Hey guys, I don't know if many remember me but I had been a regular user on vizzed, it seems it's changed a bit, but I still feel like I can put my thoughts on here, it's a great community.

One of the reasons why I haven't been on is that I was in a pretty serious car accident when I flipped the car 5 times and pretty much tore my head open. Needless to say, I haven't had the time or patience to even really use the internet, even though it's about the only thing I can do right now.

Obviously that's not the point of this thread.

Last Tuesday night, my mom went to the hospital for what seemed to be a routine matter with her chest pain,as has been the case for a while now. I spent the night in the waiting room until the nurse rushed in and said she had destabilized. It wasn't long after that, that the doctors told us that there was really nothing they could do to restabelize her to be transported to her cardiologist, who pretty much said that they couldn't do anything there either.

She didn't make it through the night, and I was at her bedside holding her hand when she passed.

It's just  really hard to believe right now, and all I can do is clean things or do something to keep me busy because if I sat still I"d drive myself crazy.

I was just wondering if anyone has had a similar experience, and how did they deal with it? My family is is known to internalize grief and it makes it  even worse. Anyway,, appreciate any feedback, just going through a rough time.