Remove Ad, Sign Up
Remove Ad, Sign Up
Register to Remove Ad
Register to Remove Ad
Register to Remove Ad
Register to Remove Ad
  Register  |  Login
Play Retro  |  Shop  |  Board  |  Downloads  |  Users  |  Music  |  Video Games
Staff  |  About  |  Help  
  Views: 1,959,794,442
12-09-16 01:13 PM  
On Page:
In Directory: 2 users & 27 guests
Page Staff: Furret, m0ssb3rg935,
Retro Game Room
Play 10,000s of Retro Games Online
Video Game Room
Get Any Information for All Games
Video Game Music Room
Listen to Video Game Music Online
Vizzed Market
Buy & Sell Games, Codes and More!
Vizzed Board
Our Family-Friendly Community Welcomes Everyone!
Sign Up for Free
For access to more features, more games and fewer ads
Announcements
Happy 12 Year Anniversary & 2016 Vizzed Awards
Announcements
Vizzed Competitions = Earn Viz and Steam Games
Announcements
PlayStation Netplay Stream = Tuesday from 4 - 8 (CST)
Announcements
Sega CD Music Stream ON Monday from 5-9 PM (CST) = $300 Steam Raffles!
Announcements
Black Friday = 2X Viz for Donations + 25% Off Vizzed Market

Forum Links

Life,
This "Hell" I was talking about.
I won't hide it anymore.
Related Threads
Coming Soon

Thread Information

Views
1,622
Replies
23
Rating
0
Status
CLOSED
Thread
Creator
The Planned Acc..
08-06-11 10:24 PM
Last
Post
geeogree
08-07-11 10:45 PM

Thread Actions

Thread Closed




Add to favorites

Page Posts: 50

Pages
1 2
 

This "Hell" I was talking about.

 

08-06-11 10:24 PM
The Planned Accident is Offline
Link | 241 Words

Level: 49


POSTS: 49/704
POST EXP: 38999
LVL EXP: 829651
CP: 2118.5
VIZ: 26397

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
Okay... This is really hard for me to tell the entire Vizzed community... But... The "Hell" I mentioned back in "My Soulmate"? Here's exactly what I was talking about.
I have gone through two pregnancies, one of them not being mine. I've gone through lying. I have gone through a really mean stepfather over the years. He calls me names. I have gone through my girlfriend cheating on me. I've gone through having her say she hated me multiple times. I have gone through depression. I have gone through losing two kids I loved dearly. (Even the one that wasn't mine, Believe it or not.) I have been bullied all my life, I got people who want to kill me for being with my soulmate, I practically don't have a father anymore. My girlfriend gets suicidal sometimes. She has multiple personalities. I've gone through loneliness, failure, and not being able to find love. Until I met my soulmate. Believe it or not... While all this was going on, I stayed with my soulmate... I stayed because I was desperate and I loved her to death. I'm obsessed with her. She's apologized for all of the stuff she's done a million times and I forgave her. But... I can never forget any of the stuff that's happened to me.. I still have nightmares... I just want to move on with my soulmate so we can live together in harmony and happiness.

--James
Trusted Member


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 07-16-11
Location: I don't know.
Last Post: 374 days
Last Active: 7 days

08-06-11 10:28 PM
Marcmoney is Offline
Link | 32 Words

Marcmoney
Level: 78


POSTS: 626/2079
POST EXP: 170407
LVL EXP: 4379993
CP: 9958.0
VIZ: 132459

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
Daaamn, that is hell. That's terrible.  I have no idea what to say about this, it is the worst thing I have ever heard about for a person to experience.
Vizzed Elite
3rd Place in September 2011 VCS!
3rd Place in October 2011 VCS!
2nd Place in November 2011 VCS!


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 02-04-11
Location: Texas
Last Post: 121 days
Last Active: 32 days

08-06-11 10:40 PM
D_Man is Offline
Link | 37 Words

D_Man
Level: 33


POSTS: 213/291
POST EXP: 6092
LVL EXP: 221508
CP: 27.0
VIZ: 3426

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
I can't give you any advice besides to relax if she is you're soul mate and you truly love her stay with her don't let her take advantage of you and if you need anything just ask
Member
The man


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 06-28-11
Location: buffalo,united states
Last Post: 1911 days
Last Active: 1615 days

08-06-11 11:00 PM
hoguan is Offline
Link | 21 Words

hoguan
Level: 52


POSTS: 652/748
POST EXP: 18175
LVL EXP: 1028325
CP: 192.8
VIZ: 68699

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
It sounds like things are going harsh for you. I can't help much, but at least you're with your soul mate.
Trusted Member

Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 01-08-10
Last Post: 224 days
Last Active: 216 days

08-06-11 11:02 PM
SunflowerGaming is Offline
Link | 21 Words

Level: 83


POSTS: 822/2312
POST EXP: 139404
LVL EXP: 5429796
CP: 858.7
VIZ: 76148

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
I've been through my own version of hell too. All I can say is I hope things get better for you.
Trusted Member
Lupus Warrior


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 05-29-10
Location: United States
Last Post: 234 days
Last Active: 126 days

08-06-11 11:09 PM
The Planned Accident is Offline
Link | 27 Words

Level: 49


POSTS: 50/704
POST EXP: 38999
LVL EXP: 829651
CP: 2118.5
VIZ: 26397

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
Not only that, I've cried almost every day while all this was happening, Even when things were tough, I tried to make her happy through it all...
Trusted Member


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 07-16-11
Location: I don't know.
Last Post: 374 days
Last Active: 7 days

08-06-11 11:53 PM
Natas is Offline
Link | 169 Words

Natas
Level: 68


POSTS: 1164/1494
POST EXP: 104324
LVL EXP: 2625189
CP: 393.6
VIZ: 23492

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
So much, yet so young. I can't fathom the experience you are going through right now, except for my father was once the same way, but as for the relationship you are going through. There's not much advice I can give you, because my life of solitude is saddening. I've been alone for a very long time due to I'm always visually judged by up tight shallow women, lied and cheated on too. So I know how you feel. I have failed relationships when they found out a visual thing about me. Which I will not go into details, but what I can say is that you should be lucky whether or not you can no longer see your children, but know this. You still have them in your heart. Have faith and love for your children and you will get to see them again. Don't be down so much. It could be worse. 

Meh, I'm horrible at giving advices, but I hoped it helped you out a little.
Vizzed Elite
The nice guy of Vizzed


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 04-13-11
Location: Monroe, La
Last Post: 1057 days
Last Active: 584 days

08-06-11 11:56 PM
The Planned Accident is Offline
Link | 50 Words

Level: 49


POSTS: 51/704
POST EXP: 38999
LVL EXP: 829651
CP: 2118.5
VIZ: 26397

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
Natas : Actually, That was very good, Natas. Believe me, once you really fall in love it's the hardest thing you'll ever have to face.. I feel weird as a 15 year old saying this to someone who's most likely a lot older than me. But that was great advice.
Trusted Member


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 07-16-11
Location: I don't know.
Last Post: 374 days
Last Active: 7 days

08-07-11 12:33 AM
rlmathias01 is Offline
Link | 25 Words

rlmathias01
Level: 27

POSTS: 128/176
POST EXP: 16316
LVL EXP: 105818
CP: 5.0
VIZ: 15017

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
Wow, I can't even imagine having to go through all that. I'm sorry and I hope that things look better for you in the future.
Member
rlmathias01


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 04-26-11
Location: Shepherdstown, WV
Last Post: 1802 days
Last Active: 236 days

08-07-11 10:16 AM
warmaker is Offline
Link | 354 Words

warmaker
Level: 82

POSTS: 489/2198
POST EXP: 240742
LVL EXP: 5061550
CP: 4900.1
VIZ: 195738

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
If you expect to find happiness with your soulmate and peace and harmony, you first must make peace with your past.  Forgive your stepfather, forgive those who have made you suffer in the past and move beyond it.  Allow me to tell a quick story:

Two buddhist monks were travelling to a temple.  They stopped to cross a river that was very deep.  A woman was on their side of the river, and she was young and pretty.  She looked at them and asked for help fording the river, for it was too swift for her to do by herself.  The older of the two monks picked her up and put her on his shoulder.  They crossed the river safely.  He put her down, she thanked him, and went on her way.

The two monks continued walking in silence.  After two hours the younger monk finally spoke, "Master, I cannot believe you carried that woman.  One of our most important rules is to shun physical contact from females.  It is against our code.  And yet you carried her across the river!"

The older monk spoke, "Yes, I carried her across the river.  But I put her down on the other side.  You carry her still."


If you really want to live happily and successfully with your soulmate, you need to first be happy with yourself.  You can't do anything for anyone else until you've reconciled your own past demons.  Work on yourself first.  Stop carrying your past experiences, decide to move on and be better from today through the future.  You can't control, nor can you change what happened to you.  But you can determine your fate from today on out. 

Write down all the terrible things.  Write them all down in great detail on paper.  Light a candle.  Burn each note and each story.  As it burns up, feel it burn away from your soul.  It no longer affects you.  You're stronger than your past and you can control your future.  Only once you truly allow yourself to stop living the past can you be of any use to your soulmate.

Good luck!
Trusted Member

Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 05-02-10
Location: Honolulu, HI
Last Post: 508 days
Last Active: 171 days

08-07-11 10:22 AM
The Planned Accident is Offline
Link | 19 Words

Level: 49


POSTS: 52/704
POST EXP: 38999
LVL EXP: 829651
CP: 2118.5
VIZ: 26397

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
I don't know whether that is going to work. But I'll take your advice. That was a beautiful story.
Trusted Member


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 07-16-11
Location: I don't know.
Last Post: 374 days
Last Active: 7 days

08-07-11 10:43 AM
Minuano is Offline
Link | 56 Words

Minuano
Galacta
Level: 97


POSTS: 179/3189
POST EXP: 101109
LVL EXP: 9277214
CP: 5846.7
VIZ: 81308

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
Damn bro, pretty harsh. As I live through my life, I'm realizing I have it easy. I live through a divorcement between my mom and dad, always having to go to Orlando. But you're living life much harder than I am.

All I can say here is that I hope it gets better along the way....
Vizzed Elite

I gotta believe!


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 09-03-09
Location: Miami, FL
Last Post: 8 days
Last Active: 15 hours

08-07-11 03:51 PM
Redrunelord is Offline
Link | 390 Words

Redrunelord
Level: 58


POSTS: 381/1049
POST EXP: 118329
LVL EXP: 1537947
CP: 2707.0
VIZ: 91454

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
I have gone through some similar experiences, and I offer my condolences man.

I will also offer my opinion...you have done something great in posting this on Vizzed. I say that because one of the first steps for recovery and true happiness is opening yourself...there was a Bruce Dickinson song that addresses somebody who has bottled something finally being set free when their emotions and thoughts came out. Here is a part of the first verse:

For too long now,
There were secrets in my mind.
Too long now,
there were things I should have said.
In the darkness,
I was stumbling for the door,
to find a reason...
to find the time, the place, the hour.

I agree with some of the posters that you should finally start facing things, and look your past straight in the eyes and say that you are not going to put up with the demons any longer. It will be hard, I agree...hell, I still has trouble with some of my demons, but I pushes through nonetheless...and I think you can as well. If what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, then you will be a strong man. 

I can't adequately advise you in brevity as I don't know you, nor do I have any training in the realms of psychology. If you ever want to talk one on one, drop me a line, and I will be glad to. In the end though, you are the key to your past, present and future.

To close my short speech, of sorts, here is my favorite poem of all time, and you may enjoy it. It's called Invictus (which is Latin for "Unconquerable") and was written by William Ernest Henley.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.




Vizzed Elite
A Lone Samurai


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 05-01-11
Last Post: 1508 days
Last Active: 469 days

08-07-11 06:00 PM
geeogree is Online
Link | 25 Words

geeogree
Mr Geeohn-A-Vash53215
Level: 266


POSTS: 16964/27885
POST EXP: 1851321
LVL EXP: 307388744
CP: 43350.7
VIZ: 4399348

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
you've gone through all that and you're only 15?

either you're lying about your age or you're lying about all the stuff that has happened....
Local Moderator

Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 01-03-05
Location: Alberta, Canada
Last Post: 1 day
Last Active: 27 sec.

08-07-11 06:09 PM
pacman1755 is Offline
Link | 38 Words

pacman1755
Level: 171


POSTS: 2202/12931
POST EXP: 444378
LVL EXP: 66216553
CP: 29157.4
VIZ: 173589

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
Well, after geeo explained that, I think your lying. Going through that in 15? That must be a messed up life or you are lying about the age. I sincerely hope its the age that is the lie.
Vizzed Elite
Winner of The August VCS 2011 and December VCS 2013


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 05-22-11
Location: Wisconsin
Last Post: 3 days
Last Active: 18 hours

08-07-11 06:20 PM
MegaRevolution1 is Offline
Link | 19 Words

Level: 108


POSTS: 2193/4170
POST EXP: 274021
LVL EXP: 13431378
CP: 2089.4
VIZ: 18819

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
This picture is pretty much everything I have to say about this thread.






Image upload: 526x472 totaling 38 KB's.
Vizzed Elite
I asked for it. This is what I wanted.


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 02-16-10
Last Post: 1242 days
Last Active: 1232 days

(edited by MegaRevolution1 on 08-07-11 06:20 PM)    

08-07-11 06:22 PM
Bitmap is Offline
Link | 67 Words

Bitmap
Level: 27


POSTS: 103/181
POST EXP: 19752
LVL EXP: 107907
CP: 12.8
VIZ: 27398

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
You seriously need some sex education and stay away from that in general. If you want to avoid that hell either stop lying to yourself that you are in that situation or (If you are even it) then STOP MESSING AROUND WITH GIRLS.

Honestly, you are young. If you had a kid do you think you can man up and support it with your amount of Education?
Trusted Member

Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 07-25-11
Last Post: 1242 days
Last Active: 647 days

08-07-11 06:24 PM
legacyme3 is Offline
Link | 0 Words

legacyme3
Lord Leggy - King of IT
Level: 234


POSTS: 6562/25802
POST EXP: 1819694
LVL EXP: 197814819
CP: 33268.8
VIZ: 234582

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
Vizzed Elite

One Leggy.
One Love.
One Dream.


Affected by 'Carpal Tunnel Syndrome'

Registered: 09-14-10
Location: Behind another mask
Last Post: 11 hours
Last Active: 11 hours

08-07-11 06:34 PM
The Planned Accident is Offline
Link | 18 Words

Level: 49


POSTS: 63/704
POST EXP: 38999
LVL EXP: 829651
CP: 2118.5
VIZ: 26397

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
I'm not lying about either of them. But I don't care what any of you think. It's true.
Trusted Member


Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 07-16-11
Location: I don't know.
Last Post: 374 days
Last Active: 7 days

08-07-11 06:39 PM
Bitmap is Offline
Link | 18 Words

Bitmap
Level: 27


POSTS: 105/181
POST EXP: 19752
LVL EXP: 107907
CP: 12.8
VIZ: 27398

Likes: 0  Dislikes: 0
If you don't care about what we think then what was the point of even making this thread.
Trusted Member

Affected by 'Laziness Syndrome'

Registered: 07-25-11
Last Post: 1242 days
Last Active: 647 days

Page Comments


This page has no comments