We aren't all flawless. As humans, we're bound to make foolish mistakes which haunt us constantly, or wish we did things differently. While this is subjective, I'd say my whole life revolved around making terrible mistakes. I never tried making new friends, I scared others with my demeanor, I got mediocre grades, I never utilized my academic options, I didn't try getting a job.... it all contributed to my sorrow. Perhaps if we share our failures, we can learn how to deal with them and come back stronger.

What's your biggest failure and why? What did you learn from it?

My greatest failure is when I was terminated at shool and had to quit. I was helpless then.

I guess never to try and stand up for myself more. Or to try and make new friends because of how I was bullied and stuff. I've come to learn not everyone where you live are like really horrible. You have to find those people to have as your friend. Sure its not easy and all but you would have to keep on trying if you would want something like that....and I gave up because I saw no sense in trying thinking that all people are the same horrible. There are times I partly blame myself for not doing what I should have. Like I would imagine now if I would had done those things. Or how many friends I would have and all and have places to go with them. I've dreamt that before, but only caught the fear side because of as I said I got mistreated badly, because of how I was born differently to people. Life is what you make of it. Not what you soak up sadness with it. I am now trying to change that, I hope its not too late for me. As someone can always say its never too late to try something you wanted to do long ago in the past.

Realizing I haven't even turned 17 and still have a lot of my life ahead of me there have been a few mistakes I've made that have haunted me.

First there is my performance academically. Before entering high school I was always the top performer in my class and often labelled as "the nerd". Which was something I didn't really mind since I saw that as recognition of my academic skill. I usually finished whatever work we were given during a lesson long before the others. I was given extra assignments resulting in me being far ahead of the others in many subjects. Especially math which I'd skipped a grade in.

However I was quite heavily bullied in 6th grade and that caused me to switch schools before starting 7th. Around this time I ended up having a math teacher who didn't seem to recognize/believe me when I said I was a year ahead in math. She ended up giving me a just above passing grade in math that year. Being given such an average grade in a subject I'd been excelling at ever since first entering grade school caused me to simply stop trying thinking it was futile. Thus leading me on a path starting to underperform which grade wise meant I went from top of the class to someone that was simply average or slightly above average. This isn't a regret I have as much anymore considering this is something I eventually managed to improve on. I got new teachers and in particular I had a social studies teacher which seemed to acknowledge my academic skill in a way no other teacher did sparking my interest in the subject. This year I have probably received my best grades since middle school. However my procrastination habit is still very apparent and often leads to situations where I end up regretting not putting more effort into something and still not quite meeting my full potential in a few subjects and leading to a lot of sleepless school nights. So I'm not entirely rid of it.

Secondly, there's something I don't really care about that much anymore but that plagued me throughout much of middle school and early high school. Not being more forward or bold basically. I made a lot of great friends during early middle school which I regret not trying to preserve contact with when switching schools especially since that could've helped prevent my scale into depression. More than anything though it especially applied towards the people I had a crush on.

I was a pretty quiet guy around people I didn't know and I was extremely shy around those I had crush on. On top of this I suffered from low self esteem in part due to me being pretty short compared to most guys my age due to entering puberty later than most. Which often lead me to thinking I didn't have a chance with many girls even in a few cases where I might've. It also didn't help that the very few times I had taken a chance it had ended in rejection. 

On to the story. There was one particular girl which I had a crush on in 5th grade which really started to develop in 6th grade when we all had to switch schools and we ended up going to the same one. This was around the time I started to become heavily bullied leading into me becoming depressed and my self esteem hitting a new low. I managed to become somewhat friendly with her but thinking of course I never stood a chance I never let on how I truly felt about her. I remember often having sort of a recurring inner struggle where I'd have nights that I constantly debated finally telling her how I felt and almost doing at a few points. In the end my own cowardice and insecurity always won over me though.

Looking back at it, there's probably a good chance that even if I told her nothing would've come out of it. Even if she was friendly towards me that probably didn't translate into her having feelings for me. Still that tiny possibility and not knowing plagued me which ended up in me confessing my feelings in 8th grade over facebook nearly two years after that happened. You can probably imagine how that ended especially with her already having a boyfriend at that point. I still wish I would've told her back then before the last semester ended. Not necessarily because it would've helped my chances but that way if I was rejected I could've left it behind me much earlier and more easily. In stead I was plagued by that tiny possibility for years after that.

My greatest failure was getting into the habit if skipping classes and small projects when I went to college. Because of that, I failed to graduate on time, I had to spend a ton of money and effort catching up, I lost a job I was interviewing for because I didn't have a completed degree and my wife was so angry with me she ignored me for a week or two after she found out I wasn't on pace.

It was terrible.

I learned so many lessons from it and I'm glad I went through the mortifying experience because now I attack and pursue things that need to be achieved. I know what happens when I don't get things done.

I can't say it enough. It was terrible to not go through school and finish on time.

Anime


Eh, I would say my biggest mistake is thinking too little of myself, or not studying enough in school to where not everything I learned stuck with me. Never having an idea of what I wanted to do when I got older was also a mistake too.

To be brutally honest, My greatest failure was being born. Just not doing my homework 'till the day before it was due (I'm gonna do better at it this year) and also Letting my bedroom get as messy as it is.

I wish I had found out my calling ("rant" against big government and stifling regulations) 10 years earlier. I basically wasted that time thinking I could be a journalist. I was for about 2 years, but my bosses gave me so little feedback (positive or negative) that when I tried for more serious papers they made me realize I was not made for the job.