As you can tell, dumb old Boxia has finally returned from the bowels of........wherever. I've been meaning to get the following info off of my chest, as well as give you people some heads up. Since I never bothered to edit my one year thread, consider this to be fulfilling that ones purpose.
I was diagnosed with ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder) at three. My social skills were utterly undeveloped and I cared far more for an episode of Blue's Clue's than chatting with the kid next to me. In grade school I was never popular. Whenever someone talked to me it was to get something high up (I was always tall) or to belittle me (which the more precocious children did regularly). My solace was always video games.
It wasn't until I was eleven that I finally "grew up".
I understood what these people were doing to me, and that I had to make something of myself, before I spiralled too deep into the imminent depression. I established myself as a person, as a human being. Slogging through the rest of middle school I so desperately searched for the full picture, which I knew I had yet to see. In 2011 I discovered an amazing site called Vizzed. And then everything changed.
My "game" here was posting awful reviews now and then for two years, until I got caught plagiarising and retreated in shame. Never will I return, I thought. Wrong. Next month, a catastrophic power outage sent most of the city into darkness. In the hotel where my family stayed I realised my errors, my misjudgments. Once the lights came back on I signed up under a new name - Boxia.
In the early months I built up a name and met some great friends, and truly I felt like I was in a steady place for the first time in.......ever! That is, until I did something EXTREMELY stupid and got myself suspended. Even after my return never did I regain the full pride and creativity I once held. After an incident over a Mafia game I really started to feel like garbage - worthless. After a final game of Civ V with Play and others (which I immaturely departed from early), a great absence began.
All the while, as high school began, I increased my online presence. Posting regularly to Instagram, Snapchat, and Ask.fm, I started talking to more and more people who truly, genuinely respected me. Once I left Vizzed I embarked on a "crusade" of posting like mad. My grades suffered noticeably. It wasn't until late January that I finally started seeing the whole picture at last.
After a flight to Miami inflicted MAJOR jet lag I started looking at life through another lens. I stopped posting to IG and SC and disposed of Ask, realizing how awful it was. It was the beginning of an "epiphany month".
Every day at school as I walked down the hall and chatted with so many who greet me I understood that these people like me for who I am, not my facade. I had spent so much time on how many likes online (even Vizzed) that I ignored the stuff that really mattered. Getting my act together and improving my marks, I was still too scared to return to a site I figured was full of folks wanting to immolate me. So what brought me back?
Another power outage.
Yup. This one lasted for exactly 15 minutes, but was enough to send a message to me. That Vizzed was where I belonged, and I needed to get back.
Now with my creativity fully restored and my confidence at a maximum, I am back.......for good. No more in and out stuff (at least I hope).
Before I get back to business I want to give thanks to all of you. Even the trollers and the flamers. You guys are what defined my experience here, and you guys are what keep me caring and interested.
P.S. thing1: Sorry about the misleading FB post :/
As you can tell, dumb old Boxia has finally returned from the bowels of........wherever. I've been meaning to get the following info off of my chest, as well as give you people some heads up. Since I never bothered to edit my one year thread, consider this to be fulfilling that ones purpose.
I was diagnosed with ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder) at three. My social skills were utterly undeveloped and I cared far more for an episode of Blue's Clue's than chatting with the kid next to me. In grade school I was never popular. Whenever someone talked to me it was to get something high up (I was always tall) or to belittle me (which the more precocious children did regularly). My solace was always video games.
It wasn't until I was eleven that I finally "grew up".
I understood what these people were doing to me, and that I had to make something of myself, before I spiralled too deep into the imminent depression. I established myself as a person, as a human being. Slogging through the rest of middle school I so desperately searched for the full picture, which I knew I had yet to see. In 2011 I discovered an amazing site called Vizzed. And then everything changed.
My "game" here was posting awful reviews now and then for two years, until I got caught plagiarising and retreated in shame. Never will I return, I thought. Wrong. Next month, a catastrophic power outage sent most of the city into darkness. In the hotel where my family stayed I realised my errors, my misjudgments. Once the lights came back on I signed up under a new name - Boxia.
In the early months I built up a name and met some great friends, and truly I felt like I was in a steady place for the first time in.......ever! That is, until I did something EXTREMELY stupid and got myself suspended. Even after my return never did I regain the full pride and creativity I once held. After an incident over a Mafia game I really started to feel like garbage - worthless. After a final game of Civ V with Play and others (which I immaturely departed from early), a great absence began.
All the while, as high school began, I increased my online presence. Posting regularly to Instagram, Snapchat, and Ask.fm, I started talking to more and more people who truly, genuinely respected me. Once I left Vizzed I embarked on a "crusade" of posting like mad. My grades suffered noticeably. It wasn't until late January that I finally started seeing the whole picture at last.
After a flight to Miami inflicted MAJOR jet lag I started looking at life through another lens. I stopped posting to IG and SC and disposed of Ask, realizing how awful it was. It was the beginning of an "epiphany month".
Every day at school as I walked down the hall and chatted with so many who greet me I understood that these people like me for who I am, not my facade. I had spent so much time on how many likes online (even Vizzed) that I ignored the stuff that really mattered. Getting my act together and improving my marks, I was still too scared to return to a site I figured was full of folks wanting to immolate me. So what brought me back?
Another power outage.
Yup. This one lasted for exactly 15 minutes, but was enough to send a message to me. That Vizzed was where I belonged, and I needed to get back.
Now with my creativity fully restored and my confidence at a maximum, I am back.......for good. No more in and out stuff (at least I hope).
Before I get back to business I want to give thanks to all of you. Even the trollers and the flamers. You guys are what defined my experience here, and you guys are what keep me caring and interested.
P.S. thing1: Sorry about the misleading FB post :/ 
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