Dear grandma and grandpa Miyashiro,
I have some things I feel like I never atoned for when you were both alive. I don't really know how you both felt about me being gay. I don't know why I admitted it to you. I know that during your time it was hard to be gay. Mom explained it like you were just concerned I would have a hard life. And I understand that. I know it's different from living in your time but I've watched enough things to know what kinds of things happened to those who were found out to be gay or who came out. I hope you are happy for me now that your both in happier places. Or at least I hope you both are happy now and proud of me to an extent. Im having a hard time now but it's not because I'm gay but it's because of the choices I've made in life. Partially to do with my sexuality but mostly because of mental problems I never fully addressed growing up.

Towards the end of both of your lives, I was not a good grandson. I don't know if it was because I was being lazy or if it was because of the illness inside of me. That I regret fully and I don't know if I will fully come to terms with it. I couldn't take care of you both fully at the end. I feel that our ancestors saw that and maybe they are punishing me because they saw these things before hand. I hope you see that I am trying to fix myself and atone for things I have done so far in life.

I don't know much about your lives, what you accomplished, or about your regrets. I didn't try to know more about you and I wish I had. I could have learned what it was like to be a picture bride matchup. What it was like playing sanshin music back in Okinawa at the bars. I heard that you were popular at the places you played at grandpa. What it was like to work the sugarcane fields.

Was life hard for you both? To go to war against your brother USA vs Japan? What was your brother like? I'm glad that your sister forgot that she was mad at you grandpa. That is probably not the way you wanted her to forgive you but I heard that she was a stubborn lady. She may not have ever forgiven you had it not been for the dementia. I wish that she could have forgiven you before she forgot.

I hope that you are both at peace.

Love,
Your grandson
Cameron