Wow, I can't believe you're finally leaving. I did the same for a very long time, and I'm still kinda absent to a significant extent (just kinda depressing to see this place so dead honestly), but you're a lot like me in the "putting on a fake persona" regard. I'm sure those who knew me, and you, and the "Droog Embassy" we helped create right here on Vizzed can attest to that. Nevertheless it's still sad to see you depart for good. You are one of my oldest friends on here and I may have had my own ups and downs in Vizzed history but I can't remember any conflicts springing up specifically between us. Hopefully we can talk again soon - I would definitely be interested in joining the Discord server if you happen to see this.

legacyme3 : Man that's legit sad. I mean I get it, obviously one can't expect people to remain active on a forum for a decade straight but it's depressing to see how so many people ultimately just faded into the aether. Silvermaestro and Robert in particular, I definitely considered you, Alex, and them to be among my closest friends on here. It's good to know Alex still comes around every now and then, I think I used to have him added on FB but my account got deleted ages ago and I can't seem to find him anymore on there so yeah lol. Geeo I remember butting heads with quite often back in the day but I don't even remember why lol. I actually don't remember what I did to get myself permabanned hahahaha I just know that it happened. Regardless, I hope he is doing well. By the way do you happen to know what happened with MegaRevolution? Feel free to just tell me in PM or whatever if you know hahaha but I vaguely remember him having it out with several people and leaving and I just saw that his gender on here is female, did he become trans or something? Wild either way, I considered him a friend too - seems he's another one gone....

As for me I guess I could say I'm doing alright, better since my last visit on here that's for sure. Kind of in limbo at the moment, I graduated college in January and was about to start looking for jobs until corona hit and delayed that process. Now that things are starting to open up again here I'm officially starting up the job hunt but it's definitely something that's giving me anxiety hahaha, just knowing how truly uncertain the future is at this point. Ultimately my goal is to move to Poland, I'm dating a girl who lives there now and even if things end up not working out between us I still plan to go there eventually. I always wanted to leave the US to go to Europe or Latin America and I think Poland is my best bet. Might be wishful thinking but I'm aiming to at least visit there within a year or so. Right now I basically just spend my time reading, playing video games (like the olden days...) and studying/discussing law, politics, philosophy, occultism, etc.

pennylessz : Man I remember you too! Good to see that you're also still around LOL. It's so interesting to see how the layout of the site has remained pretty much the same for all this time...which I'm frankly happy about since so many sites completely change their layouts for no reason (coughcoughFacebookcoughcough), almost always making themselves worse in the process. Glad to see Vizzed didn't go through that, even if there's less activity here now.

Minuano : Hahahaha I actually do remember you! I'm not sure if we ever interacted much but yeah the Galacta name definitely sounds familiar. It's interesting how I can remember minute details like that but can hardly recount what I ate for breakfast yesterday...

legacyme3 : Hey leggy. I assume you have kept the Droog Embassy's legacy alive in my absence, hahahaha. Man it seems like you're pretty much the only person from back then still around on here. It's like getting shipped off to fight in a war only to return home and find that your hometown has been bombed and your friends and family are now all dead. Okay maybe not that extreme of an example, but you get my point. Everyone is missing!

Furret : Thank you, thank you. You probably don't remember me because my heyday on here was back in like 2010-2011. It's crazy to think it was over a decade ago now. Got permabanned in early 2011 because I was an immature kid obsessed with trolling, returned in 2012, and have been back sporadically ever since.

Pacman+Mariofan : Yeah what's the deal with that anyway, as in why the site's not so active anymore? Just people moving on to better emulation options for games and other forums I assume? I remember this place was truly revolutionary back in the day, I had never seen anything like it, but nowadays with advances in emulation and RetroArch and that kind of stuff it seems sites like this are becoming increasingly obsolete. Kinda sad...

Hey, it's me. Formerly known as jmc1097, stopping here for the first time in a couple years or so? It's been a while. Was feeling nostalgic so I decided to stop here again, it seems like Vizzed has become pretty dead now though which is unfortunate! Anyway, hello to anyone new who doesn't know me that reads this, and hello to whoever of my old friends on here are still active on the site.

Hey everyone. For those who aren't in the know, I am jmc1097, one of Vizzed's prominent posters back in the day until I ended up getting myself banned because I became near-obsessed with trolling everyone. I was young and stupid back then, I'll admit. But, I'm here again. In case no one remembered the last post I made on here was me talking about how I wanted to kill myself. Well, this post obviously shows that I did not do that, I just couldn't get myself to go through with it, but I'm still very depressed. So I figured maybe to help out my pain I would try and become more active on here since this site was an important part of my past (even if the end of my involvement here was very ugly). I can't promise I'll be posting every day or anything like that since I've got college now, but it would be nice to work my way back into "regular" status on here. Hell, maybe one day I could even get my old account back, but that doesn't really matter much to me. It's just nice to be back here, even if just for a little while.

Hey, everyone. I just wanted to say that I've read everyone's comments on here and I genuinely do appreciate your desire to help me in spite of everything. I spent most of today just trying to fix things with the girl I wanted to marry who left me recently, but to no avail. She seems perfectly content throwing away everything we had together in favor of someone she met like a week ago and even admitted to just having a mere "crush" on. It's so horrible. I honestly wouldn't even be considering ending my life if I had her back, because although I have other problems as stated in my OP, I can usually deal with those for the most part...but this on top of everything else is what's killing me. So, will I end up doing it? I don't know. I can't promise anything at this point. If things continue to go downhill between her and I then I've gotta be honest and say yeah, I'll probably end up doing it. But if there even seems to be a glimmer of hope for all of that to work out..then I'll keep living. Might become more active on here too. I have been contemplating and preparing, though. I watched one of my favorite childhood films for the first time in years earlier and I haven't eaten much at all. No real appetite. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Hello everyone. Many of you probably don't know who I am, considering I'm not active on here anymore and haven't been in a long time, but I have a confession to make - I am jmc1097. I was one of the most active people on this site for quite some time until I ended up flipping out due to feeling unliked and unappreciated and getting myself perma-banned. First things first, I wanted to apologize for my actions back then. I know most people probably won't remember it or know what I'm talking about considering this was in like 2011-2012, but I was a stupid kid that was just obsessed with "trolling" and the like because I was active here around the time I first discovered that sort of thing. I'm 19 now and I guess you could say I've grown up a lot. But unfortunately, this leads me to the main point of this thread - to say goodbye to everyone here.

However, I don't mean your typical Vizzed goodbye, as I know those types of threads have always been frowned upon around here. I mean that soon, I will be killing myself. I don't know exactly when, but I know it will be sometime in the very near future. My life has been very bad ever since around the time I started acting like an ass on the internet, both online and off - every relationship I've had has ended in turmoil. I've been cheated on, left for other guys, countless times. I have no real friends. I honestly haven't had a friend from school or something like that over to my place since around the 4th grade - all I've really had is my family and even me and them have drifted apart substantially. I usually didn't care about this, since I've always been kind of the loner type that is more satisfied with doing solitary activities such as watching movies and you guessed it, playing video games than hanging out with friends or that kind of thing. This especially wasn't a problem because I've always had friends online to talk to, and I still do admittedly, but it doesn't seem to make a difference anymore. I feel genuinely hopeless and like I'll never be able to escape. I just wish that for once in my life, something would work out in my favor. I want more than anything to have a girl that I can love and be with for the rest of my life, but I know that will never happen, considering the girl I was planning on marrying someday left me for another guy a few days ago. I do well at my college classes, but I don't even know if I'll be able to continue them anymore considering my family is very poor and I can't afford to pay for them on my own. Plus, I don't enjoy it. I only do it because I don't want to be a failure, I want to rise above just working at McDonald's or something for the rest of my life. But honestly, neither of those options sound appealing to me. I just want to fix everything, but I can't, and it's the most horrible feeling I've ever experienced. I honestly would not wish it on my worst enemy.

I would like to say goodbye to all of my old, close friends that used to frequent this board with me back in the day. I'm not sure if they're still active or not, but I'll summon them anyway (forgive me if it fails or if I forget anyone, I've lost my knack for this kind of thing):

legacyme3 :
alexanyways :
Robert7 :
Maggie178 :
Kaiser19 :
septembern :
DarkHyren :
SilverMaestro13:
crazycatpup :

Also, to...

Singelli : I met you not that long ago compared to the others I mentioned, but despite us not seeing eye to eye on all things you did your best to help me whenever I needed it and I am genuinely thankful for that.
and..

geeogree : I was really quite obnoxious to you in the past, and I can't even remember why. But even though you probably don't remember much of me or care anymore, I wanted to make peace with you as well.

To all of you, thank you for being my friends on here back in the day. I genuinely enjoyed the time I spent with you, whether it was through role-playing stories or just talking in the chat room on here and I haven't forgotten you. I'm sorry that it has come to this, but I can't take my life anymore. I hope all of you understand, and that I am absolved. Also to David, the David that created this site, thank you as well. I won't summon him here because I know he's busy a lot but I admired him as a person as well. And to all of you newer members of the site that I don't know considering I'm more of a veteran here - enjoy your time here like I did, and don't make dumb mistakes like I did. Think before you act, and don't just let your anger get the best of you. That's a rule you should try to apply to both online behavior and real-life behavior. Don't make the same mistakes I made. And don't make the same mistake I want to make right now, either - I know a lot of you are quite young, and you all have full lives to live. Make every moment count. I know that's kind of hypocritical advice coming from me, but I never claimed to be a saint. I just want to improve stuff as much as I can, and maybe that will make me reconsider my decision. But I doubt it at this point.

Goodbye, I will miss you all.

danielbelitch : I have not, because basically after her most recent freakout (which was about 4 days ago) she broke up with me and I haven't fixed anything because I can't decide what I should do. So ex-girlfriend would be the more appropriate term for describing her.

Thanks for your advice, everyone. Here's an update:

Basically I tried cutting off the girl I was dating, but she texted me and told me that she was sorry for everything and she'd even give me her Facebook password in order to get me to trust her again. I went on her account and found the messages in which she basically cheated on me. They were back in like February and I already knew she did it but I didn't know the extent of it (she also sent nudes to another guy in the beginning of our relationship last August). She was crying and pretty much begging me to take her back and I haven't really given her a straight answer yet because I'm not sure what to do. That's because the girl from another continent and I have been talking, and she said she was shy about relationships and that kind of thing so right now I'm trying to get to know her better and make her more comfortable with me. I really like her a lot honestly and I'm seriously torn, because I do love the girl I've been dating, but with her history and her bipolar freakouts and depression and everything else....I don't know. I just feel like maybe I should start fresh with the other girl, because she's sweet and cute and seems normal enough. I'm thinking of maybe giving my ex-girlfriend one more chance to not screw up, but in the meantime I'll keep talking to the other girl just as friends for the time being because I'm not a cheater plus I think we should get to know each other more. But maybe I shouldn't even do that and just give up on the girl I've been with....I'm torn, honestly.

Okay so basically, I am stuck and I have no idea what to do. I have been dating this one girl for almost a year now, and she lives in Massachusetts. I truly do love her and we've been through so much and I don't feel like our relationship is going anywhere. Not to mention, she has left me for other guys about three times so far, and she is also bipolar so she often takes her anger out on me even when I have nothing to do with that she's mad about. We're currently in a long-distance relationship and quite frankly I'm scared to see what our lives irl will be like when we're living together, because what if she has these freakouts irl too? I won't be able to tolerate that once if not more every week (which is basically how often it happens, unless I'm lucky)

The other girl lives on a different continent than me, but we have a LOT in common. I have talked to her only a little so far, but she seems really sweet and I don't think she has all the issues that my current girlfriend has. I honestly don't want to hurt either one of them, but I'm sick of my girlfriend hurting me. I do love her, but what if her freakouts continue or get even worse once we're living together, and how about when we eventually have kids? I just don't know what to do.

Shadow of the Colossus is a game that I distinctly remember being pretty much everywhere when it first came out. I saw it in video game stores, I saw it at Toys R Us, I even saw it in some stores like Walmart and Target. This is actually somewhat impressive, considering the game's "spiritual predecessor" Ico really did not get much publicity at all in North America, and really only amounted to being a cult hit. Back then, I didn't think much of the game. I couldn't even detect what exactly it was about. But, a few months ago I decided to pick up the game and give it a try, and man, I was not disappointed.

THE STORY

The plot of this game honestly isn't anything spectacular. I barely paid attention to it. Some people might even find it hard to understand, but to sum it up in a nutshell, the game features a guy named Wander, who has to take his horse and defeat 16 "colossi" (giant, though occasionally smaller, monsters) in order to revive a girl who is either sleeping or in a coma or something, I never really figured that out. There is slightly more to it, but most of that is revealed in the end and I don't want to spoil it for those who haven't played the game yet.

GAMEPLAY

This game has a very unique style when it comes to gameplay - it's extremely minimalist, and is far different from most other adventure games you'll play. Unlike other adventure games, there are no people to talk to, there are no enemies to fight besides the colossi (who are essentially each their own equivalent to a boss battle), and there actually isn't even much music that plays in the game except during cutscenes and fights with the colossi. Therefore, for the most part the game focuses on atmosphere - a lot of the time you are trotting around on your horse to find the next colossus, with you occasionally having to jump off and fend for yourself. You only need to use your horse in about two, maybe three, of the 16 colossus fights, so most of the time you'll be fighting them alone. The one complaint I have is the controls when gripping/climbing things, particularly parts of the colossus's bodies. Sometimes they just get messed up and you can end up easily falling, sometimes to your death. I can't even tell you how much this annoyed me the first time I played through this game.

SOUND

As I mentioned before, music is not playing when you aren't watching a cutscene or actually fighting a colossus - but when the music IS on, it's pretty awesome. It definitely gives you the feeling of being an epic hero out to slay the beast. I recommend checking out the full soundtrack, it's available to listen to on Youtube. There's some good stuff on it.

DEPTH

Even though you don't really do much in this game besides look for the colossi and fight them, I would not call the game "short". Some of the fights can last a pretty long time, especially the final colossus. It can also take slightly longer if you aim on completing everything and on playing through the time attack modes. The time attack modes definitely add some replay value to this game - I enjoyed fighting some of the colossi again just to see if it would be easier this time around, and if I could build up my strategies a bit.

DIFFICULTY

I wouldn't say this is a particularly difficult game. It can be challenging sometimes, and there are some parts where you might just want to throw your controller (I'm looking at you, Colossus #9), but overall, the game isn't too bad in that aspect. It can be a bit annoying at certain points, but it's not cheap and I think once you get the hang of things you should be able to beat the game quite easily.

Anyway, I love this game, to be totally honest. I've never played any other games like this before, and something tells me there never WILL be a game truly like this one again, which is a shame. I'd really love to see a sequel to this game, because keeping the key mechanics of the game in and adding a bunch of new colossi to fight would definitely be awesome.

Not in the slightest. Honestly, I don't think any country can truly be free. Is it possible? Maybe, but I definitely doubt it.

So basically I was in the Item Shop looking for stuff to buy, and I decided to buy the
Game Accelerator. I had read the disclaimer at the top of the page
saying that you shouldn't put a new item in the same slot as an old one
or else it'll get replaced, but in a moment of total stupidity (I just wasn't thinking properly - haven't gotten much sleep lately I guess), I
accidentally put the Game Accelerator in slot 1 instead of in another
slot, so now my Playstation item got erased, and I don't even have
remotely enough Viz to buy it back. Ugh. I just needed to vent for a moment, because I'm kicking myself right now over it. Have any of you guys ever done anything like this before?

Brigand : Not yet, but I am going to in August.

I know, but there's really not too much to worry about. I have known her for a long time prior to us dating, I skype with her, etc. She's perfect for me.

tgags123 : She is 25. And I am planning on moving to Greece.

Well basically, I have finally found a girl that I truly love and that
loves me as well. She is quite literally perfect for me, we have tons of
stuff in common, etc etc. The only cons here are 1) she lives in
Greece, I live in the USA (sadly) and 2) she also has kids from a
previous relationship. The long-distance stuff really isn't too much of a
problem for me, but the kids thing kind of is. It truthfully kind of
bothers me that she has kids from before when I came around, and I also
don't know how the hell I'm going to adjust to being a father figure to
kids who aren't even biologically mine. It's seriously getting to me,
but I truly love this woman more than I've ever loved anyone in my life,
and there's no way in hell that I'm just going to dump her over
something like that. But seriously, how will I adjust to this?
How do I even be a good "father"? I'm worried.

-sigh- I've been in a situation similar to this one...only about a month ago too actually. My advice for you is to try to keep your mind off it, do other things that you enjoy doing until you're finally over this guy. Besides, if he cheats on you he is clearly a degenerate and therefore not worth being upset over. I don't know you very well but if you need anyone to talk to feel free to talk to me.

I have antisocial personality disorder and minor OCD.