legacyme3 : You’re more than welcome… I know what it feels like to be down on yourself and I also know what it feels like to have others put you down. I am a high school drop out and although I do not regret why I left school because there were a couple of reasons why I left but I do not regret the general principal of why I left.

Despite me being a worldwide published writer who was working for two international magazines even before I left school, people who I thought I was close to in school and such pretty much said I wouldn’t amount to anything which on one hand hurt because there were a lot of friendships that were ended at that point. On the other hand however, all it did was light anger in me that I still have but unlike most angers I use it as a positive rather than a negative and use it to fuel my motivation to prove them all wrong.

Since leaving school it hasn’t been easy but I have achieved more than they said I would by far not only including my journalistic achievements but I have also done radio appearances from time to time even did nearly forty appearances in one year a couple of years back as a guest analyst. In the years since I have left school some of those people who said I wouldn’t amount to anything, (though I am keeping it clean out of respect for the rules as to what was exactly said to me.) have sunk far lower than I ever did when I freely admit was a teenage screw up.

I do not take any satisfaction in their short comings though. Although what these people said to me lit a fire in me, it isn’t good nor is it necessarily healthy to bask in someone else’s suffering even if the person or person (s) have really wronged you over the course of time. I prefer to be the bigger person which I will be honest is not the easiest thing in the world.

It has been years since I have spoken to most of these people and the odd thing is usually they say that when someone leaves school as I did that their on a first class ticket to no where and, are likely headed for trouble. In my case though it was only after I left school and got away from bad influences that ironically straightened myself out in time. I got into my writing fulltime at that point and really applied myself and honed my craft that the result was that I forged a career for myself.

As I said I do freely admit to being a screw up when I was a kid but one way I use my experiences in a good way is to offer advice to young kids who might be having problems. In all truth and honesty I had very limited options and that was one of many contributing factors as to why I left school and even though I have accomplished much, I discourage kids from taking a similar path if they can avoid it.

I don’t know if school problems are what is troubling you but, I do also know how the every day stresses of life can affect you in other aspects in life in one aspect or another. Stress is an extremely powerful force that can be a silent killer and bring you to your knees when you least suspect it.

A couple of years ago I went through a period of time where I suffered some personal losses. These loses combined with what was for me at the time a 24/7 non-stop work load that I put on myself for the most part and, the obvious stresses that came along with that eventually took a major toll on me and I ended up sick with massive High Blood Pressure.

I was dealing with rushes in my arms and what seemed like a fast heart beat on a frequent basis. This lead to massive anxiety and, obvious lack of sleep. For a person who has a phobia of going to a doctor to begin with; it made me think that something was seriously wrong with me and thus it took damn near every member of my family to physically go with me to the doctor to go get checked out.


Although I still deal with some of the affects from the medication I was on for the HBP it was obvious that the main factor other than probably being over weight was that I was allowing myself far too much stress and was over working myself where I was not getting nearly the amount of rest that I needed.


Since then although I still pull all nighters on a regular basis; I do not allow myself to work myself to the point where I get burnt out. I have a much better grasp of how much I can put myself through physically and although the dedication that I have to my craft has never gone away, I don’t push it and know when I need rest where as years ago I’d ignore it.


As I said I do not know your particular situation and don’t know what may be causing you discomfort but I hope that my personal experiences give you a little perspective that might help you cope better. Like I said yesterday, it is better to have someone you can talk to around to lean on when you’re feeling low and to be there in order to allow yourself to vent because if you keep your emotions bottled up it will only cause you stress in the long run and eventually you’re emotions will boil over. It is far better to let it out before it gets to that point take it from me no good comes from bottling it all up.

Please remember what I said when you are feeling low, there is nothing wrong whatsoever in crying and it is okay for a man to cry…

Best of luck to you my friend.

It might not be surprising 'cause I'm a girl,
But I've been crying ALOT.
Since I left my dad's house, I've been more sensitive to my emotions.
I get pissed easily, if I get too pissed I cry, if you say something mean I cry, when I see bears get shot on the hunting channel I cry.
Idk why I do it so much now lately, though.
I mean, it's not 'cause I'm homesick or anything, in fact I'm pretty relaxed being away from that beast.
I think it's because being with my dad I would get real stressed and we'd fight alot and he thought it was like a bad thing if I cried.
He would yell at me more if I cried or hit me or something.
So I guess now all the emotions I had bottled up for years of living with my dad are coming out. D:

Hm, crying isn't necessarily a bad thing. especially if there's a reason too....my next question is...are you crying for NO reason...or are you crying over something that happened in your life? Because if you're just crying to cry..you're most likely depressed. But if there's a reason than it's normal. that's how I like to express my sadness by crying hysterically. Makes me feel a lot better.