Divine Aurora :

It seems very recently, several people were banned unexpectedly, and some members didn't see the ban coming, thus they felt it was very unjust, even thinking it's cruel and started making threads centered on it. I also spoke to a few people who were very pissed off about the banning and wanted an answer for the sudden actions.

I spoke to people last night to explain what really happened and why the banning happened to begin with. A few weeks ago, Davideo created a joke among the site where everyone can "swear" in their posts, and then a thread was created. It seemed the intention behind the thread was to "have fun" especially with the swearing enabled, but several members saw it and felt members created it solely to spam, and several rules were broken through the thread.

Basically, that thread is why a few people were banned. I brought  that up, and I got the response of "but that happened weeks ago! it's so petty that they waited til now when they could've done it earlier!" Thing is, the mods needed to talk to each other to determine the punishments of several people, and the conversation went out longer than it should have been. However, it seems because the mods "waited" and then dropped the ban after finding an agreement, several people ended up so shocked that it happened (based on what a few told me).

Either way, several people were upset, but others are also poking fun at the situation too. Lexatom's thread here appears to poke fun at it, since people were saying the mods were horrible for banning a few veterans.

Hope this helps out a bit with your question.

I'm unsure on exactly how to describe how I'm feeling right now. I guess... I'm fine? I'm not okay? I don't feel good physically? I feel lazy? I'm ridiculously concerned?

First thing I want to say is, I've been trying to lose weight, and in my process I noticed a lot of problems I dealt with. Anytime I stress out, I resort to eating to make myself feel better or less stressed (this is exactly why I gained 40+ pounds in a single year, thus putting me over 200 pounds). When I'm dealing with school, my weight is no longer my main priority because my education needs to be taken care of, and I need to make sure I'm passing my classes. Back in the spring semester, my family was not helping with my weight problem as every week, my mom would one day be too lazy to cook that she'd buy fast food, and then there's rarely ever a variety of food to eat outside of junk food. 

As I finished summer school, I had planned to get back to walking more and keeping out for what I eat and try to successfully get out of 200 pounds, but then a brand new problem came along...

My left knee has been strange since my birthday. On that day, my boyfriend and I walked around different malls to spend time with each other, and at some point, I felt pain on my left leg, especially around my knee. I brushed it off, thinking it's only hurting because I was walking a lot that day. Then the next day, Van and I go to an amusement park to have fun, and after a long while, my knee hurt again, this time to the point where it really hurt to walk. This lead us to leave the park earlier than we wanted to, and it hasn't been better since. My mom came to visit me the past weekend, and she noticed the way I was walking was odd, to the point where she decided to take me to the hospital as soon as I returned to her home for the fall semester. 

And now, I'm unsure what to do. I want to walk, but I know it'll only make my knee either hurt with pain or just swell up. I want to dance, but I'm afraid of how that'll go with my knee. Plus since yesterday, my knee was all I could really think about, and I can't stop wondering if my problem is a minor one or a serious one. 

It's been a long time since I took any Chinese classes (besides LingoDeer, which I last used last month and had to put aside because of summer school). If I know anything, google translate is kinda useless if you are clueless to the language you're trying to learn. For a start, when you meet the international Chinese students, you can say you're not good at speaking Chinese by saying "Wo zhongwen shuo de bu hao." This way, your riders are aware that you're not fluent in Chinese, but you are trying.

For the first one, you can say "Ni hao ma" which means "how are you?" (A common response to get from this is "wo hen hao" which means "I am good / doing well")

Second one, you can say "Ni shi (name) ma?" 

The last one, I didn't learn to say in Chinese class, so I tried doing a quick search and could not find exactly what is needed. I did, however, find "women qu nali" which means "where are we going?" 

Hope this helps a bit.

Well, crap, I spent the past five years thinking you were a year or two older than me lmao

Glad you had a nice time in Japan, and it's great to see you're doing well independently. Hope to see you around~

Eirinn :

Happy (late) birthday dude~ I'm already sending a harvest sprite on your way for the big present. Expect an army of sprites on your property in a few days~

Don't you think cabbage is delicious?

Should we have cabbage juice sometime?

Isn't cabbage love?

Isn't cabbage life?

Have you accomplished anything so far in 2018?

I'm taking two online courses for the summer semester. I'm taking speech and environmental science. Speech is okay and I have a good grade so far, but my teacher sometimes takes too long to update, and when I finally do get my assignments, I end up with only 3 or 4 days to complete 12 assignments. Science is easy, but the quizzes are hard af and don't even deal with what I'm learning.

The last game I played was Story of Seasons: Trio of Towns. I started playing it last week, and I'm now really enjoying it. It may as well be one of my favorite Harvest Moon / Story of Seasons games.

The last anime I was watching was One Punch Man. Van and I got to episode 8 together, and we're getting closer to the end. I'm really slow in watching anime, haha.

What is your goal in life?

Would you rather kiss a unicorn or a pegasus?

Any summer movies you're interested in watching?

Would you rather live in a house with five Leggy's or five Geeo's?

Do I want to change the way I am physically? Mentally?

I do like myself the way I am, but there are several things I am working on for myself in terms of both physical change and mental change.

Physically, I want to lose weight, and I've been working on that with trying to go on long walks daily and dancing more often. At the same time, I end up having setbacks because of how I am. I'm a person who hates feeling hungry and can't concentrate without eating, and then when I'm stress, I tend to go hungry and end up eating. As a result, I overeat, which doesn't help me at all, but I continue to try anyways. However, I don't think I'm ugly by being overweight. I honestly think I look fine all the same, and on a plus, it means I'm not making myself miserable by starving.

Mentally, I'm already making progress with my changes. Back then, I often had a pessimistic view on life and genuinely felt I didn't deserve to feel happiness, but now I've been cutting out all negative influences in my life and keeping a positive attitude on things. I've also been working on my anxieties as I tend to get anxious over many things. This also ties in with negative influences because a few months ago, I began to be anxious just by being in discord servers that either made me feel uncomfortable or I have to be the person to deal with the worst trouble because other moderators in the server didn't want to intervene. Cutting it all out has helped me deal with anxiety, and I've been calm since. 

Then I learned to let go of all the things that had made me angry or sad in the past, and I've felt I've gotten better with my mood since. I also learned to forgive people who did wrong to me and to forgive myself when I screw things up badly, and I no longer feel resentment to myself or anyone. 

Do I want to change myself? Physically, yes, but it's not the end of the world if I'm still fat. Mentally, I feel I'm doing a decent job in changing myself, and I'll continue to do my best.

I guess this is a big celebration, being on the site for five years, it’s pretty amazing. Honestly, I feel I would appreciate it more if I was more active on the site. I promised I’d be more active here after David made a promise to help improve the site, but to be honest, I’m not doing a great job at keeping my promise.

Before I explain that more, I do want to address what’s going on the past year, and if things ever got better for me after the crappy events that happened leading to my 4 year anniversary.

I can honestly say, things did get better.

Yeah, I lost a bunch of friends in the past year, but to be honest, I’m actually glad I lost some friends because it gave me the chance to see it wasn’t worth being near them anymore. I know I’m sounding like a terrible person. Hell, they were great people. What’s my problem? Simply put, I realized I didn’t want to remain friends with people that were, well, the following reasons:

Either they were the kind of people who went on separate discord servers for the purpose of trashtalking me, but when they were caught doing so by several other friends of mine, they tried to lie their way out of it, making claims like “oh it was just a joke!” or “I didn’t mean it!” and then they kept doing it.

Or they were people who genuinely didn’t think they were in the wrong for being nasty to some other friends I have, whether they were making fun of their interests, targeting them in harassment, or even making fun of their medical conditions when they clearly know my friends are helpless with their medical problems.

Or they hated my boyfriend so much that they felt it was perfectly okay to intentionally break rules, either on the site or on the discord server. If they were banned, they then celebrate as if it was the greatest thing…

Look, no one has to like Vanelan. Heck, you can even despise Vanelan with a burning passion and still be a friend of mine and a respectful person. But if you’re someone who finds it funny to break rules for the sake of annoying the staff, then don’t be surprised if you’re suddenly no longer able to contact me. This also goes for some of my friends. You don’t have to like them, but if you felt annoyed by them, a block button exists for a reason.

Okay, enough lecturing Aria.

Honestly, being away from these kinds of people had allowed me to better grow as a person. Rather than continuing to speak coldly of them, I just forget about them. By forgetting about it, I just focused on myself, and I was able to have a great time in real life. I also learned a few weeks ago, these people had made a discord server for the sake of trashtalking me and Vanelan, and when I first heard of this, I couldn’t help but feel sorry for them.

I ended up thinking, “how bad are their lives that they feel they need to spend their freetime being petty?”

As a result of disconnecting from plenty of people, I kinda ended up learning to cut off anyone I deemed a negative presence in my life. Lately, I left multiple discord servers because I felt they were draining me and wearing me, and looking back, I end up being happy in the end. Sure, I made a lot of people mad for leaving because, for reasons I can't comprehend, they didn't like that I left to take care of myself. I also continue to remain distant from my dad, as well as a bunch of relatives that have been problematic. Yeah, I'm selfish, I only care about myself and my health, but honestly, I wish the best for everyone and I do hope we all can find happiness in our lives.
 
Another thing I want to mention, I had left Vizzed last year as a result of their behavior, but after seeing David’s post in March, I realized, “these people who were rude to me don’t represent the site at all.” Sure, this site isn’t perfect… it’s still dead, but we’re still trying.

Or rather, everyone else is trying (I have a lot of explaining to do), but overall, Vizzed is still a nice community. I still like Vizzed, and I’m actually disappointed in myself for not coming to visit the site as much as I wanted to.

So what am I doing and why am I breaking my promise?

Well… I’m more focused on real life. My relationship with Van is no longer just online. We’re seeing each other in person. We’re living in the same house. My family likes him as much as his likes me, so I’m more focused on family and other personal things. I’m also taking summer courses in college so I can advance my education and hopefully graduate by May 2019.

Then in my free time, I’m dancing, I’m writing fanfics, I’m brainstorming and writing a lot of crap down, I’m going on walks, I’m trying to lose weight, I’m playing games…

But I still haven’t forgotten about Vizzed. In fact, I still contact members who have discord accounts, and very recently, I got in contact with TornadoMudkip on twitter. Although I’ll admit, as of late, the only person I really talk to is Vanelan. It doesn’t mean I have forgotten about everyone.

I wish I can be more active in the future. Hopefully, if I have spare moments, I’ll return to posting on Vizzed. Since I’m terrible at keeping my promise, I’ll just not promise on this. I can only try to do my best, for myself, and for everyone who does want to talk to me again.

Now comes the fun part: acknowledging people on the site and personally telling them just how much I appreciate them. It’s been five years now, but there are people I really want to say things to.

Well, first, I want to talk about Zeross121. He’s perma’d so there’s really no need to summon, but why do I want to say something about him?

That’s because, he was my very first friend when I first became active on the site, back in 2013. We became close almost immediately, and we would talk to each other every day. Of course, there were a lot of ups and downs, and the downs were bad enough that he and I ended our friendship twice: first in April 2014, and we became friends again in July 2014, only for that to fail by the end of the year.

To be honest, though, I never forgot about him. I actually sometimes wonder how he’s been doing all these years. Maybe I’m just too nice for my own good, but I actually want to see him again just to tell him “thank you so much for being my first friend here and giving me strength to make friends in school.”

Even though our relationship didn’t end well, I do sincerely hope Zeross has been doing well for the past few years.

Now to everyone else:

Eniitan : is an amazing person, and I couldn’t ask for a better older sister. Every problem I go to, I talk to her, and she always has the right things to say for me. She’s the first person I told when I began my relationship with Van, and she was most supportive. I always do my best to return the favor for her, and I wonder if I have succeeded. We’ve been friends for a long time too, and I hope to continue having a wonderful friendship in future years.

play4fun : was my father figure when I first came to the site, and although I haven’t spoken to him in a long time now, I still wish the best for him. He’s an amazing person to talk to, and I really enjoyed being an insane person with him around.

fearlessjazp567 : He’s my child, so of course I’ll protect him to no end. There will be times though, where I won’t help or defend but instead, guide him to find the answer to his problems. He’s a fun guy, with a love for music and cartoons, and I can’t wish for a better friend to have.

Furret : is so fluffy, I just want to hold him! He’s also my very first Tomodachi husband, which I still remember the names of our kids (our dear Levi, Ariana, Samantha, and Aden). There was also a time where people had actually thought he and I were dating, and I’m actually still confused on how that even came up in the first place. Either way, I always enjoyed talking to him about literally anything, and I’m glad to have him for a friend. (And I’ve created a character based off him in a fanfic, which he will appear if I was more active in my writing).

Matthew2321 : is one of my earliest friends on the site, and we were insane together. I’m sure if I did a better job at keeping contact, we’d still be insane together. Yes, Matthew, even though I suck at my job at keeping in contact with friends daily, I still love you and hope you’ll one day turn into an adorable little puffball.

sonicthehedgehog57 : is another great person to talk to, and he’s also given me a game, and if I didn’t say it enough how grateful I was to receive it, I really am grateful. Again, I suck at my job at keeping contact, so Erick, remember that I love you and I sincerely wish the best for you.

Sanspai : Why the hell is your name Sanspai? My god, hahahaha… For real, I still contact you, although not as often as I hope, and I always enjoy talking to you and trying to help you out the best I can. You’re doing well in life, and I can’t wish for anything else but for you to always be happy.

RDay13 : Sometimes, life makes it hard for us to keep in contact, but that’s okay. Life can be good sometimes, and I hope life keeps you well. My DMs on discord are always open… I’m trying to remember what I used to call you. Was it “caramel?” I can’t remember, but I hope you are doing very well.

Eirinn : I’m really sorry for bothering you on discord on anything regarding Harvest Moon. My childhood fangirling has returned to me, so I’ll be playing some HM games in the future, as I already am now. Please bare with me, and maybe one day, we’ll find a harvest sprite and soon, the Harvest Goddess. Okay, really, you’re amazing, and I love you to bits, like harvest sprites bits (forgive me).

Davideo7 : It’s weird, it’d be the first time I summon the owner to any of my threads, but I do want to thank you, not just for making this place, and not just for all the hard work you do, but for doing your best, even when you sometimes feel down or troubled. We’re always here for you, not just to help with the site, but to keep you happy.

Vanelan : I can make a long, gushy love confession here, but that’ll even make me cringe, so I’ll just talk to you in person rather than make anyone who have read up to this far cringe in disgust.

Then there’s a list of people I still want to acknowledge, but I’m really unsure what to say to them individually, and I’m really sorry!

Zlinqx :
Divine Aurora :
Bintsy :
sop281 :
Mohammedroxx3 :
Pacman+Mariofan :
Vizzed Ghostblood :
m0ssb3rg935 :
juuldude :
TornadoMudkip :
geeogree :
IgorBird122 :
PixelBrick :

Thank you guys so much for giving me a positive experience on Vizzed for the past five years. I’ll try my best to be more active on the site, but even if I’m doing a terrible job at that, I still wish the best for you guys.

And I’m done writing all of this out. I hope this isn’t as long of a read like last year’s, but I’m not expecting everyone to read this all the way through. Either way, I hope everyone has a wonderful day, month, rest of the year, etc. Plus, good luck to those participating in TdV!