Hey everyone. I been causing a lot of drama and confusion lately, and I finally decided to stop holding back what's really troubling me regarding this.

PacmanandMariofan :
EX Palen :
LunarDarkness2 :
Barathemos :
MrBeingcool1 :
yoshirulez:
Jygin :
supernerd117 :
plasticinsanity :
RDay13 :
Eniitan :
geeogree :
NovemberJoy :
Eirinn :


Well, I wanted to be a contributing member of the community here, so I tried really hard to do so by making reviews, posting often around the board, and trying to be good and helpful member like rd, but I didn't seem to get anywhere. I felt like I failed to be good member here overall. Over time I kept thinking about it, and eventally got depressed about it. I took it out a number of ways. Leaving threads, erasing my comments, and just spamming on a few threads from time to time. And there you have it everyone. I'm sorry for acting this way for a long time. At first, I didn't want to post this because I was afraid what others might say, but not anymore. As long as I'm being truthful with myself, than that's all that matters.

SuperCrash64 :
Zlinqx :
imamonster :

I would like to thank you guys for giving me the courage to finally stop caring about what others would think about what I post, and be honest with myself. Thanks to that, I have no regrets now.

I want to say that I can somewhat relate. When I lost tp I also started doing some stuff like that, you're definitely not the only one.

I am not mad at you, and I don't think anyone is, just try to do better.

And you say ''didn't get you anywhere.'' I'm not completely sure what you mean by that. Do you mean getting TP?If so, I can also relate to that. last year when I lost TP and eventually got banned, I did my absolute best to get it back, and when I only got one TP I felt like I had failed, but you really shouldn't worry about TP. Sure its fun to have, but in the end it doesn't matter that much. And if you just consistently do good, you'll get it back, a lot of members have, and i'm sure we can, too.

imamonster : Well, I didn't get very far trying to be a good member or gaining tp. I managed to earn it back a few times before, but ultimately lost it again. I figured one of the staff members hated me. I feel like I letted down a lot of people. To be honest, I still want this account to be erased, but Geeogree, gamerforlifeforever2, and barathemos informed me that it wasn't possible to do it on requests. And I didn't want to post porn or something bad like that, so I just letted it go. Its probably too late to make up for what I did now. All the bad things I have been doing is always going to follow me around on here and people are going to remember me for that. Its really sad, but I did this to myself.

The fact that this has been going on for some time now really makes me feel like there's something bigger that's bothering you behind the scenes. Losing trust points can be difficult,  but it seems to be really eating at you. 

I think it might be in your best interest to start seeking help for depression. I'm not a doctor, and I don't know for sure, but I'm getting that vibe off of you.

plasticinsanity : Losing all my tp again and again was a pretty hard blow to take, but also my former friends treating me badly and giving me the vibe that they look down on me was even worse. Trying to be a better person and approve is meaningless now.

Final Weapon : If you're seeking approval, you're constantly going to be disappointed. You can't please everybody, and let's face it - on the internet, there's always going to be somebody who doesn't like you. It's also very, very easy to misinterpret what is said through text, and I've seen this done a lot on vizzed. 

Again, take my suggestion or don't, but it's just a suggestion.

plasticinsanity : I suppose you're right. All this time I've been seeking approval and acceptance on here, but was met with disappointment every time. I feel like a fool for going out of my way to please everyone and make them like me. Is there anything else left for me here now? I have no friends, I can't be a contributing member, and I'm overall not a fun person to be around or talk with.

To be honest, if I am your standard for how to behave solely based on the fact that I have 29.8 TP and you have 0, then it won't help at all. Frankly, I don't even know if I'm a good example to follow. There are a lot more users who are nicer, more helpful, and/or contribute more to the community. 

Another thing, numbers are great and all, but at the end of the day, they are just numbers. The one piece of advice that I can give you is to make meaningful relationships with people on Vizzed. I'm not talking about posting in their threads, or replying to their posts. Go to the chatroom, PM, Steam, Skype, etc. I don't know if I'm right about this, but you seem to have the wrong motivation. This is the best analogy I can offer. There are 2 people. Both of them are trying to become doctors. One is doing it so he can get a lot of money, and the other one is doing it so that he can save people's lives. Which one do you think, not only will be more productive, but also enjoy their job? That's right, the second one. Now, I'm not saying that I'm the doctor who does it just for the love of other people, because I'm not that good. I'm also not saying you're only doing it for the numbers. Try to take a different approach. Instead of trying to get trust points and be a "helpful, contributing member", be there for your friends. Talk to them as much as you can. Form meaningful bonds with them. Then, you will enjoy the site a lot more. 

(Sorry if this came off as rude or narcissistic, I wasn't trying to be either.) 

Honestly you've repeated this cycle of doing things then making threads apologizing too many times for people to still take you seriously. I suspect most people will just see this as empty words and expect you to go back to how you were acting before too long. You don't seem to have changed one bit since you started doing this. If you're serious on wanting to change people's mind do so through actions not words. Making a thread like this proves nothing. I'm not saying that to be disrespectful I'm just giving you the truth the way I see it.  

An advice I'd have for you, is stop making threads asking to be permabanned (that is better handled in PMs anyway) and about your TP or other drama inducing topics. If you really feel the need to ask the higher ups something PM them in stead. All the threads serve to do is creating drama which isn't fun for anyone. Sure you may say you don't intend on doing that now but as has been shown you may be prone to change your mind. Remember and actually do that and it may help change people's perception of you. If not then people's opinon of you is only going to get worse. Whatever is causing you to act this way this approach certainly isn't helping getting to the root of the problem.

" the truth to why I have be doing all of these things for too long now "

When was this explained?

I saw no explanation for WHY you've done anything you've done over the last few months. You are not obligated to give details of things you were prefer remained private but it seems strange to include that in the title and then not actually give details about WHY.

Final Weapon : I will always forgive you Final Weapon your one of my best friends on here and SuperCrash64, Zlinqx, and imamonster weren't the only ones telling you to stop giving a s**t about what people think I was saying it too though I guess it took you long enough to finally listen to them and me but I'm glad to hear your finally listening to what we have to say and taking our advice to heart we want to help you the best we can Final Weapon

also I've said this before and I will keep saying it tillz it sticks if your having a problem on the site or need someone to talk to then please come to me I'm more then happyz to offer you the help you need I promise ^^

so no more making posts and deleting what you say or spamming on other threads because your frustrated or upset ok if you start feeling upset PM me damn it I want to help you feel betterz since that is what good friends are for!

Final, i see you apologized. That's good, but i still don't quite understand what's going on here. I understood it like so: Final did things which didn't made everyone happy, and now he apologized. Okay, i understand for Final that this cannot go on all the time, so i forgive him too. Although i don't know what is happening here.

First things first..
Fixing the failed summon:

yoshirulez! :





At the end of the day everyone knows the Trust Point system is flawed and is a popularity system.   I've been  TP attacked back in 2013 to the point were I was at Negative 1.  
Did I ever let it get to me? No because I always kept in mind, there's more to vizzed then the TP system.

If the trust point system is to ever be fixed up, then the downrating option needs to go away since it's the only thing that's been abused by the vizzed community.( Yes I'm referring to you people who hide and downrate for no reason, lol at you buddy)


I'd digress that's a different topic all together,  but the point is don't ever let TP ruin this site for you.


Also:  Being yourself is the best option here.   For me I live by a simple rule when posting and that's being yourself.  I don't care if others try to get me to change my verdict on topics, because at the end of the day,  I'm an indivdual who speaks their mind, just as anybody else. 

And if you try pleasing everyone, you end up ticking off everyone instead most of the time.    


If your ready to move on, I will agree on what the others said and that these threads do need to stop.  You've gotten a lot of support from nearly everybody, so anything else at this point is pretty exaggerating. 


Enjoy vizzed while it's here, and have a nice day.   Regards-SC64

Well I mean, I didn't try to become a helpful member of vizzed. All I did was do my best to have fun while doing whatever it was that I do.

You should do that, too. As long as you be yourself and do things you like, you'll contribute a lot

RDay13 :
Zlinqx :
geeogree :
Jygin :
MrBeingcool1 :
SuperCrash64 :
yoshirulez:

That sounds like a good idea, rd, but I fear that it might be too late to form meaning bonds and friendships with other members of the community here now because I kept getting depressed and creating all kinds of drama to the point where other users starting removing me from their list. I was so consumed with obtaining tp and gaining acceptance that it costed me my friendship with you and a few other users on here that I liked. To tell the truth, my life is pretty bad. I have not a single friend, I'm always in solitude with no one to talk with. Which is why I was very excited to become a member here at first. It was pretty good until I made that second account and got caught. After that, I started letting my life get to me, and became depressed more often. A lot of things begin troubling me. I wished I had someone I could've talked to it about during all that ago. I think it would've brought me peace of mind before things got worse with the leaving threads and all. While I still believe approving is possible for me, I feel that it'll be meaningless. I just did too much, and probably humiliated myself beyond all repair on vizzed now. Well, that pretty much sums up why I been acting this way for a while now on here. thanks for all the support and advice you all gave everyone. Appreciated it. God bless.

Why so down, chum? What is ailing you? Trust points? Paltry posts?

Ultrajeff : Well, I'm still a little depressed about how everyone just left me hanging like that, but I understand that they were tired of my erratic behavior, so I have no ill
will towards them. I'm just emotionally hurt now. That's all.

Final Weapon : I have never once left you hanging I've always been here for you ... you've just been too stubburn to come and talk to me when ever your feeling down/depressed or are having a problem ... granted I'm not a mod but I'll always be here for you no matter what so come to me if you need help ok *hugs you tight*

Jygin : I am so sorry, Jygin. That previous post was me just saying what most of the others members who were acquainted with me did after they got tired of my erratic behavior. Please don't think it was directed at you in any way. *Hugs you even tighter*

Final Weapon : it's ok all is forgiven I get that people did that to you ... it does suck that it happened though don't let it get to you to the point that you forget all of your friends that love you and will have your back no matter what happens *kisses your cheek* I'm one of your best friends on here so don't be afraid to come and talk to me when you have a problem ok because I'm more then happyz to help my friends out when they are in need ^-^