path which you struggled to see for a long time....I remember you telling me at least half of it, as I always worried about you not being on vizzed. seishiro like I said you deserve much better than she does. As you can see shes not being the motherly role type, so just leave her alone. I am so happy that you are able to finally see to what the problem was. Don't go trying to please someone if they treat you nothing but dirt. I'll give you more advice and support you, when you need it my friend. Remember be strong and to fight that fight. You will have a great future of what you want to do. And who you want to be in life. I now don't have to worry so much over this, as I know what your motives are. Let your mother do what she wants. Its her own fault for doing things wrongly. And not doing her job as your mother. Though she won't care don't let this pull you down. Focus on where you are headed right now future wise. And do what you can to make yourself happy. At times there are mothers out there, who abuse the best gift that ever walked the planet, or be born of it. Which is their own child. Like I said before, you have a whole bunch of people on vizzed who loves you a lot. That's for those who know you. I love you a lot my friend and you are gifted, you just need to find that talent to show. I'll keep on looking out for you everyday and when needed, so that you are happy. ^-^

I may not be the motherly type that you are looking for. But, I will do my best to see that all of my friends are doing ok in real life. This must had been hard to say on a thread right? That's ok, for the best is still yet to come my young dragon. ^-^
My young dragon has finally come out of his hole. Though it may had been hard for you, you have now seen that path which you struggled to see for a long time....I remember you telling me at least half of it, as I always worried about you not being on vizzed. seishiro like I said you deserve much better than she does. As you can see shes not being the motherly role type, so just leave her alone. I am so happy that you are able to finally see to what the problem was. Don't go trying to please someone if they treat you nothing but dirt. I'll give you more advice and support you, when you need it my friend. Remember be strong and to fight that fight. You will have a great future of what you want to do. And who you want to be in life. I now don't have to worry so much over this, as I know what your motives are. Let your mother do what she wants. Its her own fault for doing things wrongly. And not doing her job as your mother. Though she won't care don't let this pull you down. Focus on where you are headed right now future wise. And do what you can to make yourself happy. At times there are mothers out there, who abuse the best gift that ever walked the planet, or be born of it. Which is their own child. Like I said before, you have a whole bunch of people on vizzed who loves you a lot. That's for those who know you. I love you a lot my friend and you are gifted, you just need to find that talent to show. I'll keep on looking out for you everyday and when needed, so that you are happy. ^-^

I may not be the motherly type that you are looking for. But, I will do my best to see that all of my friends are doing ok in real life. This must had been hard to say on a thread right? That's ok, for the best is still yet to come my young dragon. ^-^
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Wow. That is tough to deal with!

I'm glad you are really facing your problem.

Remember Mr. Leonhart, if you focus what your problem, on how much you hate your mom, on what she's down to you, you will never progress in your life. Focus on what YOU can do with your life, not what other people are doing to it.

Be the one who acts positively, not who is acted upon negatively.

Wow. That is tough to deal with!

I'm glad you are really facing your problem.

Remember Mr. Leonhart, if you focus what your problem, on how much you hate your mom, on what she's down to you, you will never progress in your life. Focus on what YOU can do with your life, not what other people are doing to it.

Be the one who acts positively, not who is acted upon negatively.

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You have my sympathy and support, Seis. I know what it's like to be in a bad situation as a child (if I detailed my life, I think people would cry). It leaves quite a lasting impression... so it's good to see that you're stepping above it!
You have my sympathy and support, Seis. I know what it's like to be in a bad situation as a child (if I detailed my life, I think people would cry). It leaves quite a lasting impression... so it's good to see that you're stepping above it!
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Seishiro Leonhart : I don't know you so well but your relationship with your mom sure sounds tough. I wish you the best for the future and I hope you will be able to settle things later with your mom, I can never imagine how my life would be if my mom were like that.
Seishiro Leonhart : I don't know you so well but your relationship with your mom sure sounds tough. I wish you the best for the future and I hope you will be able to settle things later with your mom, I can never imagine how my life would be if my mom were like that.
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I'm sorry, Seishiro. That's a really awful situation to be in. 

I've been living in a complicated situation for a long time now (though I'm not going to go into detail here), and my parents do anger me quite a bit, quite often, but it's never been quite as bad as what you're dealing with.

I've never been particularly good at communicating with people, so I'm sorry I don't have a lot to say. All I can say is, don't look behind, look forward. Deal with it the best you can for the time being, and as soon as you can go out on your own, focus on your future rather than your past. You have my support, as much as I can give, anyway, and I hope your situation gets better soon.
I'm sorry, Seishiro. That's a really awful situation to be in. 

I've been living in a complicated situation for a long time now (though I'm not going to go into detail here), and my parents do anger me quite a bit, quite often, but it's never been quite as bad as what you're dealing with.

I've never been particularly good at communicating with people, so I'm sorry I don't have a lot to say. All I can say is, don't look behind, look forward. Deal with it the best you can for the time being, and as soon as you can go out on your own, focus on your future rather than your past. You have my support, as much as I can give, anyway, and I hope your situation gets better soon.
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