Things have really been going downhill for me ever since I lost all my tp. A few people also removed me from their friends, too. I came back hoping that things would get better for me if I stayed and kept trying to be a good member, but it apparently only got worse. Now I just feel unwelcome altogether. I regret ever deciding to return. Then again, maybe not because I got to meet supernerd and jygin. They gave me a lot of helpful advice and never removed me from their friends list despite all the drama I caused.

Jygin :
supernerd117 :

I'm sorry, but I'm grievous about everything that have happened. I don't want to be here anymore thanks to that. If you like, I can still send you my friend code, though.

You are putting WAY too much stock in things that do not matter. Sure, it is nice to get trust points but they are not the only thing that matters. Friends on your friend list are (in my opinion) basically meaningless. I've got tons of friends on my list and do you know how many I talk to on a daily basis? Maybe 1 or 2. Doesn't mean most of those people are my friend does it?

And if I'm being honest, your behavior has been a bit erratic over the last couple months. Making threads and then editing everything out of them all of a sudden. This is the sort of behavior that makes people question whether they can trust you.

You are free to leave if you REALLY want to but I would recommend at the most just taking a short break from the site to clear your head and then come back with a fresh perspective. You aren't going to get along with everyone here and that doesn't matter.

Anyway, I feel like I'm rambling now but don't leave just because a few people may not like you. I imagine there are more people who want you around than who want you gone. That should mean something.

Final Weapon : geeogree is right Final Weapon there are more people that want you there then who want you to leave ... your depression and paranoia are starting to get to you again and are trying to make you isolate yourself ... please don't give into that you are doing good at being a good person ... though he is also right that you need to stop second guessing yourself on threads and stop deleting what you write in your posts because your afraid of what people might say

*hugs you tight* I'd greatly miss you if you were to leave Vizzed permanently since your one of my best friends on here and I'd do anything to see you smile since that is what good friends are for ... I didn't get trust points right away nor does being trusted do much of anything for you outside of giving you a few new forums to post in ... I stillz can't see into some restricted threads even if they are pertaining to my other friends on here so I have to trust that it isn't anything major or bad happening to them and move on to the threads I can see

as shallow and heartless as this may sound you sorta gotz to stop giving a sh*t what everyone and their cat thinkz aboutz you or it will just drive you crazy and cause you to get sick because your stressing yourself out too much ... the only opinions that should matter to you are those of your friendz and family who lovez and carez aboutz you ok ... trust me I was once in your shoes Final Weapon and I was depressed and sometimes it made me physically sick with a cold brought upon me by my own stress and it isn't a good way to go through your life

I hope my advice will help you Final Weapon and you have nothing to be sorryz aboutz since you haven't done anything at all wrong by me ^^

Final Weapon : I'll keep you as a friend, but even if knew this already (which i didn't until now) i still would. It's been a great dream of mine to have trust points myself, and if i could i would really like to help you out. I think you're just thinking that everyone hates you. Not that i don't believe you, but if you think you're being hated, that's... nonsense. I don't hate you, Geeo up there doesn't hate you... No one does, as we all have no reasons to hate you. And unfriending you because you lost your trust points?! Why in the holy cow's name would somebody use THAT as a reason?! It's a weird reason to unfriend someone.

Heck yes! I still want to exchange friend codes. I'm sorry for not getting to it last night. I've had a lot of problems juggling responsibilities/helping people out/dealing with addiction/etc. I won't get into the nitty-gritty of it here. But suffice it to say that if you ever need me, I will do my best to be there for you. I'm not perfect, though; so I will mess up sometimes. Just count on us! I believe in Jygin and I believe in you. You guys are awesome. We should maybe do Steam chat or something sometime. Just for fun. What do you say?

Jygin : Whatcha think about this?

supernerd117 : I do have a steam account and 18m, User, and RD have already added me on it my username on there is Zathero feelz free to add me on there also if you both want to

Final Weapon : *Sighs* What did I tell you?....see these is one of the things I mentioned on your profile. And your doing the same thing again. I won't say much because geeo has said what I would actually said if I replied a lot more sooner. Leave for a while to clear your head and then think properly before coming back. Its really getting tiring the see the same thing over and over again. I am sorry to be harsh on you but its the truth. And another thing. For people to remove you off your friends list you did something wrong. They had a reason too. Final you had and made good friends and you know what happened next you lost most. I said you will need to earn their trust back and it wouldn't happen so quickly. You do something wrong and take people for granted with your actions things happen. But if you keep on top with your behavior it won't happen.

Even if you make a mistake people will see you are willing to try again, and be remorseful of it. But if you keep doing the same thing like a broken record tape. It would make those people harder to trust you again. That's why people always need to think before they act like I told you. The choice is up to you no one can do it. You said you are tired of drama? When someone starts a drama to happen it wouldn't go away that quickly and plus its something that YOU need to fix. So its not anyone elses fault. and you can't say that people didn't try to help you. because we did. Whatever you wish I hope for the best. Good luck.

Alright, since the title of thread is "I'm going to be honest.", I will be honest as well. I'm sorry if I come off as rude here, but you can't expect to get trust points when you make leaving threads every 2 weeks. You'll probably be back in a few days, at most, and make another leaving thread in a few weeks. I'm sorry, but I have been keeping this in for a long time now, and it's getting kind of sad, to be honest. Not only do you do that, but you tend to spam in a lot of your posts as well. One sentence posts just to increase your post count isn't going to get you trusted again. If you actually wanted to become a trusted member, you would help other members instead of complaining about your problems 24/7. I've tried to be nice and helpful to you for a while, but over the last week or 2, I've quit. If you were actually that hurt about losing your "friends", you would have changed your ways a little while ago. Instead, you have chosen to keep doing the same stuff you always do. Good luck with whatever you're going to do from now on, and hope it goes well. 

TP literally means nothing when you're already trusted or above. You only get a few extra things, which I'm sure you know about since you've been trusted before. They're called TRUST points (but I'd honestly say they're more popular points but that's for another time) for a reason, and as Rday said, saying you're leaving every 2 weeks and never following through with what you said you'd do is not a good way to earn trust. If anything, it's a great way to lose trust. Users take other users off their friendlist if they honestly didn't feel that they were actually a friend, which can be for various reasons. Like doing something that doesn't want to make them your friend anymore or simply not talking to that person for a long time. I'll say it right now, I can't remember a recent (a duration of 3 months) where we've actually talked, which is why I did remove you. That doesn't mean I'll never friend you again, however. Besides, the friendlist doesn't mean all that much...

That being said, if taking a break from Vizzed will do you some good, then do just that. I think that'd help you clear your mind and not be so bothered by people taking you off your friendlist and TP.

You're... not serious when you say that the loss of TP is a reason why you wanna leave Vizzed, right? Oh boy, come on. Let me tell you something: there's a lot of things I don't really care that much about. TPs, post ratings (sometimes, that thing amuses me for some reason), the TdV (which I lost complete interest truthfully, I mean I've already achieved what I wanted to do so it seems pointless to remake that over and over again; plus some people take that competition way too seriously in my opinion )... honestly I don't care. I dealt with lot of problems in the few past years and I'm still facing problems. But I know everytime I go to Vizzed, I'm going to read some threads more or less interesting, eventually I'll comment like I'm doing at the moment AND, the most important, I can spend some time with friends on the server and on the website. I can smile, I can laugh, I can throw all my real life problems away because it's another world. I can do what I've always wanted to do: playing games and writing game guides. This is mostly how I got that title stuck forever on my forehead: the very first game guide writer of Vizzed Board. That position never existed before I came to Vizzed and talked to David and tRIUNE about that idea. And the legacy carries on with great people who are still doing this.

I know, that may sound harsh. My apologies then. Though, these people here did sum up everything and I share their opinion at 100%. There are things you should not take way too seriously, such as the loss of your TPs. There's worse than that.

Final Weapon : *holds you close and rubs your back soothingly* it's not a problem honest Final Weapon your not the first friend I've had to do this for and you probably won't be the last one either ... I'm always happyz to help out my best friendz in their time of need just please no more holding it inside of you and letting it destroy you and drive you crazy ... you shouldn't give depression that much power over you I knowz you can be a fighter so don't let it win if you need to someone to talk to and let out the negative emotions I'm here for you and so is supernerd, geeogree, plasticinsanity, and your other good friendz


we are all here for you to talk to so stop thinking that your going to make a pest of yourself or be a bother if you want to come to one of us and talk because your not ok please listen to me when I say it YOUR NOT A BOTHER OR A PEST IF YOU COME TO US NEEDING HELP ok we are your friends and we are more then happyz to help you out in your time of need no matter what ^-^

I'm trying my best not to be rude right now, as I'm already in a bad mood. I kind of want to wait till I calm down, but I might forget to post here. 

This is the exact reason why you've been losing trust points and friends. You say "I'm gonna leave, bye" then you come back a day or 2 later. I'm not telling you to leave and never come back, but if you're going to do something, make up your mind. People won't like it when you keep going back and forth between leaving and staying. 

I really don't know how many chances you want. To be honest, even if I give you another chance, you'll probably make another leaving thread in a few weeks and make tons of "Please close this, nvm" threads. 

I don't know what to tell you. The only way you can get your friends back and your TP as well is by earning people's trust, which can't be done if you say you're gonna leave every other week. 

Local Mods : I won't do this again. Please trash.

You say that you're going to stop with all the leaving/returning and deleting posts yet here you are again editing all your posts out.
This is exactly what is causing people to get annoyed at you. Don't blame others for causing you to want to leave because they removed you from their friend list or took away your TP, you only have yourself to blame. 

And I'm going to be honest here. As a mod, please stop summoning us to every thread you make like 24 hours after posting it and asking for it to be closed. There's nothing wrong with the thread and it's really getting on my nerves. If you don't want your threads around then stop making them.

With that said,

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