I have turned off my layout, because I wanted to type this from the bottom of my heart regarding my recent life events that has taken place within the past 5 years, not just in the world of Vizzed, but off the site, such as DeviantArt, my Streaming channel, and even real life taking a huge toll on me recently.

You know, for like the past 5 years, ever since my huge meltdown back on September 21st, 2015, I haven't really ever gotten back on my feet, and whenever I have tried to get back, it seems like it gets
worse. Like it seems like I'm in like a curse or something, a dark storm hovering over my head that's been growing stronger each time I tried to get rid of it, and it's soon going to grow into a devistating
Catagory 5 hurricane which would lead to catastrophic disaster to my entire life, and it's not even related to Vizzed, but affected DeviantArt as well as real life, it seems like I basically have lost everything
personally, like any kind of support from anyone really, and it's not just popularity, but tragic events that has been transfired in real life, such as having 5 love ones in my family passing away in just a span of
4 years (Grandfather (Dad's Dad) in 2016, Grandmother (Mom's Mom) followed by my own Mother in 2017, my other Grandmother (Dad's Mom) in 2018, and my Cousin in 2019 (from a car accident),
my depression got so bad, I actually almost took my own life in 2017 (just after my Mother's death), until my brother stopped me and told me that "Suicide isn't the answer", so, if it wasn't for my Brother,
I wouldn't be alive today, even after my suicide attempt, I tried to find some way to find at least some kind of happiness again and seems like every time I have an opportunity to gain some happiness,
I fail to do so, and makes me even more misrable, like I'm stuck in an "infinity loop of misery".

Lucklly, I got a message from a good online friend of mine just recently (like about a week ago prior this post), who I've been friends with since 2006, and I even met with him in real life a couple of times
in our 14-year history of our online friendship, and he has really pointed out of my huge flaws that was the reason why I have been losing support each and every day in the past 5 years to basically
non-existance support, and why I haven't regain the peak that I once had between 2008-2013.

This is what he exactly told me word by word: "Look, I have been friends with you for 14 years, and personally, I missed the old, classic 2008-2013 IB, not whatever the hell you're trying to be right now.
I missed The IB who was more charismatic and everything, but right now, no offense, you lost all your charisma, you're making things about yourself and only yourself, and you are not who you were 7-12
years ago, you need to do something to bring back that classic 2008-2013 IB, in fact, some of the rules you made on my site, if I remember, you went completely against on that one website you go to, and
it's just sickening to me, and even sickening to your old self as well, and in fact, to be honest, your old self would of got furious at your current self right now, I'm sorry that I'm being a little harsh on you,
but it's the truth."

He contenued "Look, if I were you, I would go back to 2006. I know, it's physically impossible because time travel doesn't exist... yet, but look back in your vision on what you did in 2006 when you first
joined my website, and see on what got me impressed with you and your actions lead me to promote you to Local, Global, Admin, and evenually, my 2nd-in-Command, and gaining thousands of followers,
if you don't remember, let me bring you up to speed, when you joined, you didn't care on what position of power you were, you joined to be purely yourself and didn't hide behind a mask or a gimmick, and
show common interest with everyone, and that's why a lot of people look up to you, eventually, you gain a whole lot of popularity and everyone respected you, and that's great, and if your mindset goes back
to 2006 on that site you go to, then maybe, just maybe you might gain the same popularity that you once had, and then you will be where you once were when I closed my site down (which I regret to this day),
Just be a little patient with regaining your popularity, it might take time, just don't force it, if it takes a year, or two, or more, then so be it. I got a lot of faith in you IB, I think you can do it."

I think that whole pep-talk from him basically has slap-woke me up and realized the flaws I had in the past 5 years, that's maybe on why I need to change my ways, and maybe focus away from using any
"gimmicks" & "masks" to be someone I'm not, and use my natural instint to get back on my feet again, which means, I'm going to drop the whole "Demon Bird" gimmick, which means, no more cabbages,
no more gibberish, and use IBisms a lot less frequent, go back to my roots, go back to my natural self again, go back to whom I once was. Maybe, just maybe if I go back before any of these disasters took
place, I might not be depressed anymore and I might actually feel a lot more confidence with myself. Worth a shot.


My name is IgorBird, and it's time bring back the classics and fly into the future.

Welcome back man.

Not going to lie, it's always been kind of hard for me to get to know you well due to the whole IB stunt you had going on. Looking forward to getting to know the real you, thanks for sharing your story : )

Furret : Yeah, I wasn't thinking about the whole thing until my old friend, the same person if you look at it, he is like Davideo7 of his website and I was like the tRUINE of his website, and we known each other for like I said, 14 years.

I think with his words of wisdom he gave me really opened me up a whole lot, and maybe if I go back to whom I once was, maybe I can get back on where I used to me, instead of going a wrong path that I've been taking in the past 5 years.

Hey Igor, I know we haven't really known each other for long, but I'd like to think I've at least tried to give you some support in your actions over the last month. I didn't really have a huge issue with your mannerisms, but I can agree here on some level. It's pertinent that you put the website and users first over yourself if you want to get anywhere. Grabbing power just because you're capable isn't the best path to go on.

My advice to you is that everything takes time, even repairing your own identity, so show everyone the other side of you bit by bit, and you may get what you're looking for.

I don't believe getting people to like you more will fix your depression. Over the last five years, my father died, my grandfather died, one of my uncles died, my other grandparents have been doing badly, one of my favorite dogs is near the end, and someone I lived with and dated for nearly five years straight up ditched me. Getting people to like me didn't really help cope with all that stuff. But what you can do, is if you find people you can open up to, you can form a personal support group. Just remember to listen to their problems as well, every conversation should be two sided.

I have faith in you as well, you always seemed interesting when I saw you around, and that hasn't necessarily changed.

P.S Help me create consistent activity on this site by posting more threads after TDV, that'll earn you a lot of respect from me.

I'm happy for you! coming out with things like this and talking about it isn't usually very easy for basically anyone so I'm proud of you for being able to do so.

Going back to what you once were is impossible. You've naturally changed over time due to the experiences in your life, and as such you will not be 100% the person you were back then even if you wanted to. From my own experience, that's a hidden meaning I see to the expression your friend used, "time travel doesn't exist".

You've been shaped by both the good and bad experiences you've gone through during all those years. Thus, you can now take the best of your current self and adapt it into your past self. Only then will you truly be yourself.

I must say that, for some time now, I was worried about all the ego you were boasting. You didn't do this at all times, which worried me even more, specially in times when the chance of getting power stood before you. I was also worried about how tied you were to the past, how much you talked about 2015 without being able to let it go and turn the page. You even stated you had turned the page mid 2019, yet apparently the memories resurfaced again later on.

I didn't lose faith in you, because like I said, you weren't always like this. For some months, you showed to be able, at least by chatting, to have moved on. I sincerely hoped you would one day truly move on and accept the wrongs in your ways.

And here we are. You're now showing us your resolve to change. You've showed me I wasn't wrong with you, and that my patience has paid off. And you've made all of that in public, including opening yourself up like never before and sharing painful stories you didn't tell to many people.

You have my respect and support, man. I hope you can accomplish this endeavor, no matter how much time it takes. And even if I'm not very active in Discord, I'm always there if you want to drop a message to somebody.

EX Palen : I know it's really impossible to go back to be physically whom I 100% once was. But I still can be able to find way to at least get back to at least that level that I once had, and sure, I might not have the same popularity and support that I had like a decade ago, but that doesn't mean that my career isn't over.

Like I was told, to get back to the level to where I once was, I just look back on how I became a well-known, household name, respected by thousands, bring that life back again, and not trying to force people to try and support me, just take my time, and slowly let people support my lifestyle, even like my buddy said, "if it takes a year, or two, or more, then so be it", a lot has faith in me to get back to my peak again.

Plus, no matter on what direction that I lead with Vizzed, and whatever happens in the future of myself on Vizzed, as long as I accomplish my goals, then I am happy again, and I'm not going to let this curse keep dragging me down and preventing me from accomplishing my goals, and if I pay attention away from that curse that I've been in, then it will naturally go away, it might be a slow process, but once that curse goes away, that is when I can finally accomplish my goals.

I think on just first letting this out is the first step to getting rid of this curse, and if I keep going on the site and not focusing on the curse and have patience, things will be looking up very positively for me.

Hey man, not sure if you remember me but I believe you were one of my first friends on this site along with SacredShadow. I'm glad to see that you're back and I am back as well. Hopefully we will get this site popping again like it once was 7 years ago!