Okay, i wasn't able to go here 2 days. It had some serious reasons. I have no regrets saying this, so here i go:

I am on a new psychical-institute-like place. And last weekend, i was going home for the weekend. Now, my behavior at home is perfect, on the institute... a bit harsh. As i said, i was going home and i had a feeling the connection between my parents and me wasn't very strong anymore. And on Sunday, i was getting some water for my medication. My mom got angry because she thought i was opening and closing the tap all the time, but the water was just stuttering. My reaction wasn't perfect: I yelled at my mom without a reason, making my stepfather going mad after that. I wasn't able to play Minecraft that day as a punishment. But it became far more worse in the evening: My mother and i were at the table and my stepfather was also downstairs, playing games. My mother asked me something (which i can't remember anymore) and that made me talk very disrespectful. I even said that "my parents are keeping me as a prisoner". And that was enough for my stepfather. My own PC is at this institute, and my stepfather actually said my PC is going home again, but my mom found it not very good. My stepfather's words for my behavior (And he actually said this): "You are nothing, you can't do anything, you're a (****) child who can eat and sleep and that's it."

Those words aren't from someone who had children before, so it's clear how he thinks of them. Besides, he thinks "he is the most respectful person of the Netherlands". But i highlighted the reason why he's not that respectful as he thinks. Okay, he learned me the good things of respect, but now he went too far. But the reason he did that was me. And once we went back that evening to the institute, i said "Goodbye" and he said "Don't talk to me.". And that bothers me too.

Now, i am typing this situation with huge anger. I was so mad when my mom left and took away my internet, that i grabbed my scissors and threw them against the door, together with a lot of stuff. I was pretty mad.

Glad those two days my mom disabled my internet are over. But that's what was happening the past 5 days.

This sounds kind of like the situation with me and my dad, so I know how you feel, man. Glad things are alright for the most part. I don't really know how to help, but we're here for you if you need anything.

Lexatom : Thanks, Lexa.

Whoa that sounds awful. It can be difficult not to let your anger get out of hand, I used to yell at my parents and my siblings all the time when they bothered me. Now I still end up doing that to my brother because he drives me crazy often times, but I really don't want to be angry at anyone.

I'm glad you were able to come here and tell vizzed about it, it's important to tell other people about problems you have so you can feel better. Plus people are definitely able to relate to at least some of your problems because we're all human. I hope things get better for you soon and until then I'll be praying for you