Note, I am not doing this for attention, I'm not doing this for trust points, or likes/dislikes, or anything, and I wanted to post this before TdV so I'm not doing this just for TdV. I just want to say this from my heart about why I started the whole entire IB/IB122 gimmick. I have also removed my layout so you can see this without problem.

Eniitan : I already told you this on PMs, but I figure I summon you this to

My life isn't all about rainbows and unicorns. My life has been terrible. My family is extremely dysfunctional, and they all basically leave me in the dark and don't want to care about my life nor my dreams, they all don't want me to be myself. I had no friends because my family treated me like a prisoner. I was never cared about in school like I get bullied and my grades were low and I had to fend on myself because everyone else wanted to push me aside and pretend I don't exist.

For the first time ever, I'm going to just come out and say this, when I was born, I had a little birth defect where I get over-sensitive over everything, and with this over-sensitivity, people has taken a lot of advantages over this like I mentioned above. The worse of these issues didn't start until 2004 when I started getting a series of depressions that is still going on to today. By the looks of things, 2015 could turn out the worse year of my life since 2004.

In July 2010, I wanted to start a brand new era with my life to try and attempt to end this depression series, I have dubbed this new era "The IB/IB122 era" and the first place I started the new IB-era was DeviantART and a few days later, I started it on NewGrounds. It has worked for a little while until I started having sighs of falling apart on DA in mid 2011 and went on NG for a little while, but after I recovered on DeviantART in early 2012, I started having issues on NewGrounds when 2012 went on by and then after discovering 8bbit in late 2012, I left NewGrounds, before I got a chance to join 8bbit, I seen Vizzed and sign up on here, and been here since.

Fast forward to early 2015, I started having issues with someone on another website and since that moment, I have not recovered and I am on a crashing course towards Rock Bottom, but I wanted to get back into control by burying the hatchet by working out our difference, and while I have been doing this, I wanted to improve my life, but going with the same gimmick you have been doing for 5 years, it's tough to change yourself, especially when you try to be someone your not.

Mostly, I want to try and make an impact and say that I have been here, that is why I wanted to be somebody, and if I wanted to be somebody, I have to be myself, I don't want to be someone I'm not. Some thinks I have an ego problem, some finds me annoying. The thing is that it's hard to be someone you're not after being someone you are.

Since the February 2015's breakdown, I have not been the same when it comes to me on anything, that is why I am doing what I did above. These issues can caused me to loose interests in a lot of things such as drawing and playing Minecraft (that is why I retired from the Server)

All my life, I wanted to be a really funny guy and I like to be myself, but how I have been treated, this is physically impossible. Note, most of the whole IB122 gimmick I do is related to cabbages, and I have to tell you the truth, I don't like cabbages in real life, it was a meme created by another user on here.

I think with me burying the hatchet with the issue I had with that one user on the other site and try to improve myself, I think my life can head into the right track. Maybe I need to start a brand new approach after I settle that issue with that one issue, maybe see if that works out

IB... I completely get why you do that. I'm also emotionally unstable in a way like you. I have bipolar disorder and that's why I've been demoted from staff and even moderator due to inactivity and so on, not because I lost interest in the site, but because I was incapacitated. I agree that you should be just yourself from now on... Be IB, but the IB you truly are. I'm myself on here, and that does get me somewhere around here, I think.

My family used to be extremely dysfunctional too, abusive even, but after a series of events that completely changed our lives, we've been doing well. I really hope you can see me as someone you can talk to for advice or something, because believe it or not, I've been through it too.

Good luck, my dear IB, and go forth on the new journey you've embarked.

Dude, if you keep looking at the bad stuff, then things might not get better, even if you try. What you need to do is keep ahold of all the good things that have happened, no matter how small they are because when something bad happens, you will always be able to think back to the good memories and move on with strength. And sometimes fixing things can make things worse, you can't go around expecting every little thing to be good, because if you do, then when something bad does happen, it will have more of a negative effect on you.

Being sad sucks. I'm depressed right now and it doesn't even have anything to do with me.

Thanks for summoning me. I've already told you my part Igor, so I don't need to say much here. You are one of the best guy I have come across as a friend. You try so hard at something, and you do gain good from that something. Just continue the be the best that you can be because we all have your back.

I could say so much here. I could tell you how to be happy, I could tell you how to best handle the "being who you are" thing, I could give you all sorts of advice...and some of it might be correct, and some of it might not be. But truth be told, I've never been in your spot exactly, so I'm not sure how relevant anything I could say would be. Besides, you're cluing us in on things, not seeking advice. And so, just let me say that while I may not have been the most supportive user here for you personally (and I'm not that for most people here, it just isn't possible, nor do I try to be. Things like that just make themselves happen), I am praying for you, and you do matter. I support anyone who is being their true self, and I applaud you for trying that as well. If by some off chance I can truly help, let me know, man.

Life is rarely about rainbows and unicorns, my experience says. I can get a glimpse of how you feel about not being yourself. I've also had to develop my true self from nothingness after my family didn't allow me to be myself (for different reasons, though). I was also never cared about in school, but at least I had decent grades, and that made the situation a bit easier.

I've also had a change of what I was and what I am, but I don't want to rant about that in your thread. I understand how you want to get rid of the past but you can't, and I understand how you found shelter in the Internet just as I did. I also used activities outside school to develop my true self, like the +10 years I spent taking tennis classes. I have more friends because of those classes than because of school, to be honest.

You have an iron will, Igor. I believe you can achieve everything you aim for so don't give up on yourself because we won't give up on you. We need you around here, and we will do anything necessary to help you be here too.

On a side note, I must go back to Newgrounds. Never had an account there, it was mostly the Madness series that had me visiting that website sporadically, but now I have another reason to pay that site a visit.

Now I understand everything...

I'm so sorry to hear about all this. I'm thankful that you got this off your chest since I love helping people out through their hardships. I've had a lot of horrible experiences with getting bullied and trying to be someone I'm not.

I think starting a new approach/ having a fresh start on things is a good plan for your life after all you've been through. If there's anything I can do to help, let me know.

I'll be praying and hoping for the best for your life.

A wise commercial once said "Be who you wanna be". That was a Barbie commercial. But I think that slogan is an important one. I struggle with being myself, because I am a very loyal person. I always end up trying to please everybody at once, and at least find a median that satisfies what everybody wants or expects from me. I can't really help it because I get excessively depressed and frustrated when I mess up or fail. In a way it's good because it helps me strive to be the best friend or relative I can be. But it's also dangerous, because hastily trying to fix a mistake can just make the situation worse. I lost one of my best friends in the whole world, because I hurt her and kept trying to make it all better instead of just being patient and praying. What caused me to hurt her was because my parent had an ugly perception of her and tried to convince me that it was right. I doubted my trust in her, and it all went down hill from there. We were friends for years, and I managed to destroy it in a single day. And she threatened to call the police if I even text her again so I am afraid to do that. So yeah. Basically, don't take sides or listen to others' perceptions unless you can verify it as truth, and believe in yourself/be yourself no matter what people do or say to discourage you.

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TheBWoods15 : That was back in the day Barbie did commercials and stuff....I remember seeing that slogan when I was a young girl at the time still watching tv and stuff. Also I really loved your post its encouraging.