(Warning Long Thread)
Hi there Vizzed community. I can't believe its been a year since my last post, but I thought I make a thread of what has been going on with my life. If you read the description, that's right! I finally have a job, and this is the best thing to happen to me so far, because I achieved my main goal. While getting a job may not be a big deal for some, for me it is. I have never been this happy in my life since my heart transplant surgery in 2003. That means I can donate to Vizzed. I don't know how to do that yet, but I will learn someday. I also wanted to make this thread to tell you what 2017 has been so far. Before I got my first job, 2017 has become the most depressing year of my life. Why? Well, I've still been questioning why I am disabled. I also started to give up on getting a job, because I just didn't know what I can do. I couldn't sleep almost all March and April. My depression was so bad that I started to have thoughts of giving up, writing a farewell thread to Vizzed and hang myself with the belt I use. My SSI (Supplemental Security Income) discontinued on me because they think I'm not "disabled" enough. I don't get why the hell not. They want me, and so does my mother, to see a psychologist because of my depression and signs of suicide, which the appointment is next week as of this thread. My depression has been going on and off but since I got my first job, it "stopped" for now, thank god it did. I guess a good highlight of 2017 so far is that recently my Aunt and brother have got into contact with my dad, and from what I heard I has been sad for him. It's sort of a long story to begin with but I've heard he's been clean from doing drugs for a while now. He's been wanting to get into contact with me and I am wanting to also. But the problem is I don't know what I should do. It has been years and I don't know what I should say. Today my aunt came over to talk to me about what has been going on with him. It was sort of a long conversation. She told me when my other aunt that passed away, I believe around 2004 or 03, he overdosed on heroin and died "three times". The major surprise for me is she told me when I was sick in the hospital ( this is also a long story), He supposedly "sold his soul to Satan" for me to get better. This was a major shock for me and I just wanted to ask him... Why? But I guess my Aunt, this Christmas is planning to send plane tickets to California, (because he lives in Missouri) for me, my brother, and maybe my sister (if she wants to) come see him. I hope it happens because it has been a long time I've seen my dad. This thread got a bit personal, but I just wanted to write what has been going on with my life. I, myself have been doing just fine. And I guess could say that I'm back at Vizzed!
(Warning Long Thread)
Hi there Vizzed community. I can't believe its been a year since my last post, but I thought I make a thread of what has been going on with my life. If you read the description, that's right! I finally have a job, and this is the best thing to happen to me so far, because I achieved my main goal. While getting a job may not be a big deal for some, for me it is. I have never been this happy in my life since my heart transplant surgery in 2003. That means I can donate to Vizzed. I don't know how to do that yet, but I will learn someday. I also wanted to make this thread to tell you what 2017 has been so far. Before I got my first job, 2017 has become the most depressing year of my life. Why? Well, I've still been questioning why I am disabled. I also started to give up on getting a job, because I just didn't know what I can do. I couldn't sleep almost all March and April. My depression was so bad that I started to have thoughts of giving up, writing a farewell thread to Vizzed and hang myself with the belt I use. My SSI (Supplemental Security Income) discontinued on me because they think I'm not "disabled" enough. I don't get why the hell not. They want me, and so does my mother, to see a psychologist because of my depression and signs of suicide, which the appointment is next week as of this thread. My depression has been going on and off but since I got my first job, it "stopped" for now, thank god it did. I guess a good highlight of 2017 so far is that recently my Aunt and brother have got into contact with my dad, and from what I heard I has been sad for him. It's sort of a long story to begin with but I've heard he's been clean from doing drugs for a while now. He's been wanting to get into contact with me and I am wanting to also. But the problem is I don't know what I should do. It has been years and I don't know what I should say. Today my aunt came over to talk to me about what has been going on with him. It was sort of a long conversation. She told me when my other aunt that passed away, I believe around 2004 or 03, he overdosed on heroin and died "three times". The major surprise for me is she told me when I was sick in the hospital ( this is also a long story), He supposedly "sold his soul to Satan" for me to get better. This was a major shock for me and I just wanted to ask him... Why? But I guess my Aunt, this Christmas is planning to send plane tickets to California, (because he lives in Missouri) for me, my brother, and maybe my sister (if she wants to) come see him. I hope it happens because it has been a long time I've seen my dad. This thread got a bit personal, but I just wanted to write what has been going on with my life. I, myself have been doing just fine. And I guess could say that I'm back at Vizzed!